Early 30's TTC #1

[mrsmax]

Hopeful

 

[rosababy]

Ugh. I'm so sorry, hopeful. When is your official testing date?

 

[MrsPTTC]

hopeful, hope the cow bag stays away!

Good luck with tomorrows appointment mrsmax!

My cyst is giving me pain today, I don't know if its cos I'm ovulating today, & maybe from the side where the cyst is . Took a random temp this morning & its defo pre ovulation so we'll see what happens tomorrow (I'll take another one even though I'm not officially temping!) Wonder what my doc says tomorrow about the cyst/spotting, I'm scared in case he just tells me not to worry! x

 

[mrsmax]

hopeful, hope the cow bag stays away!

Good luck with tomorrows appointment mrsmax!

My cyst is giving me pain today, I don't know if its cos I'm ovulating today, & maybe from the side where the cyst is . Took a random temp this morning & its defo pre ovulation so we'll see what happens tomorrow (I'll take another one even though I'm not officially temping!) Wonder what my doc says tomorrow about the cyst/spotting, I'm scared in case he just tells me not to worry! x

Good luck with your appointment Mrs. I will be checking in to see how it goes. Hoping I dont get fobbed off at mine or I will be mad

 

[Soleil Breeze]

When do we ever stop waiting on this thread? Oh, yeah; when we get our BFPs. It's been a while!

Hopeful - do NOT think you're out for the count yet! One of my buddies tested a day or two earlier than her anticipated AF date, the day of her anticipated AF due date and got BFNs both times. Guess what? She's eight week pregnant now! [She miscarried after me, got pregnant before me; no help on either occasion; you know how that goes...] So what I'm saying is, there's still a possibility. What odds did your doctor give you of the IUI working? Ours is 15-18% each time.

mrspttc - wonderful news on O! Clomid did that for me, too (CD 14 from CD 19). Now get to

mrsmax - I hope all goes well at the appointment! Remember you are the patient and can ask all sorts of questions. ASK, ASK, ASK! They are paid to answer!

Me? No spotting, but I feel like AF is impending. I actually thought it had started and went to check, but nothing was there. I'm trying not to look into my "symptoms," but I have to admit, I AM in a better mood today than I thought I would be. At 12dpo I am always spotting. So this IS good. I just that it results in a baby...

 

[Regalpeas]

Hopeful sorry you're feeling down, but don't give up faith yet!

MrsMax hope appointment goes well.

MrsPttc sorry about the cyst. Hope you feel better Glad you had an early surge!

Rosa and Soleil praying for ya! Hang in there with your wait. Hoping for good news.

AFM time for opking today. I havent heard from the FS office. I think I'll give them a call . I have some sort of cold sore throat sick stomach thing going on. I hope it passes soon.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Lost count. But I'm about to start it. Had watery brown spotting today and my temperature started to drop. So, yeah, the universe was F-ing with me. Just held off my spotting a few days longer than normal.

I went to bad last night thinking I was pregnant. Got up this morning and knew I wasn't.

WHY IS THIS SO FREAKING HARD?!!! And now the damn IUI's don't seem to be working.

G.O.D.

This upcoming cycle will be our last IUI. I hold out no hopes. NONE. We'll just piss some more money right before the Holiday. Because we have a money tree. Yup. Sure do.

Oh. And I got a BFN, too. So it's a for sure, "We're out" this cycle. No surprise there.

I'm hoping that I am done crying for the day.

 

[rosababy]

MrsPttc, sorry your cyst is painful. Do those go away on their own, or do you have to get it removed?

Mrsmax, did you have an appointment today? How did it go?

Regal, what's your next step?

Soleil, oh hun. I am so so so sorry. I know just how you feel to have a big cycle smashed down in your face. It's devastating. Have you considered ivf? Do you have insurance to cover it? Massive hugs.


Afm, AF finally came today! (seems weird to be excited about that) But I still can't start my stimulating meds until this weekend. Not sure why I have to wait so long, but evidently it has to be so far into your cycle. So, my schedule will be pushed back a week or so, but at least it won't be canceled due to Christmas break.

