F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[cheerios]

Does anybody know how can you delete a post???

 

[cheerios]

Argh, dunno how to work this thing.

 

[cheerios]

Thing is, I´m disliking my job more and more. I don´t dislike my job persay, but I really don´t like the working environment. Glad that my boss has left, but the way things are handled in school are getting on my nerves after dealing with them for 2 years now.

And I always thought, ok I´ll get pregnant soon anyways, so I don´t have to work there much longer, but things have been taking way longer than I thought.

I've been going through the same thing lately - was taking to dh the other day and saying how uninspired I feel by life and don't have any motivation.

I've always enjoyed my job (as much as I would enjoy any job!) but lately I just don't want to be there. It's boring me, I'm depressed and when I sat down and thought about it, the only thing I could think is that I never thought at 36, I'd still be working full time and childless. I'm just not in the place in my life that I want to be at the moment ... and it's hard ... and it's almost like I'm resenting my job for it

I've been going through the same thing lately - was taking to dh the other day and saying how uninspired I feel by life and don't have any motivation.

I've always enjoyed my job (as much as I would enjoy any job!) but lately I just don't want to be there. It's boring me, I'm depressed and when I sat down and thought about it, the only thing I could think is that I never thought at 36, I'd still be working full time and childless. I'm just not in the place in my life that I want to be at the moment ... and it's hard ... and it's almost like I'm resenting my job for it [/quote]


Hey! Thanks for sharing. I somehow feel encouraged when I feel like I´m not the only person in my shoes! I´m sorta like where you are too. Like I´m not where I want to be and when I listen to "motivational" stuff, I hear things like "Find yr passion / develop a vision / work with all your heart to get there".

And my problem is, I don´t know what my passion is!!!! I think I could picture myself being a full-time mom and running a great household, but guess what? That´s one passion that you can´t "Work with all your heart to get there" !!! Hahah, I think that´s what makes TTC such "hard work" cos unlike other types of jobs, its not like your reward is directly proportional to your efforts....sometimes it feels like inversely proportionate. People who don´t work at it, get PG more easily.

Hmmm..... I´ve thought about it and wondered if I spend less time on BnB and more time job-searching, perhaps I might make more progress on getting something better and at least smth in my life would be moving.....
Where do you live anyways? And what are you doing?

 

[Deb111]

Hi Cheerios

I'm in Birmingham in the UK.

I teach 5 / 6 yr olds. I think part of my problem is that I have suffered on and off with depression for several years but I can't take anything for it now I'm TTC - and to be honest, when I stopped my meds 3 years ago, I was in a place where I was heaps better and didn't need it anymore, but a few things lately, including TTC issues, have kinda triggered it off again but I'm working hard at getting through it rather than giving into it. Just feel like I'm going through the motions of life and watching everyone else 'live' their lives.

I've got quite good at putting on an act over the last few years, so the kids don't see it and nor do the people I work with ... but I feel it

 

[willbamom1day]

I wish I could give each and everyone of you gals a and prayer in person.

This ttc thing is a hard journey and I have to keep telling myself that it's not where I am going it's how I get there that counts. My relationship with God grows more each day as I lean more on Him - without Him I would not survive this journey.

Heres a lil prayer I have put together for myself and thought of you all - many blessings

Prayer Suggestion: Father in heaven, thank You for working behind the scenes in my life. Lord, help me to trust You with my child(ren) that I desire to have, help me to trust that Your plan is best. I pray the appointed time for me is on its way. I am content in You, for you have a good plan for my future. I bless you today and always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen

 

[Guppy051708]

I dont think you can delete a post
If you can, i think you gotta contact the administrator and she will remove it.

Blessings to everyone!

 

[mrskcbrown]

I dont think you can delete a post
If you can, i think you gotta contact the administrator and she will remove it.

Blessings to everyone!

Congrats on your little boy! Boys love their moms!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hope everyone is having a great weekend! I am feeling a bit better today. Never thought I would be so happy to get my period but I really want it to come!!!!!! DH and I dont know if we want to do the sperm meets egg plan or the turkey baster plan?? Guess I better look up what to do for turkey baster LOL!

 

[Guppy051708]

Thanks doll!
...whats turkey baster ? well either way, its a brand new cycle for a whole new start You ARE going to get this hun!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Thanks doll!
...whats turkey baster ? well either way, its a brand new cycle for a whole new start You ARE going to get this hun!

Yep 3 more days of provera and prayerfully my cycle will come soon thereafter. It usually does! I am determined. Gotta order my conceive plus next week as well. I think its when I put his semen in a sterile cup and use a turkey baster to inject his semen in me, LOL!! Like a low cost IUI! I saw a woman on discovery channel who did it and got BFP and she was paralyzed!

