You are so brave. I felt like crying for you when I read your story. You went through an incredibly traumatic experience!
Please try to treat yourself well. Love yourself. Your body survived such pain and anguish, your mind as well, that of course it is going to take time to heal.
Do not stop getting psych help. You sound like you have Post Traumatic stress Disorder - hell, of course you do! For you to love yourself and your precious little daughter to the best of your ability, you must first heal.
Ten thousand hugs from me. Take your meds. Get out into the sun. Focus on the little moments of pleasure that your daughter and family give you, and with time things will be okay again.
I respect you for surviving what you did. You are such a strong woman and mother.