 

[mrsmax]

Hey ladies

Soleil I am so sorry it didnt work this time. As you say, it is so bloody unfair!

So, I had my FS appointment yesterday and it was both AWESOME and AWFUL!! As you know, my 2 FS appointments at the other clinic were rubbish, they dischraged me and said I was too old to help on NHS. So booked this one at a different clinic privately, but dr asked to see us through the NHS and....that is because he says the first clinic were worng and as I was referred before my 35th brithday I am eligible for funding

He then went through our history and the options eg Clomid, different types of IUI and then IVF. He explained everything and went trhough some studies with us and made us feel very informed. He then said due to my age he would like to scehdule us for IVF straight away!!!!!!!! Yikes. I was not expecting that!!

So, I have to make another appointment at the clinic and then IVF will be scehduled for the spring. In the meantime, he has prescribed me Clomid. He basically said if I was 30, we would be talking IUI and not IVF, but time is not on our side.

He was lovely and made us trust him completely. The appointment was 40 minutes compared to teh 5 we had at our last two! What a difference a secodn opinion makes.

So, I have to call today to make our prep appointment. I guess that will be February time as on NHS so a bit of waiting.

I am shocked that we are talking IVF, but pleased as punch that someone is taking us seriously and helping us AND we dont have to pay!!!!!!

Wow. Bit in shock, but sooooo relaxed now.

Rosa - I am going to be pumping you for advice when the time comes (by which time you will have a lil bump!!!)

 

[pink80]

My cyst is giving me pain today, I don't know if its cos I'm ovulating today, & maybe from the side where the cyst is . Took a random temp this morning & its defo pre ovulation so we'll see what happens tomorrow (I'll take another one even though I'm not officially temping!) Wonder what my doc says tomorrow about the cyst/spotting, I'm scared in case he just tells me not to worry! x

Sorry about the pain Hope it just means you are ovulating.... Have they said anything about it before..?

AFM time for opking today. I havent heard from the FS office. I think I'll give them a call . I have some sort of cold sore throat sick stomach thing going on. I hope it passes soon.

Anything on the OPKs...? Hope you feel better - it's that time of year when all the bugs are going round

Lost count. But I'm about to start it. Had watery brown spotting today and my temperature started to drop. So, yeah, the universe was F-ing with me. Just held off my spotting a few days longer than normal.

I went to bad last night thinking I was pregnant. Got up this morning and knew I wasn't.

WHY IS THIS SO FREAKING HARD?!!! And now the damn IUI's don't seem to be working.

G.O.D.

This upcoming cycle will be our last IUI. I hold out no hopes. NONE. We'll just piss some more money right before the Holiday. Because we have a money tree. Yup. Sure do.

Oh. And I got a BFN, too. So it's a for sure, "We're out" this cycle. No surprise there.

I'm hoping that I am done crying for the day.

I'm sooo sorry I wish there was something that I could say

Afm, AF finally came today! (seems weird to be excited about that) But I still can't start my stimulating meds until this weekend. Not sure why I have to wait so long, but evidently it has to be so far into your cycle. So, my schedule will be pushed back a week or so, but at least it won't be canceled due to Christmas break.

for AF Hope the meds are ok xx

So, I had my FS appointment yesterday and it was both AWESOME and AWFUL!! As you know, my 2 FS appointments at the other clinic were rubbish, they dischraged me and said I was too old to help on NHS. So booked this one at a different clinic privately, but dr asked to see us through the NHS and....that is because he says the first clinic were worng and as I was referred before my 35th brithday I am eligible for funding

He then went through our history and the options eg Clomid, different types of IUI and then IVF. He explained everything and went trhough some studies with us and made us feel very informed. He then said due to my age he would like to scehdule us for IVF straight away!!!!!!!! Yikes. I was not expecting that!!

So, I have to make another appointment at the clinic and then IVF will be scehduled for the spring. In the meantime, he has prescribed me Clomid. He basically said if I was 30, we would be talking IUI and not IVF, but time is not on our side.

He was lovely and made us trust him completely. The appointment was 40 minutes compared to teh 5 we had at our last two! What a difference a secodn opinion makes.

