F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[im_mi]

ahh my lappy is being a right pain and wont let me turn the volume up lol!! will have to shut down and try again later.

 

[im_mi]

someday, that does sound like it would explain things! Will you visit your doctor soon then?

 

[Aaisrie]

Someday I agree with Immi it would be worth seeing the Dr to find out what's going on

 

[somedaymama]

On Sunday I'll be a week late, so I think later next week if I haven't either started my period or gotten a BFP, I'll call my doctor. I have to see the doctor on campus before I can go different doctor, and the campus clinic doesn't do blood pregnancy tests--only urine. I think if I went there now they would just tell me to wait--they probably aren't used to people knowing exactly when they ovulated! (Although...my campus doc was the one who told me to start charting.)

 

[Aaisrie]

LOL Dr's can be stupid... Sounds like a plan Someday, if you think you can hold out that long!

 

[somedaymama]

I've waited 16 months, what's another week, right?! LOL.

 

[Aaisrie]

So true!! LOL When you put it that way!!! You seem beautifully positive, it's a real privilege to see that, particularly when I've been totally down and I'm only cycle 6

 

[Dahlia]

we are almost to 200 pages!!! we are SO cool.

 

[mrskcbrown]

@someday: What I have learned is that when we read all of this stuff online, we tend to self diagnose. Not that its a bad thing but it can also be so very confusing and cause more frustration. Of course see a DR but hopefully its not what you posted and you are just having a change in your cycle. I really hope is a + and that its just taking a while to build up!

@aaisirie: did your af start? I see your ticker is at day 1? Also I loved that song, beautiful.

@im_mi: glad the baby gave you some grace and you didnt have to stress. you dont need that so early in your pregnancy.

@everyone: how are you all doing?

With me, Im ok. Just helping my daughter study her science words and I washed and put her hair in ponytails.

 

[Aaisrie]

No it didn't!! My ticker just defaulted back to the beginning!! I have been swabbing (my poor violated) cervix all day and NOTHING, not even a TINGE of red or pink or ANYTHING... no cramps, CP still high?! I don't FEEL like it's going to start?! I'm totally confused.

 

[mrskcbrown]

No it didn't!! My ticker just defaulted back to the beginning!! I have been swabbing (my poor violated) cervix all day and NOTHING, not even a TINGE of red or pink or ANYTHING... no cramps, CP still high?! I don't FEEL like it's going to start?! I'm totally confused.

Oh ok, well thats great! I was curious as I was looking at your ticker but I forget they automatically default back. You may be, you never know!!!! My boobs have started hurting today?? My body is acting so crazy!

 

[Aaisrie]

That's interesting! Mine are itchy, it just started... today? or yesterday... I'm tired lol it's 1am here I'm falling asleep! I got really itchy boobs with Saraya but not this early... I want to KNOW... although obviously I'd rather know I was preg lol

 

[mrskcbrown]

Oh you should be sleeping LOL! Its almost 8 here.

 

[groovygrl]

Hello everyone! Good morning, good afternoon, good night. Wow so cool we're all somewhere different in our day. It's 3 pm on friday afternoon here.

It only seems like I've been absent a couple of days but takes a while to scroll thru the pages and catch up! I've been working lots and making the most of the time I have with DH - like I've said before he's gone a lot at the beginning of this year making it challenging to TTC. Oh well, it is, was it is

Thanks for the music Evie and Beannie, funny I was thinking I would ask you guys what your favorite tunes are these days! I've been in the car lots the last week and trying to find inspirational music. I had been listening to a CD my mom made for me when I was in Canada last month -Amy Grant (All the old school hymns she had redone w acoustic guiter) and I found it to be very healing. I had played "It is well" over and over again. You know? I would come to the end of the track and ask, "is it well with my soul?" the answer was often, no" not yet Lord" so I'd play it again and really sing it out. I'd repeat and repeat and repeat 'till I giggled at the craziness of it all. maybe a bit crazy but it works!

Thanks for all the OV watch discussion. I'm going to look on the website to see if I can get it in NZ without too much hassle. It's so hard for me to chart temps and CM and everything else 'cus I do approx. 2 long haul overseas (and overnight) flights a month and charting anything with accuracy is next to impossible. I have a really spot on 28 day cycle still and I feel OV pain. Bottom line for me now is just to BD as much as poss. as often as poss. and hope to get it right (again) soon!

mrskc, Evie and someday - sorry you have to go thru this nasty waiting game but keep your eyes on the BFP you know is coming

mamahawk - inspired by pregnancy at 40! I'm praying for that surge of really fertile 'everything' that is possible. Loved your long post, wasn't preach-y. I thought it came from a very real place and thought it was an inspired teaching opportunity.For me anyway I grew up in a Christian family and attended large conservative churches for most of my life. I struggled (and still do)with the punishment and reward thing as well. My relationship with God is a lot more intimate now and I strive to re-teach myself that He is not that kind of God. He wants us to know joy! not guilt and shame.

