F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[babyhopes2010]

God isnt trying to make me suffer,i know more then the average person how precious life is.
The struggles and ups and downs have been all worth it!This baby will be loved beyond all words and i will treasure every day with him/her.I thank God everymorning im still pregnant.I have scan in 6 hours,im nervous but am trusting in God xx

 

[AmaryllisRed]

Ladies,

Please pray for me. This journey has been an extremely difficult one for me. AF showed today. She showed early even before I had a chance to test. I feel like running and screaming. I don't know why I felt so down when I saw her. I felt it coming but the sight of AF made it so real. My faith is really being tested right now. I'm trying to keep my eyes toward the heavens but its so hard. Never did I think it would be this difficult. I feel like giving up is my only option. Month after Month I think I'll get that BFP but I get let down everytijme. Sometimes I feel that maybe this isn't what God has in store for me. If its not I wish he would just take this desire from my heart.

I won't be posting for a while. I need to take a break from the site.

I know how you feel. I try to remember that nothing is worth going against God's will for my life. So we just have to wait. And who better to wait on than the God who loves us and has better things planned for us than we could even imagine?

 

[babyhopes2010]

Maybe im biased but its so frickin cute
https://img846.imageshack.us/img846/5250/dscn1831u.jpg
LORD I LOVE YOU!!!!! Thankyou xx

 

[Deb111]

Awww babyhopes - you're not biased! What a beautiful picture of your LO!

PrayingtoGod - keeping you in my prayers. I know only too well how hard it is to believe in God's perfect timing when you're going through such problems TTC

 

[mrskcbrown]

Awww babyhopes - you're not biased! What a beautiful picture of your LO!

PrayingtoGod - keeping you in my prayers. I know only too well how hard it is to believe in God's perfect timing when you're going through such problems TTC

Hey Deb how are you doing? Where are you at in your TTC process? Miss you and keeping you lifted in prayer.

 

[Deb111]

Thanks MrsKC - feels like we're in limbo a bit at the moment

To cut a very long story short

1 - went to see excellent private urologist - he feels he can help but is going to have to probably be a co-ordinated ICSI cycle along with hubby's microTESE and will cost us £10,000 - £11,000 and hubby was made redundant 6 weeks ago

2 - urologist ordered an up to date set of blood tests (as the NHS had done them in the evening which is totally wrong) and they showed hubby's prolactin to be extremely high and this is the first thing that linked everything together for us. High prolactin results in azoospermia and is linked to low testosterone and underactive thyroid - all of which hubby has - and can to a certain extent be treated very successfully, so it meant that possibly we would be able to get enough sperm from a sample and then go on to IVF / ICSI. We finally felt like we were getting somewhere and that it was all falling into place and that life had been kind to us

3 - then saw an endocrinologist to look into the high prolactin who has ordered another set of blood test results and prolactin is totally normal again which is not what we wanted to hear!

4 - Hubby will be having an MRI scan soon just to double check pituitary gland - endocrinologist doesn't feel it's necessary, but is more than happy to refer us if we wanted to just double check - and for the sake of £400, it was always nag away at me if we don't double check it's not causing the problem

So now we're waiting for that and then have to go back and see urologist and he may put hubby on something like clomid / arimadex / HCG and then 6 weeks later we go back to him and have more blood tests and SA and take it from there

He's talking about co-ordinated ICSI cycle maybe september / october time, but how can I get excited about that - we have no sperm as of yet!?

Life is definitely not easy right now and I appreciate your thoughts and prayers

MrsKC - I can't believe how much Malcolm has gorwn - such a grown up little boy now!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Thanks MrsKC - feels like we're in limbo a bit at the moment

To cut a very long story short

1 - went to see excellent private urologist - he feels he can help but is going to have to probably be a co-ordinated ICSI cycle along with hubby's microTESE and will cost us £10,000 - £11,000 and hubby was made redundant 6 weeks ago

2 - urologist ordered an up to date set of blood tests (as the NHS had done them in the evening which is totally wrong) and they showed hubby's prolactin to be extremely high and this is the first thing that linked everything together for us. High prolactin results in azoospermia and is linked to low testosterone and underactive thyroid - all of which hubby has - and can to a certain extent be treated very successfully, so it meant that possibly we would be able to get enough sperm from a sample and then go on to IVF / ICSI. We finally felt like we were getting somewhere and that it was all falling into place and that life had been kind to us

3 - then saw an endocrinologist to look into the high prolactin who has ordered another set of blood test results and prolactin is totally normal again which is not what we wanted to hear!

4 - Hubby will be having an MRI scan soon just to double check pituitary gland - endocrinologist doesn't feel it's necessary, but is more than happy to refer us if we wanted to just double check - and for the sake of £400, it was always nag away at me if we don't double check it's not causing the problem

So now we're waiting for that and then have to go back and see urologist and he may put hubby on something like clomid / arimadex / HCG and then 6 weeks later we go back to him and have more blood tests and SA and take it from there

He's talking about co-ordinated ICSI cycle maybe september / october time, but how can I get excited about that - we have no sperm as of yet!?

