Early 30's TTC #1

[Regalpeas]

You're right Soleil ON WE GO!!! Glad you and dh are taking a leap of faith on trying. So happy for you!

I can't really imagine a life growing inside of me let alone a bump to prove it on the outside. I think that's why so many are mesmerized and totally enamored once they hear the baby's heart beat, because it's like "no...this is not a joke. There is another person inside of me." Talk about miracles or the amazing aspects of life.

Sorry to everyone who recently got AF/ BFN. I have faith for all of us. There are so many testaments especially around this board that just when you think you're BFP will never come that's the shinning moment! Our shinning moments are coming ladies!!!

ROSA!!!! So....hoping this is it for you. I'm getting excited and counting down. I too thought you're first name was Rosa.


Ready thanks for the tip and your sensitivity. Praying all is well with you and growing LO.


AFM, I'm cramping right now at 8 or 10 dpo. Did not OPK this time so not quite sure which. I've never cramped like this before (well it's a mixture of cramps and shooting pain.) I've had the shooting pains before not the cramps. Honestly, I'm feeling some type of way because if this is not a BFP then what the heck is it? Is it yet another uncomfortable symptom of AF as if I don't have enough of that already. I wanted to test this evening but decided against it when I saw that early morning is the best. I just get sick of this Is it? Isn't it! crap. Ughh sorry for all the frustration. I won't bore you all with my emotions. I just wanted to say that although I am unable to post here as often as I would like I share your angst, your pains, your ups and your downs. Your excitements and your let downs. We stand in solidarity ***lift arms together***

With all seriousness, we will have our LOs!!! FXFXFX


Rooting you all on always!

 

[rosababy]

ready, thanks for popping in! I've never heard of the cinnamon/honey thing. Wish I would have known that a long time ago! Not like it would have made a difference because my tubes are kaput, but I would certainly have tried it! How are you doing?

Rosa!!!! That is fab news I have a very good feeling about this cycle for you! All those follies, wow! . And yes you were right about the blonde & pale!

Thanks! I have a good feeling too. I'm trying not to get my hope up too high, but it's hard when my doc is so positive and then I come on here and everyone is so optimistic!

I'm right...here right now. Body you've been weird?! Where the heck is my BFP?!!!!!

Ugh. Sorry, Regal. Where the heck are all of our bfps?!?!

Rosa - you had me ROFL this time! I am glad that my post inspired you to trim down the hedges some (I hadn't shaved my legs, much less trimmed the hedge!) I also think it's kind'a uncanny how your DH and you finished saying that this was "your cross to bear." When me and DH were discussing it over the weekend, I had told him how I had been frustrated with having to go through IVF and that I was p-o'ed that HE didn't have to do crap while I had to undergo, well, you know, all the IVF stuff. And then I said, but now, the way i see it is, you've got to play the hand you've been dealt. That's if you want to be in the game at all. And I do. We do. I am really happy that you've got plenty more eggies to retrieve this week. That is REALLY fab. news. Were you on a different protocol this cycle?

I can't believe how fast times flies. If I hadn't miscarried in June I would be a couple of weeks away from giving birth. My stomach would have been HUGE. I can't imagine myself like that. Can you? Can you girls see yourselves pregnant? Sorry. :/ Just went on a down note.

Yes, I was on a slightly different protocol. I had stimulating shots twice a day rather than just in the evening, and only one med (even though it was the same amount as the two combined) rather than two. I down-regged (shut down the ovaries) for a bit longer this time since AF was so late. Was on a ton of new supplements and did acupuncture. Something must be working.

Glad I could make you laugh! The retrieval is quite the crowded room, let me tell you. For most of the procedures, it's just the nurse and the doc. For the ET, it's the nurse, doc, another nurse coming in and out, the embryologist, the anaesthesiologist (can't spell that) and probably someone else I just can't remember...AND there is no covering of the area. It's just "helllooo!!! Here I am! Can everyone see okay? No? Let me pull the sheet up even higher and spread my legs even further! How about now?!" Sheesh. Meanwhile, everyone is chit chatting about the weather, probably trying to make me feel more comfortable, or because they've done this a million times, asking the anaesthesiologist about his kids, etc. I'm like HELLOOOO, NAKED WOMAN HERE!

And yes, I can see myself preggo. I went through a time when I couldn't. I'm starting to find hope again. It'll happen, girls.

