Do you feel it will happn for you?

[mrshan]

Tink, I definitely have low points when I'm not so zen about AF coming around. It's okay to be devastated once in a while, as long as you come out of it and keep your hopes up that it'll happen.

I'm with you on that one, Joccy! My exhusband would be a good dad, but I don't want him to be the father of my children, so I'm glad we didn't have any accidents years ago.

I don't think you can ever visualize it 100%. My coworker has a 1-year-old, and she still boggles at how much her life has changed and is still changing since she became a mom. She has a baby and I don't think she's able to visualize being the parent of a pre-schooler, a pre-teen, or eventually another adult. It's too hard to imagine something so different from your current life. It gives me hope because she had trouble ttc after an ectopic and got her bfp.

Baby dust to all!

 

[Joccy]

What CD are you on Mrshan?

 

[mrshan]

CD25 for me, Joccy. If I don't get AF by Monday morning, I'll buy a HPT to see whether or not I can drink some Guinness. I suspect I'll be drinking because I don't have any encouraging symptoms and BD wasn't timed well this cycle, but I'll know one way or the other soon.

 

[Joccy]

I hope you bet a BFP! I feel rather doubtful I'll be that lucky this month since overall I don't feel different, and I'm getting my regular PMS signs. There's always next month! I'm trying my best to look at the bright side as well and tell myself that I can have a few drinks as soon as AF comes!

 

[ladders]

That's exactly how I feel if I close my eyes and image a hpt I just can't see the second line. Might be because in the start I was poas addict and have seen enough bfn to last a lifetime.
Married in august and have been ttc #1 since then after 8 cycles I'm loosing hope. Less than perfect sperm results with every possible ttc aid and trick going and nothing seems to work. Just thought it would be easy and exciting and enjoyable but it is the exact opposite. I have never enjoyed anything less!

 

[mrshan]

Hey ladders,

Don't give up hope- it's way too soon for that!

How do you know you have "less than perfect sperm results"? Has your DH already had a SA?

I think we're holding out until August this year to see doctors for either of us. That will have been a little over a year of trying, and my cycles were wonky until Dec after getting of BC.

 

[ladders]

Yes we did a stupid In house sperm test that got me worried so we went to the doctors and he had a sperm analysis which showed count at 47mil (so in house one wrong) but high abnormal forms. Had a second a month later and 46mil with normal abnormal forms but poor motility and high viscosity. I'm taking hope from the fact that although both tests had bad news they weren't replicated so not a consistent problem. We got letters saying abnormal results both times 48hours before we got the results so was the most stressful and upsetting 48 hours ever so much that dh refusing to do anymore tests until the end of the year if no luck and I can't be mad at him because I don't blame him!
Just trying to relax and get on but with every af arriving after perfectly timed bd it just feels like something must be wrong and it will never happen.
Seems like it either happens really quickly or your in for the long heartaching road.
Know I'm moany but just feel af isn't far away again.
How long have you been trying?

 

[mrshan]

How long have you been trying?

No worries, Ladders. I haven't been trying that long either, and it still feels way too hard. I'm waiting for my 11th cycle to be over, and expecting AF on Sunday or Monday. Sounds like we might be cycle buddies! There's a whole bunch of girls on the TWW board that are testing on St. Patty's Day.

It's nice to obsess about TTC with like-minded women so I don't sound like a raving lunatic to my DH. Every time I complain about not BD'ing on time, or not BD'ing frequently enough, or I'm depressed about another month without a , I know that all DH hears is me saying "It's all your fault." I'm not saying that at all, but guys just don't know how to let a girl vent.

 

[lady124]

...and it definitely feels like it will never happen for us. I ovulated this month, my prolactin was in the normal range, had lots of sex around the time of ovulation. WHAT IS WRONG?

 

[ladders]

Yeah I think that my dh feels like it's his fault that I'm upset at af time. Been trying to hide it because I want comfort and a shoulder to cry on but he gets mad and I think it's because he blames himself.
Af due for me Monday or Tuesday and I'm usually a 26 day cycle so looks like we are cycle buddies! Vowed not to test unless af not here weds because if I see one more bfn I may go on a killing spree!

 

[ladders]

Lady124 did you have anything for prolactin levels? I had bloods that came back as high and then repeated but it normal range and so they are not testing anymore but it worries me

 

[mrshan]

...and it definitely feels like it will never happen for us. I ovulated this month, my prolactin was in the normal range, had lots of sex around the time of ovulation. WHAT IS WRONG?

So sorry to hear about af, Lady124. I give myself one day when the witch shows up to throw myself a big ole pity party, cry my eyes out, get cuddled and coddled by DH, and generally hate everyone who has already managed to procreate. Then I brush myself off and get back to being positive. We have to keep our hopes up!

 

[BabyChaser09]

This is EXACTLY how I feel. We've been TTC for 10 months. I've always felt (YEARS before marriage and TTC) that I wouldn't be able to get pregnant. I was really optimistic in the beginning when my hubby and I started TTC, thinking that if we BD enough, theres absolutely no reason I shouldn't be pregnant soon. Especially since my periods and ovulation are extremely regular. After about 7 months of TTC, I'm definitely thinking it will never happen, and it almost feels like I'm wasting my time even trying! I'm like "who am I kidding? Me? Pregnant?". Plus, it doesn't help that everyone is asking us when we're having babies. While we've been TTC, my cousin unexpectedly got pregnant, and is due next month, and my sister in law is 3 months pregnant. And everyone is still looking at us and wondering when our turn is. Blah.

 

[twinkletoes14]

This is exactly how I feel too!! We've also been ttc for 10 months and I really do feel like it's never going to happen and that everyone around me is pregnant! Why does it seem like it's so easy for everyone else? xx