Early 30's TTC #1

[mrsmax]

wow Rosa - you just made me

Soleil - I cant better Rosa's words. I am terrified of the IVF too. I am pissed that I have to pay so much for something other people get free. I am pissed that we are having to cut back on so many things and work so much harder to pay for it. I am sad that my body just wont do this most natural thing on its own. I am even more scared that OVF wont work...I hate that I cant give my DH a baby right now. and I hate that he has to be so strong for me...

However, I am excited to be doing something proactive aftert all this damn waiting and moping. I am excited that iVF if it doesnt work the first time might help them diagnose my problem - AND be able to fix it for the second or third round. I am excited to start a new year and say good riddance to horrible 2011. I am taking positive steps this year and I am on a pretty strict Fertility Diet - I feel like I am doing something and taking back some control.

YOu will get there - we will get there - our journey is just a little longer, a little more stressful and a hella lot more expensive than many others but it is our journey and we will get there honey. IVF Buddy xx

 

[pink80]

Sorry I have been MIA

Congrats Rosa I'm soooo happy for you xxx

 

[mansi2101]

Hey ! Thanx Caroline...

 

[hopefulmama2b]

Soliel- Try to hang in there. Don't even give the Saline Sonogram another thought. It really was not comparable to the HSG. I thought the HSG was absolute hell, but the SIS was really hardly anything. The catheter felt kind of like the IUI one, which you know is nothing. And then when he inserted the saline it really was hardly anything and then it was over. Very quick and not at all painful, I promise you. And it's so unfair that you have to go through all of the pain, expense, and heart ache to get there, but really the gift in the end will be amazingly worth it.

 

[rosababy]

wow Rosa - you just made me

I made myself cry. My dh asked me a question, and I looked up with tears running down my face and he's like what happened?!

Sorry I have been MIA

Congrats Rosa I'm soooo happy for you xxx

Thanks!!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Soleil, so sorry you are feeling like this. I’ve not had a SIS only a HSG and I’m sure the others are right about it being a piece of cake compared to the HSG! It’s lovely you will have Mrsmax to be IVF buddies with . Hope you’re feeling a bit more positive soon hun

Mrsmax – I’m pissed off for you! I’m one of the lucky ones who would get it free, but I think it’s grossly unfair how it’s a postcode lottery

Welcome back Pink!

Rosa – loving your ticker! You are so good at being positive and making people feel better, I love your PMA!

Unfortunately my PMA has ran out for the month… has just arrived after cramps all day, gutted, just gutted, I had really high hopes for this cycle . And what DOES she think she’s doing arriving on CD27??? I mean really? Shortest cycle EVER. I was so happy for my early ovulation and optimistic for a 14 day LP & I’ve ended up with 11! . I had a bit of a cry before and will probably cry again later as I’m catching up on One Born Every Minute. I can’t watch baby/birth programmes without getting tearful now, but seeing as I’m upset anyway I may as well! I decided I wanted a short break from TTC but DH doesn’t want to. Ah well… x

 

[MsJMouse]

Soliel - As I haven't had any of the tests you guys are talking about, I can't comment on them. But I do understand the feeling of frustration and helplessness. This TTC thing is so hard - both emotionally and mentally without adding anything else to the mix. I hope you feel more positive too. But remember we are all thinking of you.

MrsPTTC - sorry to hear that AF arrived. I hate it when you feel so positive only to come crashing back down. I hope you book your turkey holiday so you have something great to look forward too.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Soliel - As I haven't had any of the tests you guys are talking about, I can't comment on them. But I do understand the feeling of frustration and helplessness. This TTC thing is so hard - both emotionally and mentally without adding anything else to the mix. I hope you feel more positive too. But remember we are all thinking of you.

MrsPTTC - sorry to hear that AF arrived. I hate it when you feel so positive only to come crashing back down. I hope you book your turkey holiday so you have something great to look forward too.

