tinymumma
Mummy to a rainbow boy
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I'm so terribly sorry if this bring anyone pain but I just don't know what to do. As I draw closer to the second tri, I've found myself becoming even more afraid. I braced myself for a m/c, however I know hitting the 12 week mark won't ease my concerns, rather make them a million times worse.
I lost my daughter at almost 19 weeks. I was very young and nobody knew I was even pregnant, so I had her, alone. No medical attention so I never got to find out what caused it. My OH lost his daughter at 22 weeks due to a separated cervix which the doctors chose to ignore after detection on an internal scan. I'm just so frightened that we will both have to go through it all again I don't really know what causes second tri losses, however I know they are more common than medical professionals care to admit.
As I said, I apologise from the bottom of my heart if I have upset anyone, as I know this isn't really the right place for me to be posting, I just wish that I could enjoy this pregnancy. Be able to be normal and complain about backaches and such, when all I can ever think is "is my baby going to die today"? Thank you for reading I don't really know why I felt the urge to post this, probably because I don't want to talk to OH about it as it distresses us both and my own mother will give me the biggest death stare if I so much as head in the direction...
I lost my daughter at almost 19 weeks. I was very young and nobody knew I was even pregnant, so I had her, alone. No medical attention so I never got to find out what caused it. My OH lost his daughter at 22 weeks due to a separated cervix which the doctors chose to ignore after detection on an internal scan. I'm just so frightened that we will both have to go through it all again I don't really know what causes second tri losses, however I know they are more common than medical professionals care to admit.
As I said, I apologise from the bottom of my heart if I have upset anyone, as I know this isn't really the right place for me to be posting, I just wish that I could enjoy this pregnancy. Be able to be normal and complain about backaches and such, when all I can ever think is "is my baby going to die today"? Thank you for reading I don't really know why I felt the urge to post this, probably because I don't want to talk to OH about it as it distresses us both and my own mother will give me the biggest death stare if I so much as head in the direction...