Entering the world of Assisted Conception...like it or not...

[Hiker1]

Congrats again Smille! ! You must be feeling so relieved. How is your hubby taking it? I hope finally believing and celebrating with you!!!

Lemon, the reiki class was really interesting. .never did it before. Definitely felt cool energy and experienced a big relief and incredible imagery. I hope to go again. I think we all need to remember to find ways to care for ourselves while we go through this very trying process.

He finally believes it and is over the moon. He asked as soon as I got home and I told him and showed him the tests. Now he wants to tell everyone lol. I told him we should wait.

Is that reiki class like yoga? I may need to look into something that relieved stress.

Oh I'm so glad he's happy!! Sounds like he's been down on himself for a while about this you both deserve all the happiness in the world!

Reiki was not like yoga. At times I think it can be 1 on 1 but this was a circle. We sat in chairs in s circle.We started off with a meditative image and positive present affirmation to think about. Then the teacher went around while we were meditating and played a few instruments and touched our shoulders or knees or head lightly. I'm not sure all that it did but it was a cool way to zone out for half an hour if anything!

 

[Hiker1]

Oh and ladies, my BFF told me today she is pregnant. No trying, just got married in October and got her iud removed. I was genuinely happy for her. Then she asked about me and I told her our story. First friend of mine who knows. Then got off the phone to workout and broke down crying in the middle of class...well got to the bathroom first, but still did. Got through the class then cried all the way home, in the shower and a good half hour after. I can't take one more person close to me getting pregnant. I swear to god I'm going to lose my mind. I've lost count of the number if my friends who have literally gotten married, pregnant and have babes in arms since I got married in June 2014. Feeling super down tonight.

 

[Smille24]

Hiker- that class sounds really interesting. I'd love to just zone out for awhile and not have a care in the world.

I am very sorry about the pregnancy announcement. Each one gets tougher and tougher. I know exactly what you are going through and feeling. One day it will be you announcing it to the world. Lots of hugs for you!

 

[miranda007]

Oh Smile I'm just so so so happy for u guys. Genuinely hands down estactic!!!!!!!!! I (well we know) what it's like and I'm just really happy! You've given us hope.

Ah Hiker, as smile said I know exactly what you're going though. My little sister did the same to me and told me she was pregnant (7 weeks) on my birthday and it was over lunch and i had to say I'm going to the bathroom and I broke down as soon as I left the table. And I cried all that night and the next day too. My eyes were saw from crying. It totally sucks it's the worst feeling in the world to are everyone around u moving on and you feel like you're just in the no mans land of infertility and standing still. Hang in there. You're not far off testing.

Just curious.. So you said u were at the gym, and you're waiting to test after a transfer. Did your Dr say that's ok? Going to the gym is a massive stress relief for me and my body is so used to high intensity spin and body bump classes. I asked my dr and she said it's fine just scale back and u only need to watch your temp when you are pregnant but fine to do everything as normal in the 2 week wait. I'm going to ask her again tomorrow when I go in for FET. (Yeah!!) Dud u scale things back?

That meditation class sounds bliss. I've been trying to meditate but keep forgetting! But I need to because I think about things too much and need to learn to put things to one side and not let stuff bother me. My husband says there is a good app that walks u through stuff. Deep breathing belly breaths help. So does imagining the air coming through touching the point of your nose. So does closing your eyes and imagining yourself lying on a stream floating and if u ha r a thought just put in on a leaf and watching to float past you!!

lemon! Welcome! The girls are right u. Everything they've said.

 

[Hiker1]

Oh Smile I'm just so so so happy for u guys. Genuinely hands down estactic!!!!!!!!! I (well we know) what it's like and I'm just really happy! You've given us hope.

Ah Hiker, as smile said I know exactly what you're going though. My little sister did the same to me and told me she was pregnant (7 weeks) on my birthday and it was over lunch and i had to say I'm going to the bathroom and I broke down as soon as I left the table. And I cried all that night and the next day too. My eyes were saw from crying. It totally sucks it's the worst feeling in the world to are everyone around u moving on and you feel like you're just in the no mans land of infertility and standing still. Hang in there. You're not far off testing.

Just curious.. So you said u were at the gym, and you're waiting to test after a transfer. Did your Dr say that's ok? Going to the gym is a massive stress relief for me and my body is so used to high intensity spin and body bump classes. I asked my dr and she said it's fine just scale back and u only need to watch your temp when you are pregnant but fine to do everything as normal in the 2 week wait. I'm going to ask her again tomorrow when I go in for FET. (Yeah!!) Dud u scale things back?