Life is definitely not easy right now and I appreciate your thoughts and prayers

MrsKC - I can't believe how much Malcolm has gorwn - such a grown up little boy now!

No problem, Im wishing the best for you. How is hubby coping with everything? I know men take TTC different than we do. Yes Malcolm is huge. 15lbs at 2 months and 3 weeks!! Keep me posted.

 

[prayingtogod]

Ready, Babyhopes, NDH,

I'm back and ready to jump back in the saddle. I got just what I needed from Sunday's church service. My pastor's topic was "God has a plan for your life". It was for me. It seems that every word he spoke was for my life. I feel so refreshed and renewed. I think with my new found strength I can go on. I know it's only a matter of time. I know that it is in his plan. He is just preparing my husband and I to be the best parents we can be. I went to the alter and gave every circumstance to him. I walked away and left them there. I will no longer be bound by ttc. I know that I will be victorious in the end. I'm just going to sit back and watch God do what he does best. I am at peace about the whole trying ttc process. He has perfomed greater miracles than pregnancy in my life. So I know what he can do. All I have to do is let him be God.

Ladies, I will be praying for everyone. Peace, Blessings, and Baby dust to all

 

[babyhopes2010]

PrayingtoGod- so happy u bounced back.TTC is the most painful heartaching journey i ever went to and it breaks my heart others feel that same pain

But i was laying in bed and felt the baby today and i cant assure you while u never forget ttc or mc pain.It was the most incrediable momment of my life xxx

Wishing you all the prayers in the world xxx

 

[Terangela]

Life certainly has been busy over here. I have one big event behind me now and another one coming up. What a lot of work that has been. I am praying as I have all the procedure manuals written and done up and tweak events it will take less and less of my time.

I have been helping in small ways (arranged 3 weeks of meals for a friend) as her and her DH just lost their baby. She was 22 weeks pg and had known for 2 weeks that they were going to lose the baby, they just didn't know when. Tomorrow they are holding a memorial service for their precious little one. I have been grieving over this and really wanting to remain a good friend to her through this hard time and beyond. I have known my friend half my life and knowing how much she loves her other two kids makes this so very hard. She has a lot of support and I am very glad for that. I have been an emotional basket case the last few weeks because of all of this as well. If you could keep her in your prayers. Tomorrow will be a very difficult day for her.

MrsKC- 15lbs at 2 months... hokey, he is a big guy! My little man was 12lbs 2oz at his appointment about a week ago at 3 months.

Deb- Praying that the tests reveal answers and a solution for you two.

Praying- I remember getting on bended knee in the middle of my living room and crying out and surrendering it all to God. It still took a few months after that, but I think God was waiting for me to give it all to him and his timing. I wish I hadn't concentrated and fought with God so much over timing as I have 3 fantastic kids (one who is crabby right now that is is almost bed time and not getting her way...) and they are the best things that have happened in my life. It had to happen in his timing, not mine. It took 2 years and 8 months to get my BFP. Keep surrendering it all to him!

Amaryllisred- You have it right. God's plan for us is so much more amazing than we could ever fathom.

 

[mrskcbrown]

Life certainly has been busy over here. I have one big event behind me now and another one coming up. What a lot of work that has been. I am praying as I have all the procedure manuals written and done up and tweak events it will take less and less of my time.

I have been helping in small ways (arranged 3 weeks of meals for a friend) as her and her DH just lost their baby. She was 22 weeks pg and had known for 2 weeks that they were going to lose the baby, they just didn't know when. Tomorrow they are holding a memorial service for their precious little one. I have been grieving over this and really wanting to remain a good friend to her through this hard time and beyond. I have known my friend half my life and knowing how much she loves her other two kids makes this so very hard. She has a lot of support and I am very glad for that. I have been an emotional basket case the last few weeks because of all of this as well. If you could keep her in your prayers. Tomorrow will be a very difficult day for her.

MrsKC- 15lbs at 2 months... hokey, he is a big guy! My little man was 12lbs 2oz at his appointment about a week ago at 3 months.

Deb- Praying that the tests reveal answers and a solution for you two.

Praying- I remember getting on bended knee in the middle of my living room and crying out and surrendering it all to God. It still took a few months after that, but I think God was waiting for me to give it all to him and his timing. I wish I hadn't concentrated and fought with God so much over timing as I have 3 fantastic kids (one who is crabby right now that is is almost bed time and not getting her way...) and they are the best things that have happened in my life. It had to happen in his timing, not mine. It took 2 years and 8 months to get my BFP. Keep surrendering it all to him!

Amaryllisred- You have it right. God's plan for us is so much more amazing than we could ever fathom.

I too, when I truly trusted God is when I got pregnant. 16 months but he did it! Yes he is like 16lbs now, Terangela!!! He is so heavy.

Praying for FAITH!

