Entering the world of Assisted Conception...like it or not...

[MMW430]

I called them and am waiting for a call back. It was still positive this morning, so I definitely think it's real. Plus, my stomach has been a mess for 3 days.

I bet it's real! Let us know what happens!

It's darker than yesterday's and the nurse said if I'm getting positive tests now, then my blood will be too. I'm going later in the morning but won't hear anything until tomorrow. I know this is real, but my dh isn't going to be excited until my dr tells me yes.

Ah bummer you have to wait until tomorrow, but better than waiting until Wednesday! My husband was the same way. I get it though. It's hard to believe it without numbers to back it up. I don't even want to think about how much money I spent on tests. Haha. I was obsessed. Especially because their protocol is to go for 3 blood tests. I kept worrying something would happen.

 

[Hiker1]

Smile.. I know how u feel. I know it's hard and long - someone once posted on here trying to conceive long term is like running a marathon (that's really hard) but you don't know when it will end. Hang in there..

We went and visited two sets of my husband's friends who have just had their second baby. The first was fine (I been still hard but fine).. they know we're doing IVF and she's been really nice. The second friend he used to work with.. goes.. So when are you guys going to have a baby? You guys are getting left behind!! You better catch up.. I really felt like crying and inside I'm thinking fuck you - you have no idea what we've gone through you shouldn't say comments like that. I just said well it's been a long road. And she goes yeah it took us a few months before we got pregnant it's really hard blah blah.. ARGH!!

Yes that's so hard to hear when people ask. As if you aren't asking yourself that every day. I say the least as possible and/or the same thing about a long road lol

 

[Hiker1]

I called them and am waiting for a call back. It was still positive this morning, so I definitely think it's real. Plus, my stomach has been a mess for 3 days.

I bet it's real! Let us know what happens!

It's darker than yesterday's and the nurse said if I'm getting positive tests now, then my blood will be too. I'm going later in the morning but won't hear anything until tomorrow. I know this is real, but my dh isn't going to be excited until my dr tells me yes.

Oh my goodness, this is so exciting!! First time the charm for you!!! Keep us posted with the bloodwork, but seems like it all worked out. Your husband can rest easy...You trusted yourself - you only need 1! And your doctor was optimistic. Like I said in the other thread, take your HPT with its BFP and throw it in her face!!

 

[Smille24]

I will let you ladies know. I'm so worried.

 

[Smille24]

I called them and am waiting for a call back. It was still positive this morning, so I definitely think it's real. Plus, my stomach has been a mess for 3 days.

I bet it's real! Let us know what happens!

It's darker than yesterday's and the nurse said if I'm getting positive tests now, then my blood will be too. I'm going later in the morning but won't hear anything until tomorrow. I know this is real, but my dh isn't going to be excited until my dr tells me yes.

Oh my goodness, this is so exciting!! First time the charm for you!!! Keep us posted with the bloodwork, but seems like it all worked out. Your husband can rest easy...You trusted yourself - you only need 1! And your doctor was optimistic. Like I said in the other thread, take your HPT with its BFP and throw it in her face!!

Haha that's exactly what I should do. I should march in there and tell her that "I thought there was no chance?" I hope I can switch to my obgyn soon, I hate all of the traveling.

All I can say for you is to stay positive. No matter what the odds are, no matter what anyone says miracles do happen. We struggled for 2.5yrs and were told there was no chance. Don't give in to that negativity.

 

[lemon_tree]

Hi ladies - mind if I join you?

I'm nearly 32, and my DH and I have been actively TTC for about 17 or 18 cycles now, although it's been nearly two years since we started trying. I'm going to my first fertility specialist appointment this week and have no idea what to expect.

It was really nice to find this part of the forums (and in particular this thread) as I join you all on this path.

 

[Smille24]

Hi ladies - mind if I join you?

I'm nearly 32, and my DH and I have been actively TTC for about 17 or 18 cycles now, although it's been nearly two years since we started trying. I'm going to my first fertility specialist appointment this week and have no idea what to expect.

It was really nice to find this part of the forums (and in particular this thread) as I join you all on this path.

Going to a specialist can be overwhelming, but relieving at the same time. It's a lot of information, but they have a plan and all you have to do is follow it. Someone else is in control which after ltttc is so wonderful. Have you had any testing prior to this appointment?

 

[miranda007]

Totally agree with what smile said! It's a relief when you go because the worry and everything is on their hands. I found TTC naturally so mentally draining - just the hope that for two weeks u might be then you're not and you start it all over again and I stressed we were missing ovulation. And months like you've had, we all had, take their toll.

So going to see a specialist was good for me!

You're young too so u have time on your side. Hopefully they'll pin point what the issue it - and u might just ha e to do an IUI or something

 

[lemon_tree]

Thanks - that's helpful to hear!

No testing yet. Last March I went to my OBGYN to see if my fibroids, which had been previously discovered, were affecting my fertility, and he read the radiologists report and said he'd be surprised if they were and that we should keep trying. So we did! And it didn't work out so when I called him back late last year for next steps he directed me to go see a specialist. My insurance was changing so we took a relaxed approach over the holidays and set up an appointment for January. And here I am! Appointment Thursday afternoon.