Thanks msjmouse, DH parents have gone on holiday, just waiting for them to get back & check they can defo look after the dog & if so we'll book for may x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

I am so, so incredibly lucky to have you girls in my life. I wish you were right around the corner and we could catch up every now & again in the non-virtual word. Thank you for your encouragement and for easing my mind about the saline sonogram. I can be a woos (spelling?) at times...

I, along the lines of MrsPTTC, cried upon seeing a commercial with a woman holding her baby belly today! (I haven't seen the One Born Every Minute film/show, tho).

You girls are so right though. I really do want this so badly...just like you. I am actually looking forward to getting all my other tests out the way on Tuesday and moving on to Lupron on Jan. 22nd (fingers crossed).

Rosa, I hadn't thought about the first time as if it were a trial run. That's a good way to look at it. If I may ask, did you go through the ARC packages (e.g. One cycle plus) or did you pay for your two IVF cycles separately? There's something like a nine thousand dollar difference between the packages I am looking at. One cycle plus includes one fresh embryo transfer and then a frozen embryo transfer if you have frosties left over after a failed attempt. Now I'm not sure whether we should bite the bullet and buy the two fresh embryo cycle packages instead of the one...Arggh, decisions, decisions...

MsJMouse, MrsMax, MrsPTTC, Regalpeas and Pink80, I hope and pray that you soon leave this thread in the TTC capacity. I hope you stay on as pregnant friends like Rosa, Hopeful, finallyready and others, tho!

Again, words cannot express how much your posts have eased my mind over the past few days. I hope I can be there to support you just as well if and when you need it.

Much love!

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Oh and MrsPTTC, clomid never did the same thing twice for me while I was on it. I'm sorry that it seems to be doing the same for you.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

And MrsMax, what is your strict fertility diet? I have been pretty bad so far this year (wine, chocolate, chips/crisps). I'd love to hear your input!

 

[mrsmax]

Hey Soleil :wave: Glad we al heled you feel a bit better. I am a bit grumpy as missed the fertility window this month as was working away this weekend. Still, we managed days 0-3 and the morning after the rise - but hell, it hasnt worked when we got a High on FF so not going to sweat it!

So, the diet is pretty much vegan - although not doing it that struictly. It is based on a book by Sarah Dobbyn called the fertility diet. It is pretty much this: no caffeine, alcohol, no takeways or conveniance meals, limited wheat (replace with spelt and Quinoa), no dairy (apart from free range eggs if you must) and no meat (but organic if you must). Lots of green veg, fresh fruit, veg, nuts sweet potatoes, yams, garlic, herbs and spices like cinnamon. Just heading to the supermarket to stock up now - poor hubby!

YUM ...........finding the no alcohol a lot easier than I expected - maybe cause overdosed on wine at christmas

MrsPttc - I am truely pleased the postcode lottery is in your favour - I hope it doesnt come to that though

Waiting for my appointment letter from the clinic - which will basically just tell us to call the first day of my cyle when we are ready. I am going to wait one more and then hit teh cycle after that when hopefully my good diet will put us in a better position. Def thinking of first cycle as trial run and diagnostic - just trying not to think of the money!!

Hapy Sunday my lovely ladies (or whenever it is fo you) x

 

[MrsPTTC]

Aw Soleil, massive hun, you are such a sweetie. Glad you are feeling postive now! Bring on your ! x

Ooh mrsmax your diet is very similar to the one DH and I have been doing off an on, we're back on it from tomorrow. The only difference is we can have as much meat as we want & limited potatoes & NO dairy except eggs & greek/natural yoghurt & no sugar. Only drinks we're supposed to have is green tea & mineral water too. Though I'm not really sticking to it as I don't need to lose weight, neither does DH now he lost 2 stone on it in August-October but he's doing it along with a bootcamp to tone up. But it's one of those "diets" where you never stop it as it's so good for you, a new lifestyle I guess, but the odd takeaway and glass of wine won't do any harm! x

I hope everyone else is ok & having a nice weekend. I was still on a bit of a downer yesterday and felt lousy, but much better today & AF on her way out already!! x

 

[rosababy]

Rosa – loving your ticker! You are so good at being positive and making people feel better, I love your PMA

Thanks! My PMA goes up and down, just like everyone else's. Now, I am waiting for my scan to prove that I actually have a little bean in there. I'm sorry your cycle was so short. How strange. That's so frustrating! Maybe don't watch one born every minute... I can NOT watch those shows!