So, I have to call today to make our prep appointment. I guess that will be February time as on NHS so a bit of waiting.

I am shocked that we are talking IVF, but pleased as punch that someone is taking us seriously and helping us AND we dont have to pay!!!!!!

Wow. Bit in shock, but sooooo relaxed now.

Rosa - I am going to be pumping you for advice when the time comes (by which time you will have a lil bump!!!)

I'm sooooo happy for you It's amazing what can happen when you get a good doctor!!! What a great early christmas present and hopefully you can get an appointment for January and start the year off in a positive way....

I'm hoping 2012 proves to be a great year for all of us

Hopeful - I hope you're ok

to anyone who needs it xxx

AFM - well.... I can't remember if I updated but I went to the the gynae on the 18th. She said that she believes my PCOS and high levels of testosterone are what is causing my MCs, so she has put me onto Metformin and I have to stay on that until such time as I'm lucky enough to get to 12 weeks pg next time. It's making me feel awful, but anything is worth it if I get my rainbow baby. She had also runs thrombophillia tests and said if they show any issues then she will get me back for injections/aspirin - I'm still waiting for the blood test results.

I'm really hoping that the metformin, plus my weightloss (21.5lbs since before I fell pregnant) will help my cycles to become more regular - I've got myself a secondhand clearblue monitor to see what happens....

xxxx

 

[rosababy]

Pink, congrats on the weight loss! Good for you! Let's hope the metformin and weight loss is all it takes.

mrsmax, yay for a good doctor! I can't believe he put you straight on the ivf track already! That's intimidating, I understand, but it's also nice to have a no-nonsense doctor. Some women go through loads of IUIs, and it's devastating each month. This way, you'll jump straight to the mack daddy of procedures and hopefully get lucky on the first time! Ask me anything...(unfortunately), I have become a bit of an expert. Very exciting for you though! And especially since it's covered by insurance! (I hope your 'I'll have a bump' comment is right!!!!)

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Can you believe it? I am now 15 dpo and the testing date for the center is tomorrow. This is just ridiculous. My temperature has dropped even further to 98.1, but damn it, AF is holding off just long enough so that I WON'T be able to do the third IUI in a row! ARGH. At this rate, I won't be getting my positive OPK until Dec 18th or later!!! And I leave on a flight first thing on the 19th. I guess in all reality, the third IUI in a row wouldn't have worked either. Dammit. I really wanted to try though. UGH.

Mrxmax - this is so exciting! I am thrilled that you found someone who took you seriously and gave you options. You are one lucky duck to have it covered, too.

Rosa - no, IVF won't be covered via our insurance, but my husband has found a place where we can get it for a discounted rate (all legit, one of the best clinics in NYC) for about $12,000. Better than nothing. I can't believe we are talking IVF now...did you have to do an endometrial biopsy? or a biopsy of your uterus (might be the same thing)? I've been reading up on IVF like mad since yesterday.

DH is ready for us to move ahead ASAP. Me, too, but I've got to admit that IVF makes me exceedingly nervous. All I can say is these babies better turn out to be good children when they get older! I could just imagine saying to DH when our teenager is God-awful, "We paid how much to conceive him/her?! Do we get a reimbursement?" :wink wink:

Pink80 - so glad to see you back on here. I've heard good things about metformin and women with PCOS. Hopefully, it will get your system adjusted without too much stress/effort.

Sigh. December, ladies. For those of us who have been on here for a year or more, did you think that we'd have made it this damn far into 2011 without being pregnant AT LEAST!?

All is well that ends well. All is well that ends well. BUT when is our TTC #1 journey going to end?

 

[mrsmax]

Hey Soleil. I can't believe I am still not pregant. I expected to spend last Chrsitmas with a big bump and this Christmas with a babe in arms or at least a bloomin big bump.

I pray that none of us are still TTC Christmas 2012. I don't know if I could cope with that.

Please baby Gods let 2012 be our year. Is it too much to ask?

ps I finally got around to putting a profile pic. Promise to find a more exciting one soon!!

 

[pink80]

Thanks Ladies

Soleil - Any sign of AF???