 

[somedaymama]

Guppy, congrats on the boy!!!! It doesn't seem like that long ago I was hoping along with you that you would get your BFP, checking your temp every morning hoping you had logged an increase. Now you know a little better how to plan.

Mrskcbrown, Dahlia did the turkey baster thing a few months ago because she was at family's house while she was ovulating. She could probably tell you more about it.

 

[Guppy051708]

Wow! thats actually kind of cool Well that should be good! Puts everything waay up there LOL. Sounds like a good plan and a heck of a lot cheaper!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Ive read that the percentage rate for getting a BFP is right up there with IUI. About 30% but I still think the IUI may be better because they put it into your Uterus, we would only be able to get to the cervix, so we will see. Guess I got to get my period first, LOL

 

[willbamom1day]

Guppy051708 Congratulations a lil boy

mrskcbrown your in my prayers



and prayers for you all

 

[cheerios]

Willbeamom1day - Thanks so much for your prayer! Sooo meaningful. I´m copying it down into my journal!

My weekend went well. Had a friend from Singapore who visited on Sat. and stayed over till Sunday. She left in the afternoon, we went to church and ended it off by going for "Alice in Wonderland"..... really nice show!

I was pretty upset in church though. We were late since we had to fetch my friend to the train station and so we had to sit right at the back, (Together with couples WITH babies) - since we didn´t want to disturb the congregation.

Guess what. I saw a couple, whom I hardly see, but recognize nevertheless at the back. The last time I saw them, it was sometime last year, they had a young son. Today, when I saw them, the lady was carrying a newborn baby....I was soo shocked. I didn´t even see her pregnant and now she´s a mom of a second baby....one boy one girl.....

It was so trivial and minor, plus I didn´t know them personally....but I was sooo upset! I cried a little in the service and oh my, it was the first time I cried upon seeing a new baby..... I had to lift up my emotions to God and remind myself that I am not her and God has a special and unique plan for each of His children....still, I felt myself being so upset that it seems to work out so easily for some women!

Ok, bad news aside, the cool thing is that my daily migraines have sorta stopped. I have reduced my Metformin to 1,000mg and the migraines are gone. Ok, I had a sudden one yesterday over dinner but it stopped after 30mins or so.....that was amazing.....but right now, I try to avoid all forms of alcohol since my head is sensitive to dehydrating agents.....

Really appreciate each one of you here..... God bless and wish you all a great week.

 

[cheerios]

Hi Cheerios

I'm in Birmingham in the UK.

I teach 5 / 6 yr olds. I think part of my problem is that I have suffered on and off with depression for several years but I can't take anything for it now I'm TTC - and to be honest, when I stopped my meds 3 years ago, I was in a place where I was heaps better and didn't need it anymore, but a few things lately, including TTC issues, have kinda triggered it off again but I'm working hard at getting through it rather than giving into it. Just feel like I'm going through the motions of life and watching everyone else 'live' their lives.

I've got quite good at putting on an act over the last few years, so the kids don't see it and nor do the people I work with ... but I feel it

Hey dear Deb!

Thanks for sharing so openly. I can understand how TTC can trigger depression. I´ve never actually been diagnosed with depression, though I can get depressive easily, which I actually am aware of, so I try not to fall into that pit too deeply.

Do you see a counsellor? Or like a Christian mentor? I have one, but haven´t seen her for the longest time. I think I shd make another appt with her..... It would be good to get prayer on a regular basis? To kinna keep your spirits up so that you don´t store everything inside you..... Does your DH know about this??? What does he say / suggest?

 

[Dahlia]

Hi everyone - I'm back. wow, a lot has happened...and Guppy - a boy? that's so amazing!!!

turkey baster - yes yes yes...been there done that. I really thought that cycle was gonna do it for us...only thing is, I read that it is best if you O after you put it in, so the cervix sucks it all up...so that was difficult...b/c it is easier to O with him. there, I had to be ultra graphic, of course...or it just wouldn't be a bnb posting!

 

[somedaymama]

hey, Dahlia's back! :wave: how was your week?

 

[Guppy051708]

We are naming our baby Isaiah, which means "God is salvation". Im a stickler for the meaning of a name, needs to be strong and true. Plus it's cute! haha. And of course the prophet Isaiah. Isaiah's group of people is one of the only that God chose to directly speak to. Considering the difficulty we went through to have our baby, like our recent miscarriage that Satan did to us, i think it's very fitting. All thanks to God, we have our Isaiah.

 

[somedaymama]

love the name...and the meaning!