SB, this is such a wonderful thread. I'm thankful for you ladies as well. Sometimes I wish we could all meet for coffee. So Lupron on the 22nd? That's so soon!! Fyi, lupron will probably make you tired and emotional, similar to clomid. It's an easy jab though, so that's good. How long will you be doing that? As for paying for packages, we are lucky enough to have insurance that covers $100,000 of ivf, so we didn't have to pay for cycles like that. I would probably pay for 2 though, just because it may take that many and it will take the pressure off of the first cycle. Keep in mind I had no frosties either time. If it were me, I would buy two fresh cycles. I'm glad you're feeling not so down.

Oh and MrsPTTC, clomid never did the same thing twice for me while I was on it. I'm sorry that it seems to be doing the same for you.

Me neither. I had different crap going on both times.


Mrsmax, no meat? Interesting. How are you getting your protein? I'm also finding the no alcohol thing easier than I thought. My dh still drinks beer in front of me, which is fine because I don't like beer, but he told me he wouldn't drink wine in front of me, since I love it. I actually have not craved it at all in the last few months. Just want some water. I did have a little in the last two days, since my bloat is going down. Never tasted so good.


Afm, I'm fine. The bloat is going way down. I can fit into my normal pants again, and I'm starting to pee a lot, which means the fluid in my abdomen is finally going away. I had a coffee yesterday (oh mannnnn that tasted so good!) decaf of course, and a glass of water, which never tasted so darn good! I'll keep adding a little here and there, but try not to go over board. Probably still have my tomato soups and gatorade for a week or so. My scan is next Monday, and I can't wait! I'm already freaking out like what if the baby has already stopped growing and I just don't know it?? I have to stop thinking that. Be positive and trust God.

Big day of cleaning. Running errands, friends coming over tonight. She's a BnB friend too, so she knows about our bfp, so that's cool. It's been so hard not to tell people. Should have done some of this cleaning yesterday, but I decided that staying in bed until noon watching Parenthood episodes and then taking a 2 hour nap later was a good idea.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Hi Rosa, I did actually watch One Born, I welled up but only cos this huge 10lb 10 baby came out shocked and wasn't breathing! It was fine though, obviously . I think the shorter cycle was cos I O'd so much earlier than normal, and a 11/12 LP is normal for me so AF came earlier rather than giving me a nice long LP . I am sooo excited for you for your scan! I hope the wait goes quick for you! x

 

[Regalpeas]

, omg Rosa. That post. I just broke down. Then I laughed at myself for doing so easily. Took a minute for me to regroup.It felt good to just let it all out. Dh: "What the heck is going on in there?" lol Me: Oh just on the baby board. lolol

Soleil glad you are feeling a bit better. I am so happy I have you all as well. I'm telling you some days I go through it. I have withdrawn from my family in ways I didn't realize until the holidays. I just don't want the constant questions and we've decided not to tell anyone. Somedays sharing seems like the best way but we know that will make the down times worse because we'll feel like we've let down others too. It's a long emotional process. It's okay to feel like throwing in the towel. But hang on, kay? Our little ones will be with us soon.

MrsPttc sorry about AF. I feel mine coming. Sigh. It hurts but we have to keep fighting.


MrsMax your diet sounds awesome. I think healthy lifestyle really makes the difference sometimes so best wishes that it helps you get your BFP that much sooner. I'm starting WW this week but I'm very nervous. I just can't have this been another thing I'm "failing" at. So I'm really gearing up to work hard.

 

[Soleil Breeze]

And you gals were SO right - the saline soon is not anywhere near as bad as the HSG! No problem at all and everything looks just fine - yeah!! :thumb up: So now we're just trying to get some financial stuff cleared (Rosa your insurance is FABULOUS! I wish I had it!!) and I then I have to get the meds. sent to me some time next week. YIKES!