I just can't believe how quick the last 18 months have gone, and how much sh#t I've been through. This christmas is going to be so hard for me - I'm trying not to bring everyone down, but I'm not doing a very good job.

I really hope 2012 is the year for all of us

 

[MrsPTTC]

Regal – hope you’re feeling better!

Soleil – so sorry IUI hasn’t worked this month and that you’re feeling down

Rosa – the cyst should go away on it’s own. I hope next cycle is it for you!

Mrsmax that is fab news, I’m so pleased your appointment went well (better than mine!!) I hope the clomid works for you though and you don’t need the IVF!

Hi Pink, nice to see you back hun! FS doesn’t seem concerned by the pain, don’t get me wrong it’s not bad, but I was relieved last month when I ovulated at the opposite side to the cyst and didn’t get any pain. Fab news about the Metformin, and well done on your weight loss, that’s amazing!

As other ladies have said I really hope 2012 is our year – if no before 2011 is out!!

AFM, sorry if I've been MIA. I was so disappointed at my FS appointment on tuesday, the man was so condescending and I felt stupid . What a bloody waste of time. It was as I hoped it wouldn't be, it was just to put my mind at rest, everything is FINE!! He still maintains spotting is normal, periods are fine (lighter AF's indicate ovulation apparently!) & the cyst is fine, less than 2 inches is good . He still maintains LP defect is a nonsense, I'm reading too much/speaking to the wrong people, using OPKs are a waste if time blah blah blah. I was so upset, obviously I'm glad there's nothing to worry about but could he not just have emailed me to put my mind at rest rather than dragging me down there?! I cried when I came out of the Dr's office . I'm thinking of deleting my bnb favourite from my mobile & just go on when I'm on the laptop so I'm only on a couple of times a week so I'm not SS all the time & getting myself worried about what's happening with other people & thinking it'll happen to me!! x Oh & he reckoned a 11/12 day LP is NOT normal but I had a 14 day LP last month even though I say 12, but who am I to argue with him! But good news that IVF is free in our area if under 40, though it shouldn't come to that. What I thought was really amusing was whilst I was waiting to be seen I looked through a fertility magazine which promoted temping, OPKs, CBFM, conceive plus, accupunacture. Yet he doesn't believe any of it! x

 

[MrsPTTC]

Oh and the last of my good friends has just announced she's pregnant, first cycle off the pill. Life is not fair x

 

[rosababy]

MrsPttc, how dare that doc make you feel so stupid! His job is to make you feel comfortable, give you hope, and then knock you up! Don't leave BnB, just don't go searching on the forum pages. Just stick with your threads. I've stopped searching...just pop on to say hey to my buddies.

soleil, I can not believe I'm still not pregnant this Christmas. Like the rest of you, I expected to have a one year old by this time. Heaven help us if we're not preggo by next Christmas. I honestly don't think I could cope with that. Sorry you're feeling down.

 

[rosababy]

Oh and the last of my good friends has just announced she's pregnant, first cycle off the pill. Life is not fair x

Well good for her. It hurts to hear these, doesn't it?

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks for your support Rosa! Yeah I know, last thing I needed was a lecture . I won't leave bnb but I go on it every day on my phone & think I need to wean myself off it a bit! And yep it certainly did hurt, but I was a bit numb when she told me so I didn't cry. I was expecting it from the moment she told me she was going to start trying, I knew I would be last! x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

We caved and bought some pregnancy tests. I will test again tomorrow. That'll be four days after my BFN. I am still spotting, but it is lighter than the past few days. I feel like my ovaries are working, though, and that my period is here. But every time I check, there's nothing. This has got to be the weirdest cycle I have ever had. I mean, really. Now my hopes are up again slightly.

MrsPTTC - I got mad reading how your doctor treated you. And to say that OPKs are a waste?! Hello?! They are so VERY important in telling us when we're going to O. How long have you been trying now?

Pink80 - My spirit will come hug yours during the Holidays. I am not sure how I will react in the New Year. I was due Jan 5th...It's amazing how time flies. I actually couldn't imagine myself with a big belly. (But I sure hope 2012 brings us all one!)

MrsMax - it is not too much ask. I ask with you!

xx