 

[AmaryllisRed]

Well, got bloodwork done and I am ovulating... Now I just don't know why it is taking so long, unless I ovulated last cycle but wasn't before that. I have to go June 6 for a post coital exam. Yay.
I just don't know how far I should go with this, you know? If I'm ovulating... maybe I should be leaving it in God's hands?

Terangela, I will be praying for your friend. So heartbreaking.

 

[babyhopes2010]

Amar is u make love every 2-3 days ull prob catch the egg.


As for me 16 weeks it still doesnt seem real

 

[babyhopes2010]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re5EIUIXbhc

 

[tishie]

Hi All - I'm new here and I'm asking for prayers for my beautiful daughter and her husband. The doctor said her tubes are very damaged and completely blocked and there is no chance for her to get pregnant unless by IVF. Well... yesterday she was late and took a pregnancy test and it came up positive!! But I'm really worried and scared because I understand there is a great risk it being an ectopic pregnancy. Will you all please pray that that the baby has successfully implanted in her uterus and it is not ectopic? Since she found out she's pregnant on the weekend, she can't get to the doctor until tomorrow. Thank you for your prayers and support!

Teresa

 

[babyhopes2010]

awwww tish fab news!!!!

as for me i 20 weeks on thursday! wow!

 

[AmaryllisRed]

Hi All - I'm new here and I'm asking for prayers for my beautiful daughter and her husband. The doctor said her tubes are very damaged and completely blocked and there is no chance for her to get pregnant unless by IVF. Well... yesterday she was late and took a pregnancy test and it came up positive!! But I'm really worried and scared because I understand there is a great risk it being an ectopic pregnancy. Will you all please pray that that the baby has successfully implanted in her uterus and it is not ectopic? Since she found out she's pregnant on the weekend, she can't get to the doctor until tomorrow. Thank you for your prayers and support!

Teresa

Done.
Will you come back and give us an update when you get one?

 

[tishie]

Hi All - I'm new here and I'm asking for prayers for my beautiful daughter and her husband. The doctor said her tubes are very damaged and completely blocked and there is no chance for her to get pregnant unless by IVF. Well... yesterday she was late and took a pregnancy test and it came up positive!! But I'm really worried and scared because I understand there is a great risk it being an ectopic pregnancy. Will you all please pray that that the baby has successfully implanted in her uterus and it is not ectopic? Since she found out she's pregnant on the weekend, she can't get to the doctor until tomorrow. Thank you for your prayers and support!

Teresa

Done.
Will you come back and give us an update when you get one?

Hi All,

My daughter went to the doctor and I couldn't believe what he told her. He said that he didn't believe that she was pregnant and why would she take a pregnancy test knowing she couldn't get pregnant. Anyway he did an ultra sound,and said the uterus was empty. She also took a pregnancy test in the office and it came up pregnant too. He said she was probably having a tubal pregnancy and that she should terminate it he gave her a prescription for Methotrexate. Luckily my daughter had been researching on line and knew that an HCG test should be done. He ordered the test and it was 600. On Monday she would have been four weeks pregnant. She is having another blood test on Weds and we'll see where the HCG levels are. I'm really upset with this doctor and I've lost all trust in him even though I've been going to him for many years. From what I've been reading on line is that an ultra sound won't show anything until the HCG levels are 1000 to 2000. She is having no symptoms of ectopic pregnancy No pain, bleeding, cramping, etc. I think after she goes in on Weds she will get a second opinion no matter what the results. I told her if it was me I wouldn't take the Methotrexate unless absolutely positive it was an ectopic pregnancy. I'm so upset at that doctor and I know if this is a normal pregnancy she will switch doctors. Please keep her in your prayers that this is a normal pregnancy and deliver a healthy baby. Thank you so much!!

 

[somedaymama]

tishie, wow, that doctor sounds horrible! If it is a tubal pregnancy, they need to watch her closely, not just give her a prescription. For the record, injections of methotrexate are shown to be better than the oral prescription. (https://www.webmd.com/baby/methotrexate-for-ectopic-pregnancy) If there is a concern that this is ectopic, she needs to be seen/treated ASAP. If the doctor did an ultrasound and didn't see anything, but the HCG levels showed pregnancy, the doctor should have looked for the pregnancy elsewhere.

(I just realized that Wednesday is tomorrow .) I'm glad she is getting a second opinion right away. I would absolutely not take the methotrexate without confirmation that this is not a viable pregnancy. Doctors make mistakes and are way too quick to "take care of it."

I hope and pray that this is a normal, healthy pregnancy and the doctor just missed it. Prayers for all of you!!

 

[NDH]

Thank you for an update on your daughter. What a horrible doctor! I'm glad your daughter has common sense and demanded a blood test. Usually nothing is visible at all until around 5 weeks so of course nothing could be seen at an ultrasound! I'm praying that her numbers rise acceptably and in another week or so she'll get a scan and see a lovely sac from a different doctor. I wouldn't trust that doctor again either.