Due In May :)

[Powell130]

megan. I am so sorry to hear that. There are no words for how you must feel!

 

[Megan1986]

Thank you for the support ladies. The feelings I am experiencing are so difficult, and unlike anything I have felt before. I am going to move forward to take the abortion pill to pseed up the process, because my baby has already had is life ended, and I want to physically be able to move forward. I know God has a plan, though I cannot understand the pain i am feeling, I know there is a birght future for me and my husband. Thank you again.

 

[Powell130]

Thank you for the support ladies. The feelings I am experiencing are so difficult, and unlike anything I have felt before. I am going to move forward to take the abortion pill to pseed up the process, because my baby has already had is life ended, and I want to physically be able to move forward. I know God has a plan, though I cannot understand the pain i am feeling, I know there is a birght future for me and my husband. Thank you again.

miscarriages are very difficult. I couldn't imagine being as far along as you were and it happening but keep in mind, you are very fertile for the first few months following one. That's what landed me here now. Positive thought & vibes your way hun!

 

[prolifer]

You peeps are made of stronger stuff than me, I don't think I could handle such a thing. Keep strong Megan xx

 

[prolifer]

...and I'm not moving over to 2nd tri by myself, who is coming with me?

 

[Hann12]

Well according to my last scan I should be in tri 2 on Tuesday so not far behind. But will see what date they say on Friday! Yay for tri too!!

 

[Starry Night]

Hate to be a downer but it looks like you're going to have to add an by my name too. The stupid hospital must have thought I was lying because they refused to give me an ultrasound but my HCG is way, waaaaay lower than it was two weeks ago. They won't confirm until Friday morning. So I get a whole day and half to torture myself with false hopes but I know. Betas aren't supposed to go down this early yet.

 

[BellaRosa8302]

Thank you for the support ladies. The feelings I am experiencing are so difficult, and unlike anything I have felt before. I am going to move forward to take the abortion pill to pseed up the process, because my baby has already had is life ended, and I want to physically be able to move forward. I know God has a plan, though I cannot understand the pain i am feeling, I know there is a birght future for me and my husband. Thank you again.

Megan. So sorry for your loss

Starry - hang in there, you never know... fingers crossed & praying for you!

 

[Hann12]

Starry I'm so so sorry, I really hoped that this was going to be okay for you. I know you have a supportive husband and family and I hope they can help you through this hard time. I'll be thinking of you

 

[prolifer]

Starry big hugs to you xx

 

[Powell130]

...and I'm not moving over to 2nd tri by myself, who is coming with me?

I'll move with you on Sunday when I'm 13 weeks I'm excited for the move!!! How about you??

 

[Powell130]

Hate to be a downer but it looks like you're going to have to add an by my name too. The stupid hospital must have thought I was lying because they refused to give me an ultrasound but my HCG is way, waaaaay lower than it was two weeks ago. They won't confirm until Friday morning. So I get a whole day and half to torture myself with false hopes but I know. Betas aren't supposed to go down this early yet.

 

[Powell130]

Thinking of you ladies..

 

[AerisandAlex]

I'm so sorry Megan

I've still got my fingers crossed for you Starry

 

[Sass827]

I'm confused: is the second tri the beginning of week 13 or the end?

I'm sorry star. the limbo has to be terrible.

 

[mathgenius33]

I'm coming with you to the second tri Pro. It's been so nice to finally be open to telling people lately and to be done with the worst of the morning sickness and fatigue. I can't wait for the rest of you to join us too before you know it.

 

[Starry Night]

Thanks, ladies. It really does mean a lot. Part of me won't believe it until my scan on Friday. I mean, I'm only getting a scan on Friday if my betas go down from today but I know they will. They were 73,000 two weeks ago and only 29,000 today. If my original due date was correct then this might not be a problem as hcg peaks at 10 weeks (my original due date would have me at 11 weeks) but with the baby's slow growth plus the cramps and bleeding I'm forcing myself not to feed any false hopes. I'm just preparing myself for what is coming.

Good luck to everyone. All the best for your May babies!

 

[Sass827]

Are you having lots of bleeding? I read your HcG numbers are still in normal range.

 

[prolifer]

I am excited to move on to the second trimester, I am not liking first tri very much as there are too many dropping out it's sad and I wish I could help but I can't do a damn thing.

 

[Starry Night]

They are still in normal range but they're going down. I'm not gushing but it's thick when I wipe.

I guess there is like a 1/2% chance things are OK but I've been feeling 'off' for a few days now and that something is wrong. Things just don't feel right. It's hard to explain but I had that leading up to my first miscarriage as well.

Seriously, I'm really trying not to give myself any false hope. It's really hard. I'm trying to steel myself for what is most likely to happen.

But enough of me bringing things down. I do have a lovely, terrific DH to look after me and once my friends know about my loss I know they will rally around me best they can. And I have such a lively, happy-go-lucky 15 month old that it's hard to be sad around him. I will be OK....eventually