F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[mrskcbrown]

Hi guys, just pray for me! AF jus got me n am soo angry with God n i have decided to jus let go this TTC thing....i feel sooo bad!!! 10 months to me is like forever! Nway jus need u to rem me in ua prayers!

I will definitely keep you in my prayers and its ok to be angry but sin not is what the Bible says. I know 10 months is a long time to TTC but dont ever give up hope. There are many of us in the FAITH thread that have been TTCing a LONG time before we were eventually blessed with BFPs. I myself TTC for 16 months!

Have you consulted a DR about TTC?

Be blessed.

 

[somedaymama]

I will definitely keep you in my prayers and its ok to be angry but sin not is what the Bible says. I know 10 months is a long time to TTC but dont ever give up hope. There are many of us in the FAITH thread that have been TTCing a LONG time before we were eventually blessed with BFPs. I myself TTC for 16 months!

Yep, we definitley understand frustration and hopelessness around here! My DH and I tried for 17 months before we got pregnant with our baby girl. Welcome maxina, I hope that you find encouragement here.

 

[maxina]

Mrskcbrown and someday: Thanks so much for tht encouragement! I cant tell u how many times i have felt like jus giving up n like maybe God doesnt want me to be a mom?? feels good to know tht am in your prayers!

 

[willbamom1day]

Welcome to the new ladies Glad the Lord has lead you here.

TTC is no picnic - my hubby and I had been trying for 19 months before we got our bfp but I can say that if you keep the faith and continue to pray knowing God will answer in His perfect timing.

 

[ready4onemore]

Mrskcbrown and someday: Thanks so much for tht encouragement! I cant tell u how many times i have felt like jus giving up n like maybe God doesnt want me to be a mom?? feels good to know tht am in your prayers!

Just remember a delay is not denial. God will bless you in His timing. I know it is hard but you will get your BFP real soon.

 

[NDH]

24 months now, never used any protection and my hormones were never tampered with with birth control. It's funny, when DH and I married, we prayed that God would give us two years together before we had babies, and He would close my womb in the mean time. He obviously heard our prayer, and yet every month I'm discouraged when my period shows up. The 2 years is up (and more, since we were apart for 6 months) so I'm now praying for a fruitful womb.

I'm actually grateful that God didn't allow me to get pregnant when I kept whinging at Him. It's shown me that He is faithful even when I am fickle. And also, probably would have made our immigration more of a nightmare than it already was. DH wanted me to to get pregnant just before coming here without him, which was supposed to be for 2-3 months, and turned out to be 6. Neither of us would have wanted him to miss most of my first pregnancy. And now with him not having found a job yet, we'd be getting very stressed.

So thank you Lord God for protecting me from my own foolish desires, and forgive me for doubting You and Your perfect will.

 

[mrskcbrown]

24 months now, never used any protection and my hormones were never tampered with with birth control. It's funny, when DH and I married, we prayed that God would give us two years together before we had babies, and He would close my womb in the mean time. He obviously heard our prayer, and yet every month I'm discouraged when my period shows up. The 2 years is up (and more, since we were apart for 6 months) so I'm now praying for a fruitful womb.

I'm actually grateful that God didn't allow me to get pregnant when I kept whinging at Him. It's shown me that He is faithful even when I am fickle. And also, probably would have made our immigration more of a nightmare than it already was. DH wanted me to to get pregnant just before coming here without him, which was supposed to be for 2-3 months, and turned out to be 6. Neither of us would have wanted him to miss most of my first pregnancy. And now with him not having found a job yet, we'd be getting very stressed.

So thank you Lord God for protecting me from my own foolish desires, and forgive me for doubting You and Your perfect will.

Thats awesome that you can recognize God and his tender mercies like that. He does everything in the right timing. Praying that your DH finds a job, I too know how stressful that is. My DH was in that position about a yr ago.

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Welcome to the new ladies! Glad you can join us

I'm counting down the days to our IUI, hoping and praying it will work. Hope you all have had a great week so far. Blessings!