 

[rosababy]

Regal! We posted at the same time. I like your pma! I can just picture us standing tall together, holding hands, maybe singing Kumba Yah... We WILL do this! We will all have our little ones!!

Those sound like they could be implantation cramps, don't you think?

 

[Regalpeas]

WE WILL hahahahah

I dont know....I wanted to test. I decided against it. I just don't want to get my hopes up. But why not? lol ....because really it could be anything. lol

I'm crazy today.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Sounding good Regal! x

 

[Regalpeas]

Tested this morning--- BFN.


I go with the first BFN. My nerves can't handle if it's simply too early to test. AF is due in 3 days or so. We shall see.

 

[mrsmax]

Havent got time to respond to all, but just wanted to say big hugs to Regal

Will post when have a moment! Super busy with work at the moment - great for keeping mind off TTC.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

I'm loving the PMA that's coming through right now! :happy dance: [minus the BFN that Regal got; freaking body just can't give us the same symptoms each month, can it?!] :growl mad:

I am feeling my ovaries working away. I keep checking my little blue book (where I keep track of different things in this whole TTC process) to figure out how long after I get the "ovaries achey/working" sensation that I ovulate. Looks like 4-5 days, which means that me and DH can get in some loving before I leave next week! Fingers crossed!

I started p-ing on a stick today. I had a new batch of those OPKs from online and when I opened the package a "temporary tattoo" fell out. It says, "Think Positive," so I'm gonna try. :wink wink: I think I'm a little nuts for feeling so good about this cycle, knowing that we've been unable to conceive by ourselves for over two years. But I do. It must be the Holidays.

Rosa...I could just envision the whole ET process when you were describing it. Eesh. I will just have to resign myself to feeling awkward for a bit. What else can ya do? I'll be sending out all sorts of good vibes for your retrieval this week. Good eggies! Good eggies! and lots and lots of them.

MrsPTTC, did you ask your doctor about being on clomid for so long without using any assisted reproductive procedures? My doc. wouldn't put me on it that long without also combining it with IUI b/c it can thin your lining. I'd just check on it; no worries, but just be sure.

Ok; off to bed!

 

[MrsPTTC]

He doesn't consider it to be a long time soleil & he said after 6 months we will consider alternatives which i assume is more monitoring then IUI, or he said we may skip to IVF as the success rate for IUI isn't great. I think I'd prefer to try IUI though. I've read clomid can be used safely for up to a year x

 

[rosababy]

Tested this morning--- BFN.


I go with the first BFN. My nerves can't handle if it's simply too early to test. AF is due in 3 days or so. We shall see.

Sorry, Regal. Bfns just suck. They never are easy to see.

SB, glad to hear you have some pma! Think Positive! You should put it on! The entire ivf process is appointment after appointment, so you'll get used to dropping trou. Everyone sees everything and after a while, it's just fine.

MrsP, My ob/gyn said after 5 months of clomid to see him, but my RE said if it doens't happen after 3, then look for other reasons. Just a thought. Waiting around for 5 months didn't sit well with me, so I went into the RE after 2. Just a thought.


Afm, boy am I uncomfortable! I'm so bloated because my ovaries are the size of baseballs. Everything is slow. I walk slow, I can't do any movement in my classroom (I teach music, so that poses a challenge), and I'm now on the couch with my heating pad counting the hours until I can get my eggies taken out. It's not pain so much as it is uncomfortable. Looking forward to my dh coming home, making me dinner and peanut butter cookies. Today is shot free and tomorrow, my eggies meet the !!!! So much excitement!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Aw Rosa, wishing you the best of luck for tomorrow hun . Hope this is it for you!

I know where you're coming from, and also Soleil, but my FS said clomid is only 80% effective in ovulation in a YEAR so I'm guessing the statistics aren't as great as people think . But also there have been lots of 's on some clomid threads at 4-6 cycles! And I'm not seeing that patronizing so & so again before I have to x

 

[Regalpeas]

Thank you all for kind words. They made me smile.
I did have a rough day .....or two. But I am over it. Only the strong survive, right?! Now I just want AF to be on and done with. She's due today probably in the evening going by my last cycle. And that's just the thing...when she's due I don't want her taking her precious 'ole time either. lol It's like let's get this said and done so we can get this partyl started all over again.lol



ROSA!!! Best wishes my dear!!!! I am so praying and hoping this is it for you.


Soleil-First I want to say CONGRATS on your educational pursuits! we need more women PH.Ds! Very proud and happy for you. What field are you in? Also, I think it's great that you never give up hope on a natural BFP. Nature is a powerful force.