That meditation class sounds bliss. I've been trying to meditate but keep forgetting! But I need to because I think about things too much and need to learn to put things to one side and not let stuff bother me. My husband says there is a good app that walks u through stuff. Deep breathing belly breaths help. So does imagining the air coming through touching the point of your nose. So does closing your eyes and imagining yourself lying on a stream floating and if u ha r a thought just put in on a leaf and watching to float past you!!

lemon! Welcome! The girls are right u. Everything they've said.

Thanks Miranda for your comforting words. I feel it every day with you guys on here, but I feel so glad I'm not alone. And when I hear of all of your BFP news, especially those of us struggling, I am seriously so happy. Like, thank God they finally got free from this misery! Something about when people I know just get pregnant without trying much just makes me so freaking angry and sad.

The nice thing was as I was getting dressed after my shower, I think my hubby heard me sniffling and immediately came up and just held me. After a while he said, "well remember it's like playing the lottery. And 10% chance winning the lottery is pretty good odds if you ask me." Actually I think he thought I got my period and that's why I was crying but thankfully no.

You asked about my workouts. Well first, no I am not doing any kind of transfer. This cycle was my first cycle ever with any Assisted Fertility, so "all" we did was Femara pills, then Ovidrel shot, the IUI last Thursday. IVF is definitely on the horizon if IUI doesn't work fairly quickly.

So having said that, I haven't changed my workouts in the least. I work out 2x a week at a crossfit-type gym and walk my dog every day. And I go hiking when I can. That's about it.

Didn't go to meditation last night because I was still crying when it started. The teacher is so bubbly and happy I don't think I could have taken her at that time!

 

[Smille24]

Miranda- I can't believe she told you on your birthday. ..that's a new low. I've dealt with a few incidents that really crushed me, but you just have to pick yourself back up and know that they have no idea what it's like to struggle with infertility.

Hiker- you brought tears to my eyes. You're right our misery is over, but yours will be over soon too. I know they gave you a 10% chance, but they select the best sperm and the clomid really improves egg quality. I am confident that your dr will get you pregnant. It's hard, but think positively. I'm glad you have a wonderful supportive hubby. This journey has definitely brought my dh and I closer together.

 

[lemon_tree]

Oh Hiker, that's so painful, I'm so sorry. People with no fertility issues have no idea the pain that that kind of seemingly innocent question can cause. I hope your friend was receptive to your feelings.

 

[miranda007]

When my sister told me she was pregnant (yeah bad timing on my birthday it was horrendous.. We weren't even trying blah blah, here's the video when we told mum and dad - they didn't think!!) I rang my friend and she said my sister just gets any baby that's plucked from the sky whereas you guys are creating the most beautiful soul that's been along time in the making and it will be so special. Ok she worded it in a really beautiful way.

Hiker your husband sounds lovely. I definitely know it's bought us closer! And I whole heartedly agree with what Smile said - your Dr will get you pregnant you just don't know when it will be. But it will happen. It's a marathon that you are running (yeah it sucks) you just don't know when the end is!

Thanks re gym stuff.. Ah right for some reason I thought u were doing an IVF cycle. Got it. That explains the working out! I made sure I worked out before my transfer this morning - and will only walk the dog. My Dr said working out won't matter but some Dr's don't think that. And man oh man wer've taken so long to get to this point.. So it's easy stuff for the next 10 days )which is annoying because working out is my stress relief.)

We downloaded the Headpacae app and did it this morning. It's a good app to introduce u to meditation.

We did our transfer today!! They show it to u on the screen - it looks like a bit of snot lol. That's what my husband joked ha ha. We took a pic I'm thinking oh no I don't want to jinx us. Count down begins!

 

[Smille24]

Miranda- the best of luck to you. I really hope the outcome is positive. You're in my thoughts that your struggle will come to an end!

 

[miranda007]

ohh I like your new picture Smile!! That's a lovely line there

 

[Hiker1]

Good luck Miranda! This is really exciting! Is this your first transfer? When will you test?

Today I got my 7 day progesterone bloodwork. One week from today I test.

 

[MMW430]

Good luck Miranda! This is really exciting! Is this your first transfer? When will you test?

Today I got my 7 day progesterone bloodwork. One week from today I test.

Do you think you'll be able to wait until it reaches 7 days? I was never able to.

 

[miranda007]

Official test blood test is Monday 8th. Ah seems so long away. Before I was all 'oh I'm not going to test early' and now I'm all hmmmm wonder when I could test and I'm only one day post transfer lol. Obviously I'm going to hold off but might test a day before or the night before so I can deal with the news by myself not on the phone to a stranger.. even though they are lovely. Doubt our Dr will ring it will be a nurse.