So I'm just coming to the end of AF (this one was very painful and heavy and emotional BUT exactly 28 days after I started to bleed with MC) so... going to believe that I'm going to join you all (with Im_mi and guppy) on the BFP and beyond threads! Praise Jesus

To all the mom's and step mom's - you have my prayers for a continued path of patience and grace.

lots of love

 

[somedaymama]

So true!! LOL When you put it that way!!! You seem beautifully positive, it's a real privilege to see that, particularly when I've been totally down and I'm only cycle 6

Thanks. I try, but I've hit my humps of desperation like anyone. At six months I started to think it would never happen, but I did get my BFP around 8 months (had an early miscarriage). Around the 1 year mark I started to get really desperate, there was one cycle that we tried more than we have any other cycle. I just HAD to get my BFP that cycle. Well, I didn't even ovulate that cycle, and I was just crushed. I guess it's been so long now that I can hope and pray and know that it will happen some day, and the more I can give it to God and His timing, the more at peace I will be.

@someday: What I have learned is that when we read all of this stuff online, we tend to self diagnose. Not that its a bad thing but it can also be so very confusing and cause more frustration. Of course see a DR but hopefully its not what you posted and you are just having a change in your cycle. I really hope is a + and that its just taking a while to build up!

I guess I was self-diagnosing a bit... I try not to do that. I'm just freaked out that there is something wrong with my body and it was reassuring to know that there are perfectly normal causes for the occasional extra long luteal phase. Hopefully it's not any of that and I'll get a BFP soon! I saw you took away how many days you are late, are you just not counting anymore? Is your RE going to see you?

groovygrl, praying for you as this new cycle begins! I hope you get your BFP very very soon!

to everyone! sleep well!

 

[cdejdemommy]

I just saw this here through a link in someone's journal! This is amazing!
I'm in my first cycle TTC baby number 3 and hoping for a girl but will love and feel blessed by whatever God decides. God had already blessed me with 2 beautiful boys - Christian age 3 and Daniel age 2. Can't wait to read more about your ladies!!

 

[groovygrl]

thank you someday!

I know your desperation! It all gets a bit much sometimes right?

I've been looking at the Ov watch and seriously considering it. I'll look at picking it up at a store in L.A. next week. But... I've got about 80 LH detector strips in my dresser, I've got the pre-seed, I've got bee pollen, a giant bottle of pregnancy vitamins and folic acid, books,blogs,legs in air, alkaline food chart, acupuncture, should i be taking baby aspirin? shall I get progesterone pessaries? lions and tigers and bears, oh my!

so ya, I get you re:desperation. On that theme...can I ask a nosey question? what kind of pre-seed are you using? there is the 'squirty up' stuff and the lubricant. I use the squirty up stuff the week leading up to OV but wonder if the lubricant wouldn't hurt. Very personal, bet heh...DH likes to use lubricant when I'm especially greedy around OV time 'cus he starts to get sore. Do you know if I can just use the squirty up stuff as dual purpose? I know that the regular lube - no matter how natural and water based the tube says it is- really inhibits sperm motility. I read that egg white is ideal but... DH draws the line there. Ha!

thoughts on this anyone?

 

[groovygrl]

welcome cdejdemommy!

this is a lovely and supportive place to be on your 3rd TTC journey!

it is a privilege to pray and laugh and learn with the ladies here

 

[Aaisrie]

Groovy I used preseed and it's much nicer than lube, I found it to be more gentle and natural feeling and because of the applicator you can put it inside so you don't get that raw feeling inside.

Well as you will see by my chart my temp is TOTALLY inaccurate this morning hence I discarded it. At 7:30am Patricia's alarm went off but in her half asleep state she thought it was mine because she's used to me temping lol So she elbowed me awake at which point I told her it was her alarm. So then I couldn't get back to sleep KNOWING I would be temping soon and wanting to know what the temp was. So I lay real still for 30 mins and when my alarm went off I reached under the pillow (she doesn't have nightstands) to grab the BBT... not there... slowly rolled onto my side to look over the edge of the bed... not there... slowly looked over the top end.... not there... Eventually I had to sit up and it had moved down the bed but by that time I'd sat up so it got screwed over....

ON THE PLUS SIDE! My CP is still high, firm, it feels closed although I never mark open/closed I think I'm starting to get used to the difference in it and I swear for the past 2 days it's been closed but I'm not 100% so I haven't put it on my chart. Still creamy cm, and NO BLOOD on my cervix - which there should be if AF was arriving... normally the blood appears there 24-36 hrs before AF makes its way down...

CONFUSED but HAPPY that AF isn't here... it gives me hope

How is everyone else this morning??

 

[somedaymama]

welcome cdejdemommy!

groovygrl, I use the squirty-up stuff mostly because its so much cheaper than the tubes of lubricant. I think it doubles just fine as a lubricant, actually I thought that's what it was!

I think the Ov watch is a great idea for you, so much easier to use than test strips. My cycles are too long for it though...

Aasirie, it's sounding pretty good, I hope so!

My temp dropped significantly this morning. I woke up over an hour earlier than usual, so that could be it, but I'm kind of hoping that my period is coming. It's about time!