MrsPTTC- Hoping the Clomid use will result in your happy healthy BFP. I don't know much about Clomid, but I know many women use it here on the board.

MrsMax how's it going for you?


I love this thread! I recognized my love affair when I started posting here before my journal. hahaha You ladies are great. But pleeeasssse let us graduate onward to the pregnancy part of bnb very soon!


Cheering you all on.

Also, is everyone all ready for the Holidays?

 

[MsJMouse]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I have been MIA for awhile (coming up on nearly a month). Needed to get my head in a better space.

I have just spent the last hour (I think) trying to catch up on everyone but i have probably forgotten half of it.

Sorry to read only BFNs in the last few weeks.

Yay for your FS appt MrsMax. Good luck with IVF.

Also yay for your FS appt Soliel. Good luck with IVF as well.

RegalPeas - hoping that AF doesn't arrive and you get a late surprise BFP.

Rosa - hoping you have brilliant eggies for your retrivial today.

Pink - glad to hear that the Metformin appears to be working for you.

Hopeful - hope you are doing well. I see you have had another IUI. FX'd you get your sticky BFP!!!

AFM - am seeing a life coach as I have really struggled since my MC this year and I don't think that is helping us get pregnant. I have been soooooooo very very angry that other people in my life have accidently fallen pregnant and got to keep their baby but mine didn't make it and we were actually trying for a baby. I am also trying meditation. I can actually picture myself pregnant and happy so I am hopeful for 2012 but I don't see myself having a baby before the very end of 2012 or early 2013 but I am truly okay with that. But I do see myself as being pregnant in 2012 - it will happen I feel very very sure of this - not sure why but I am going to run with it while I feel like this.

I have given up temping - my thermometer once again has a flat battery so I am taking that as a sign to back off for awhile. I think AF will be due around new year (just like last year) but I have to say this year I don't intend to test if AF hasn't arrived by New Year as I don't want to know, I don't want to start the New Year with potentially good news like I did this year as it didn't work out and I am not sure how I would cope if that happened. Not sure if that makes any sense.

Hoping everyone has a great christmas as I am not sure if I will be on again. Like I said I am trying to step back from TTC a bit to keep some sanity.

and to everyone.



Sorry for the super long post!!

 

[Regalpeas]

MSJMOUSE!!!! So good to see you around . Totally understand that you need to take a step back. I'm glad you're seeing a life coach and meditating. It really helps to stay grounded during TTC and life in general as it throws us so many curve balls, I tell ya.

Your post is an inspiration. Praying for your 2012/2013 baby!!! Missed ya much.



Enjoy the Holidays too.

 

[rosababy]

Just a pop-in...think good thoughts...here I go. A little nervous...

 

[Regalpeas]

Rosa, sending positive vibes your way, prayer, hope, fx fx everything good.

 

[mrsmax]

Rosa - Good luckkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!! It is going to be awesome!!!!

 

[rosababy]

14 eggies!! Now we just pray for quality. Trying not to get too happy because we were pumped with 10 last time and only 2 embies survived by day 3. Still, 14...doc was so pleased!

 

[pink80]

14 sounds great Rosa - i've got everything crossed for you xxx

 

[Soleil Breeze]

14 eggs is FABULOUS, Rosa! You'll get five good embies, at least!
And thanks for the "woot woot!" Regal. I got so excited thinking that within a year and a half I'll be "Dr. SB." I am in political science, but I'm no scientist. It's been a journey, but I am SO happy to finally be at the diss. writing stage.
MsJMouse, hugs to you, my friend. We all understand the need to take a breather. Heck, I didn't come to BnB for almost 2 months after I miscarried. You are SO right, tho, WILL be pregnant in 2012. We've all got to think this.
MrsPTTC, I'm hoping clomid works it's charm for you.

AFM, positive OPK today, ladies, and it's only CD 14! So I probably could have gone in for my third IUI...DH (as logical as always) pointed out that even if I had taken clomid again this cycle, we do not know if I would be O-ing over the weekend. Instead it might have been like last cycle (cd 19) and I would have already left for the Holidays.

Anyhew, I'm still feeling good about it all. We are going to defy our reproductive nature this month and get pregnant all by ourselves. Yes, we are!

Rosa, I'm hoping implantation of the embies goes well and that within 2 weeks you will have some FANTASTIC news to share with us!

Have a great weekend, ladies!