We signed our lives away today, too. I consented to some things that I hope that the embryologist doesn't have to use (e.g. ICSI, and even though I don't feel too good about the assisted hatching, the clinic does it in 95% of its three-day transfers).

So tomorrow, DH has his semen analysis and then we just wait to get the financial go-ahead. OMGoodness!! I cannot believe that the IVF ball is rolling. I am getting excited. I know it's because I feel like we HAVE to get a baby out of this. But I need to be realistic, too.

Rosa, worry not. That baby (or two!) is growing mightily and merrily inside of you. I can't wait to find out how many little beans you have growing in there!

Speaking of diets, I don't eat meat, but I do eat seafood. I really like the idea of eating more raw foods (like you, MrsMax) because I think it's better for us generally (ANNNDDD it's way less preparation, ay?!), but I'm not so good at following diets. You can get lots of protein from nuts and, believe it or not, water cress/sprouts, too. I put lots of the water cress in my sandwiches. I'm not a big drinker and I don't drink coffee, so leaving those two out should be okay. But the dairy?! Give up my milk and yoghurt? Yeah, that's where I'll fail. Don't we need the calcium?

Rosa, the nurse said that "it depends" on when AF comes as to how long I'll be doing the lupron. It seems like it could be two weeks. They still haven't figured out whether I'll be on follistism (however that is spelled) or gonal-F. I can tell you one thing FOR SURE, tho, I will NEVER be able to give myself those progesterone shots. That needle is WAAAYYY too long!! But that's what I have DH for.

MrsPTTC, I cannot believe that you might be going into your fifth cycle of clomid already. Time is flying by. If I were you, I would be insisting on an IUI at this point. Does your uterine lining still look okay?

MrsMax, so do you plan on beginning in February? I know you're going to skip one cycle (Jan/Feb), but will that put you at Feb/March to begin IVF? Cause you know that it's a two-month process, right? At least for me it was; I am in my "prep" month right now.

Ok; this is already terribly long. But I don't apologize. I love "talking" to you. I am just so HAPPY that I am not in pain this evening. I had myself nearly all worked up for nothing!

 

[hopefulmama2b]

Soliel- How exciting!!!! I'm sure it's scary and yet so, so exciting to try something new! I'm glad the SIS wasn't too bad! Not like that horrid HSG!! I imagine the semen analysis is not going to reveal anything too shocking since you probably had them with your IUIs?

I understand your hesitation with certain parts of IVF- ICSI and assisted hatching, ect. When I was researching it myself I had some of the same reservations that you do. I'm not crazy about the ICSI thing, but the number one important thing to me, and I'm sure you, is that we get a baby. I can't imagine living my whole life without a family. It's just not an option for me. It really is pretty amazing technology so I guess we should utalize the sources we have? Just my thoughts on it. Good luck to you, friend!!! Sunny days are coming!!!!!!

 

[hopefulmama2b]

AND STOP READING ABOUT FAILED CYCLES, GIRL!!!! I clicked on your profile and saw what you were looking at. Tsk! Tsk!! I have faith it will work for you!!!! You got pregnant with IUI- there's no reason the big mama of AC won't work for you!! It may take more than one, but keep the faith!!

 

[MsJMouse]

Brilliant news Soliel!!!

Yay Rosa for the bloat going down.

Found out the other day that another staff member is pregnant. She is 17 wks along (we don't all work in the office at the same time so I very rarely work in the office with her) and the reason she has left it so late to tell everyone is cause there was some concern initially about viability. But apparently everyone else guessed it at our Christmas party. I am truly hoping that maybe the other staff will stop looking sideways at me to guess whether I am or aren't pregnant while she is pregnant - maybe it will distract them for a bit.

Otherwise absolutely nothing interesting is happening to me at the moment.

Glad to hear that things are moving along for everyone else. Happy hump day!