 

[Guppy051708]

Hi girls, i just wanted to stop in and let you all know about this awesome forum i thought you may find interesting. Its called "Gentle Christian Mothers". I have just created an account but im pretty sure it has alot of the stages (like TTC, pregnancy, parenting, MC support, etc) on it except it has a Christian spin. It is like BnB almost to a T but with the Jesus thrown in Let me know if anyone decides to get on that forum, I would love to friend you! www.gentlechristianmothers.com

 

[willbamom1day]

For God is our God forever and ever Pslams 48:14

 

[cheerios]

Hi dear ladies!
Just wanted to say a quick hi because I need to head to church soon! Sorry haven't been coming here v. often cos I've been spending more time on the 1st trimester forum and my own journal.

Hope you all are doing well and WELCOME to the newbies amongst us!

I gave the last few pages a quick read to keep myself updated on how you ladies have been. Thanks for sharing and I would also know how to keep u all in my prayers!

Update on myself: I've been pretty good. Mainly battling night nausea but I'm trying different methods to help myself sleep through the night. During the day I'm great! Also trusting God during this whole pregnancy journey that everything will turn out just fine! I realized that I'm quite the worrier and have to really work through this issue with God. Cos most of the things I worry about are not even rational .... they fall under the "What if" category.

So yeah, if you could, could you pray that I will learn to trust God fully, wholeheartedly and without reserve? That I would stop consulting Dr. Google and consult our heavenly father instead? I'm also in the process of trying to cope with a FS who isn't very "caring" when one is pregnant. I liked him quite a lot when he was helping us on our TTC journey but ever since I got preggie, I find that he's a pretty pessimisstic / pragmatic guy who keeps reminding me on areas where my baby isn't "progressing textbook-wise".

So yeah, that's another change that I've had to deal with. Hubby has been coming with me on my appointments so its been great having him there to support me and even to translate certain things which I would otherwise completely misunderstand.

Sorry for making this sooo long again (wasn't my intention). But yeah, I'm grateful and thankful that tomorrow I'll be 7 weeks along!

 

[cheerios]

Hi girls, i just wanted to stop in and let you all know about this awesome forum i thought you may find interesting. Its called "Gentle Christian Mothers". I have just created an account but im pretty sure it has alot of the stages (like TTC, pregnancy, parenting, MC support, etc) on it except it has a Christian spin. It is like BnB almost to a T but with the Jesus thrown in Let me know if anyone decides to get on that forum, I would love to friend you! www.gentlechristianmothers.com

Hey Guppy!
I realized that you changed your signature to "TTC baby no. 2 in March". May I ask if that's related to your surrogacy??? Or are you not going to do that anymore and you're going to try for your own baby in March? How's Isaiah btw??? Is he still having fits? Have the doctors found out anything else?

 

[NDH]

Just popping in with a praise point - After being unemployed for 2 1/2 months due to moving countries, DH starts a fantastic job today! Ran into the guy by chance on Friday, asked if he might possibly be looking for help, got an interview Saturday and was offered a job making $25/hour to start! And even though the boss works Sundays, DH won't have to. So there's a lot of praise going on in our house. This is the way I'd been praying it would happen when DH's arrival date kept bein flushed back by months. I kept praying that God had it all under control, and that we were being kept apart for so long because God didn't want DH to leave his job until there was another good job for him here. Of course hoped it would be sooner, but managed to get through this time with not much worry.

 

[andella95]

Just popping in with a praise point - After being unemployed for 2 1/2 months due to moving countries, DH starts a fantastic job today! Ran into the guy by chance on Friday, asked if he might possibly be looking for help, got an interview Saturday and was offered a job making $25/hour to start! And even though the boss works Sundays, DH won't have to. So there's a lot of praise going on in our house. This is the way I'd been praying it would happen when DH's arrival date kept bein flushed back by months. I kept praying that God had it all under control, and that we were being kept apart for so long because God didn't want DH to leave his job until there was another good job for him here. Of course hoped it would be sooner, but managed to get through this time with not much worry.

Praise God!!!!!

