Sass827, I know what you mean, I'm hungry all the time too, now I'm not quite sure why but I found that if I skipped a meal it felt like I hadn't eaten all day!
Well... We just got back from the doctors and I have nothing but bad news it seems...
Worse thing is, I feel like I should have been better prepared for this, I told my family I was scared of this, that I felt it was going to happen again. I wanted to stay positive and I even picked out names and now I feel utterly destroyed. I even feel guilty that I feel like this because it's not like this would have been my only child, I already have 2, I thought that would give me some kind of comfort but it doesn't.
We had the ultrasound done but as soon as she went to look, there was nothing there, just the gestational sac, she thinks she saw a baby on the side of it but there was no heartbeat. I was hoping maybe if she turned the ultrasound around again something would pop up and then she'd be like "Oh there it is!" but just the sound of her voice talking about it drove me to burst into tears. I know she says it's not our fault, there's nothing we could have done to prevent it but even DH says he feels like he failed me and I feel like I failed too.
My doctor is trying to be hopeful, even though the sac looks to size she said she wanted to look at my blood work again over a 48 hour period, maybe my dates were way off... I had blood work done this morning, I have to go back in on Saturday to have them drawn again to see if my HCG levels are doubling or not but she feels as if we lost this one...
I'm not really sure what's next, I've had a blighted ovum before but my doc then was different and he didn't even check the blood levels, he just rushed to get me a D&E and that was that. I'm glad she's checking further, I feel much better about that at least. If we have to go through another D&E/D&C then I will... I just don't get it, I still feel sick, hungry and tired, I smell everything, I still feel pregnant, I'm not bleeding and I'm not having any cramps, it's just such a shock.
I'm trying to understand what we're doing wrong, even though this was an accidental pregnancy, I started to want this baby more then anything, we even picked out names. DH and I just sat in the car and cried when we left.

We called MIL and let her know, but DH also told her not to be happy about this because the person she is, she would be so snide about it. He even warned her about calling his ex-wife that she's so buddy buddy with and bragging about it because she's the type of person who would do such a thing...

I spoke with my parents already... they were in the room the first time I found out I'd lost the baby in 06 before my daughter and it was deemed a blighted ovum so they both already know how I'm feeling and DH told them to not get so down because if we do end up losing this pregnancy, we're going to actually try this time and we will have a third child no matter what it takes... My father will take care of talking to my grandmother... she was upset that I was pregnant in the first place so I can just imagine what she'll say if she finds out I might have lost it and I really don't want to hear it right now.
I'm going to try and take my mind off things for now and do some chores around the house. DH and I stopped at the store and bought 'comfort' food, DS was pretty happy to see cookies in the cart for once

and then probably just going to lay down with DS until DD comes home from school.
I've got to call my OB on Monday to see what the results are, I feel like I already know so I'm preparing for the worst but I'll keep you guys updated too on what happens. Part of me is hopeful my dates were just completely off but I'm sure as Monday comes closer, the reality of the situation will sink in.