 

[Hiker1]

Hi Lemon and yes, welcome!! We so can relate what you are going through. The ttc on your own with no results for SURE can be such a huge drain emotionally and even on your marriage. It sure took the fun away from me and my husband. So much pressure, trying to figure out what we were doing wrong, what we could do differently the next month, etc. etc...2 years is a REALLY long time, and I can not imagine how you feel.
Like the others have said, I hope you also feel relief once you go to a specialist. I found out after all the tests that there was a reason for things not happening for us. And while that in of itself isn't comforting, at the very least it helped me accept that we weren't doing anything wrong. Now I do feel such less stress and am not so down on myself about things not working since I have "handed over the reins." These doctors are in the business of getting you pregnant, so you'll (we'll) have the best chances possible by going to them. I figure it's a matter of time before one of the treatments work. It just varies from person to person which treatment and how far into it will work for you. Hopefully you (WE!) will all be as lucky as Smille and will hit it first time the charm!

Please keep us posted on your appointments and tests, etc. I find it so helpful to have people in the loop and supporting you every step of the way.

I had my first IUI last Thursday, I have a progesterone blood test on Thursday, and will plan to test next Thursday.

Smille, how are things going? You get your blood results today, right??

 

[Hiker1]

I called them and am waiting for a call back. It was still positive this morning, so I definitely think it's real. Plus, my stomach has been a mess for 3 days.

I bet it's real! Let us know what happens!

It's darker than yesterday's and the nurse said if I'm getting positive tests now, then my blood will be too. I'm going later in the morning but won't hear anything until tomorrow. I know this is real, but my dh isn't going to be excited until my dr tells me yes.

Oh my goodness, this is so exciting!! First time the charm for you!!! Keep us posted with the bloodwork, but seems like it all worked out. Your husband can rest easy...You trusted yourself - you only need 1! And your doctor was optimistic. Like I said in the other thread, take your HPT with its BFP and throw it in her face!!

Haha that's exactly what I should do. I should march in there and tell her that "I thought there was no chance?" I hope I can switch to my obgyn soon, I hate all of the traveling.

All I can say for you is to stay positive. No matter what the odds are, no matter what anyone says miracles do happen. We struggled for 2.5yrs and were told there was no chance. Don't give in to that negativity.

At the very least, I do hope you say something!!

I am trying to stay positive, but keeping hopes low so I am not on a constant roller coaster of high expectations and let downs.

I went to a healing reiki class last night - which was a super cool experience - and I think that helped with centering me. There are some other free meditation classes at a yoga studio near me that I think I'm going to start going to. I can get so stressed with life in general, I think I need to carve in times to let out that negative energy and recharge in a peaceful environment. Especially when ttc, and if I get pregnant, I'm gonna need to keep my stress in major check.

 

[Smille24]

Lemon- the tests are overwhelming, but like hiker said, they give you clear answers as to what is going on. At first, I was very upset with the fact that it came down to needing help but we all have the same goal...to get pregnant. After ttc for so long, our sex life sucked. It was no longer for fun, it was a job. So if I got pregnant in a dr office what did it matter? I wantes my life back.

Hiker- I really hope you get great news these next 2 weeks. Progesterone is an easy fix so do not worry about that. I was told we had zero chance, you were told 10% I really think you have a great shot. I have everything crossed for you. That class sounds amazing. I think I need to do something like that.

I will say something. I am doing ok. I've been getting dizzy spells and queasy throughout the day. I will have my betas by this afternoon. I'm nervous but my tests are much darker.

 

[lemon_tree]

Thank you - that does help to hear, and I agree about handing over the reins. I already feel much less stressed just knowing the appointment day will be here soon.

Hiker - That's really exciting! I'm hoping for awesome news on your test date next week. What was the reiki class like?

Smile - It's awesome that the line is getting darker. That sounds like a good sign, and I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you today. To be told there was no chance and now find yourself with a darkening line - wow. Yeah, I'd say something, too!

 

[Smille24]

My betas at 13dpiui was 52! They said I'm definitely pregnant. I repeat the test Thurs.

 

[lemon_tree]

My betas at 13dpiui was 52! They said I'm definitely pregnant. I repeat the test Thurs.

YESSS that is awesome!!!! Congrats, lady!!! How do you feel?

 

[Smille24]

My betas at 13dpiui was 52! They said I'm definitely pregnant. I repeat the test Thurs.

YESSS that is awesome!!!! Congrats, lady!!! How do you feel?

Thank you. I'm very excited and relieved.

 

[Hiker1]

Congrats again Smille! ! You must be feeling so relieved. How is your hubby taking it? I hope finally believing and celebrating with you!!!

Lemon, the reiki class was really interesting. .never did it before. Definitely felt cool energy and experienced a big relief and incredible imagery. I hope to go again. I think we all need to remember to find ways to care for ourselves while we go through this very trying process.

 

[MMW430]

Smille, that's so great!

Hiker: I tried to send you a private message about something. The website is being weird, and I don't know if it ever went through or not, if it did, and you got it multiple times. Sorry! (If you didn't, it's not anything big. I just wanted to tell you what happened when I contacted who you told me about and tried to get my username changed).

 

[Smille24]

Congrats again Smille! ! You must be feeling so relieved. How is your hubby taking it? I hope finally believing and celebrating with you!!!

Lemon, the reiki class was really interesting. .never did it before. Definitely felt cool energy and experienced a big relief and incredible imagery. I hope to go again. I think we all need to remember to find ways to care for ourselves while we go through this very trying process.

He finally believes it and is over the moon. He asked as soon as I got home and I told him and showed him the tests. Now he wants to tell everyone lol. I told him we should wait.

Is that reiki class like yoga? I may need to look into something that relieved stress.

 

[Hiker1]

Smille, that's so great!

Hiker: I tried to send you a private message about something. The website is being weird, and I don't know if it ever went through or not, if it did, and you got it multiple times. Sorry! (If you didn't, it's not anything big. I just wanted to tell you what happened when I contacted who you told me about and tried to get my username changed).

Hi! No I didn't get any messages from you can you try again? I'm curious.