 

[cheerios]

Just popping in with a praise point - After being unemployed for 2 1/2 months due to moving countries, DH starts a fantastic job today! Ran into the guy by chance on Friday, asked if he might possibly be looking for help, got an interview Saturday and was offered a job making $25/hour to start! And even though the boss works Sundays, DH won't have to. So there's a lot of praise going on in our house. This is the way I'd been praying it would happen when DH's arrival date kept bein flushed back by months. I kept praying that God had it all under control, and that we were being kept apart for so long because God didn't want DH to leave his job until there was another good job for him here. Of course hoped it would be sooner, but managed to get through this time with not much worry.

Awesome!!!! Isn't that great when God provides at the exact right time???? Yay! And no Sundays also means that your DH can go to church!!! Wow! Thanks for sharing!

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hope everyone is blessed!

 

[Deb111]

That's great news NDH!

I could really do with some prayers right now. I'm really struggling with life and have made an appointment with my Dr to go back on my anti-depressants for a while. There's no chance of me getting pregnant right now so it's not a problem as far as TTC goes.

I just need some help to drag myself out of this black hole. I can't do it by myself and I know my warning signs for when things are getting too much for me

Keeping you all in my prayers x

 

[mrskcbrown]

That's great news NDH!

I could really do with some prayers right now. I'm really struggling with life and have made an appointment with my Dr to go back on my anti-depressants for a while. There's no chance of me getting pregnant right now so it's not a problem as far as TTC goes.

I just need some help to drag myself out of this black hole. I can't do it by myself and I know my warning signs for when things are getting too much for me

Keeping you all in my prayers x

Praying for you DEB!!!! You have to do whats best for your mental state. SO if that means anti-depressants or seeing a counselor do whats best. It doesnt make you weak but actually strong! I will keep you in my prayers hunny!! I know you have had such a difficult time with it all.

Have you all decided on the donor sperm or just waiting it all out?

 

[Guppy051708]

after being rejected from so many intended parents (many are not Believers) Karin (the lady from the surrogacy place) called today with intended parents that she thinks would be a perfect match :rockon .... She said their beliefs are pretty right on with ours (especially about the abortion, or selective reduction). That's great and all! Very glad about that! here is the thing....they have 2 requests and I'm just not sure what I think and I Ned the Lord to help me with this (hopefully through you guys since I don't have very many chrisitan friends in my life:no

Request #1 : if the baby dies (would be still born) they want to induce early instead of waiting the entire 9 months. Guess they don't want to wait any longer than they have to but more importantly they think it would be a burden on me to carry a still baby for any longer than necessary. Makes sense. Sad, but I think I'm okay with that. Biblically, I don't see anything wrong with that so as long as the doc can confirm the baby isn't alive before the induction.

Request #2 ... This is the one I have trouble with... Okay, they said if the doc says the baby is in a vegetable state, they want to induce me instead of waiting around the entire 9 months for a baby that is brain dead. They would NEVER terminate on the basis of a test (like the Quad where they test for disabilities, like down syndrome or spin a bifid a) no, they wouldn't do anything like that but if the doctor confirmed the baby is brain dead they would want to induce right away instead of at term...I'm having trouble coming to par with that. I *honestly* am not sure if that is right or wrong and I need some Siritual guidance with this.

 

[Guppy051708]

@cheerios, Isaiah is well. A very happy and content baby however he still has his spells like he always has. We also think he may be suffering from vocal tics, but we can't be sure. Then last MRI was inconclusive anyways, doc is still very sure it is Chiari malformation type 1 but he can't truly diagnose as he doesn't have good enough scientific evidence but based on symptoms he is for sure that's what it is....wish he could just give that diagnoses bc he is treating it that way and we have to go back every coup,e of months to check on it. If he would just diagnose for sure we could get state insurance to cover all of his medical stuff...you don't even wanna know how much we've paid for everything...

As for surroagcy, it has been up in the air....last week we thought we wanted to try for our own baby....bc we hadn't heard from the surrogacy place for a very long time..and bc I have to have 3 AFs before they can even do the mock cycle....and I didn't have that...u til two days ago anyways, I got the call today (u can see the above message) so now I am really on the fence and I don't know what to do

I really have no problem with being pregnant for some deserving couple right now...but the problem I have is if I end up in a c section then I have to wait a year BF even getting preggo with out own I'm not word about the c section or anything like that...just that LONG year of waiting afterwards so idk