Oh boy I think I just need to keep thinking whatever will be will be.. I sit down on the couch heavily and think.. oh that was too hard.. I ran to get out of the rain.. ohh shouldn't run. Sitting there in wet clothes I'm thinking ohh maybe I shouldn't be too cold. I had a chocolate brownie and thought.. oh the sugar and the caffeine in the dark chocolate isn't good. Maybe I should just be eating more greens. But heck now is the time I need that brownie for my sanity!! I KNOW it's all silly and people get pregnant all the time and do all those things.. but.. AHHH..

 

[Smille24]

Hiker- the wait is so hard. It was impossible for me to wait the full 14-15 days. I want to wish you the best of luck!!!

Miranda- I know what you mean. I'm afraid to lay a certain way in bed. I'm actually losing sleep over it. Fxd you get great news on the 8th!!!

 

[lemon_tree]

Ohh good luck to the two of you! How exciting! I am crossing my fingers so hard.

I had my first ever fertility consult yesterday afternoon, so I wanted to pop in and share that update.

I think it went well. The doc was really kind and easy to talk with. She thinks my bigger fibroid isn't a problem because of its location, but that I may have one in my uterine cavity, based on the AF symptoms I was describing. If I do, I'll need a hysteroscopic myomectomy to correct that, which comes with no guarantees but could improve my odds. I've got a load of blood work I'll need to have taken, including thyroid tests, FSH and AMH, and a few carrier tests. She also wants me to do a CD3 ultrasound to take a peek at my ovaries and that test where they put the dye into your uterus to analyze the size and shape, any structural abnormalities (or sneaky fibroids!), and to see if the tubes are open. That test is done between CD5 and 12, so she's going to take all the blood work at day 3 so I'll only have to go in for the two separate test days, to start. DH has to have an SA and that's it for the moment, but will have additional genetic testing done if any of mine come back positive.

And that's if for now! AF should come next week and then we'll be kicking things off.

I tell you, it's such a relief to have a schedule outlined and a plan in motion. Now, onward to worrying about all the test results in advance!

 

[Smille24]

That's wonderful lemon! It is such a huge relief getting help and having a plan in place. The HSG test is not that bad. You'll feel pressure but it's done in a minute. I hope everything comes back ok.

 

[lemon_tree]

Thanks, Smile. That's good to know! I'm glad it's at least over quickly!

 

[Smille24]

My betas are 362 and my 1st ultrasound is Wed to make sure it's in the uterus.

 

[Hiker1]

Good luck Miranda! This is really exciting! Is this your first transfer? When will you test?

Today I got my 7 day progesterone bloodwork. One week from today I test.

Do you think you'll be able to wait until it reaches 7 days? I was never able to.

Yes I think so. I am not excited or hopeful really. I have been let down so many times, I can't imagine this will be any different. Plus I've never understood the early testing thing. Gets people all worked up whether they see a line or not, and had they just waited longer, it wouldn't be a question. If it gets to be longer than what is average for me past ovulation (I'm a pretty regular 13-14 dpo getting my AF), then I will.

 

[Hiker1]

Ohh good luck to the two of you! How exciting! I am crossing my fingers so hard.

I had my first ever fertility consult yesterday afternoon, so I wanted to pop in and share that update.

I think it went well. The doc was really kind and easy to talk with. She thinks my bigger fibroid isn't a problem because of its location, but that I may have one in my uterine cavity, based on the AF symptoms I was describing. If I do, I'll need a hysteroscopic myomectomy to correct that, which comes with no guarantees but could improve my odds. I've got a load of blood work I'll need to have taken, including thyroid tests, FSH and AMH, and a few carrier tests. She also wants me to do a CD3 ultrasound to take a peek at my ovaries and that test where they put the dye into your uterus to analyze the size and shape, any structural abnormalities (or sneaky fibroids!), and to see if the tubes are open. That test is done between CD5 and 12, so she's going to take all the blood work at day 3 so I'll only have to go in for the two separate test days, to start. DH has to have an SA and that's it for the moment, but will have additional genetic testing done if any of mine come back positive.

And that's if for now! AF should come next week and then we'll be kicking things off.

I tell you, it's such a relief to have a schedule outlined and a plan in motion. Now, onward to worrying about all the test results in advance!

That's great news, Lemon! Sounds like your doctor is ordering all the usual tests for trying to figure out the problem. That first month of getting all those tests done is kind of annoying, but you will have a lot of information at the end of it all. Glad you things went well! The journey begins!!