February IVF Buddies!! 2nd Cycle. FET

[Hatethewait85]

allie- Congrats on being PUPO!!! Hope the rest of the 2ww flies by for you!

eveclo- How's the wait going? Only 8 days left, huh? But sounds like you'll test in 5? Have you noticed anything promising? Fx for a sticky lil one!!

barbi- how are you doing? I've been checking in on your blog. Sorry to see you only got one this cycle Has your doc said anything to you about why you aren't getting more to freeze? My doc suspects I have an egg quality issue to explain my poor results Hope you have a good lil bean snugglin in there!!! Keep us updated!

pisces- any sign of O yet? Hope it comes soon!

AFM- Appointment the other day went as well as I expected. The doc suspects I have an egg quality issue given my fertilization rate (only 11 out of 22) and number of blasts (3 out of 11). She said that most of the eggs they got were immature and if we had waited 1-2 more days to retrieve I probably would've ovulated on my own :/ Another reason she thinks quality may be bad is due to the premature inc in my progesterone level when I was stimming. On paper everything looks fabulous and I definitely should've gotten pregnant by now, but I 'failed' the microscope test. Since there's no definitive way to test egg quality she said it's really hard to be certain without doing another cycle. It's possible that my IVF was just done in a 'bad month' which she says can happen. It's also possible that it was the protocol (antagonist) that caused problems. So if we did another round it would be with the long protocol - and that does NOT excite me. She wasn't super optimistic it would work but she also didn't say it would likely fail. In the end she said she really didn't know and she wished she could give me a better estimation of the odds. She did say if another round didn't work, we would need to discuss donor egg, donor embryo or adoption. So hubby and I have been having lots of long chats on what we want to do and we both change our minds a lot. We were also given a name of a reproductive immunologist in the area that we could work with for testing. At this point, we think we will at least proceed with immune testing. If it finds something it will give us a more positive look on another round. If it's all clear, it will make the decision a bit harder. I just worry about giving up on my eggs too soon.... Sorry for the novel.

Hope you are all well

 

[eveclo]

allie- Congrats on being PUPO!!! Hope the rest of the 2ww flies by for you!

eveclo- How's the wait going? Only 8 days left, huh? But sounds like you'll test in 5? Have you noticed anything promising? Fx for a sticky lil one!!

barbi- how are you doing? I've been checking in on your blog. Sorry to see you only got one this cycle Has your doc said anything to you about why you aren't getting more to freeze? My doc suspects I have an egg quality issue to explain my poor results Hope you have a good lil bean snugglin in there!!! Keep us updated!

pisces- any sign of O yet? Hope it comes soon!

AFM- Appointment the other day went as well as I expected. The doc suspects I have an egg quality issue given my fertilization rate (only 11 out of 22) and number of blasts (3 out of 11). She said that most of the eggs they got were immature and if we had waited 1-2 more days to retrieve I probably would've ovulated on my own :/ Another reason she thinks quality may be bad is due to the premature inc in my progesterone level when I was stimming. On paper everything looks fabulous and I definitely should've gotten pregnant by now, but I 'failed' the microscope test. Since there's no definitive way to test egg quality she said it's really hard to be certain without doing another cycle. It's possible that my IVF was just done in a 'bad month' which she says can happen. It's also possible that it was the protocol (antagonist) that caused problems. So if we did another round it would be with the long protocol - and that does NOT excite me. She wasn't super optimistic it would work but she also didn't say it would likely fail. In the end she said she really didn't know and she wished she could give me a better estimation of the odds. She did say if another round didn't work, we would need to discuss donor egg, donor embryo or adoption. So hubby and I have been having lots of long chats on what we want to do and we both change our minds a lot. We were also given a name of a reproductive immunologist in the area that we could work with for testing. At this point, we think we will at least proceed with immune testing. If it finds something it will give us a more positive look on another round. If it's all clear, it will make the decision a bit harder. I just worry about giving up on my eggs too soon.... Sorry for the novel.

Hope you are all well

HTW! So good to have an update from you. It sounds like your appointment has kind of left you up in the air & I suppose ultimately it is all on you and your husband now! Which isn't fun. I always like to be told, 'this is what has to be done'. I hope that you find your path.

You are so young, how are your eggs not great quality? Did she suggest possibly genetic testing on your next cycle? have you taken royal jelly before? Apparently that's meant to be the bees knees when it comes to upping egg quality?

As for me, I did a sneaky test this morning because I'm clearly crazy & stupid, but as I expected BFN. 5dp6dt. Sooo disappointed, had a little cry before (one of the first cries in this whole experience surprisingly), and DH just tried to reassure me that next cycle we will be transferring two blasts hopefully and maybe it's just a shi**y batch. I am also shocked, as are you HTW, that two healthy young people such as my husband and myself (and you and your DH) are unable to have babies! Especially since our infertility issue is my husbands low sperm count, and there was supposedly nothing 'wrong' with me... I am astounded that this hasn't worked after 3 transfers! I guess the only thing you can do is pick your head up and keep on keeping on. I won't test until Friday again, and if it is negative then I will probably stop progesterone so I can get AF and hopefully begin a freshie. Hopefully with better luck that the last

 

[Allie2009]

allie- Congrats on being PUPO!!! Hope the rest of the 2ww flies by for you!

eveclo- How's the wait going? Only 8 days left, huh? But sounds like you'll test in 5? Have you noticed anything promising? Fx for a sticky lil one!!

barbi- how are you doing? I've been checking in on your blog. Sorry to see you only got one this cycle Has your doc said anything to you about why you aren't getting more to freeze? My doc suspects I have an egg quality issue to explain my poor results Hope you have a good lil bean snugglin in there!!! Keep us updated!

pisces- any sign of O yet? Hope it comes soon!

AFM- Appointment the other day went as well as I expected. The doc suspects I have an egg quality issue given my fertilization rate (only 11 out of 22) and number of blasts (3 out of 11). She said that most of the eggs they got were immature and if we had waited 1-2 more days to retrieve I probably would've ovulated on my own :/ Another reason she thinks quality may be bad is due to the premature inc in my progesterone level when I was stimming. On paper everything looks fabulous and I definitely should've gotten pregnant by now, but I 'failed' the microscope test. Since there's no definitive way to test egg quality she said it's really hard to be certain without doing another cycle. It's possible that my IVF was just done in a 'bad month' which she says can happen. It's also possible that it was the protocol (antagonist) that caused problems. So if we did another round it would be with the long protocol - and that does NOT excite me. She wasn't super optimistic it would work but she also didn't say it would likely fail. In the end she said she really didn't know and she wished she could give me a better estimation of the odds. She did say if another round didn't work, we would need to discuss donor egg, donor embryo or adoption. So hubby and I have been having lots of long chats on what we want to do and we both change our minds a lot. We were also given a name of a reproductive immunologist in the area that we could work with for testing. At this point, we think we will at least proceed with immune testing. If it finds something it will give us a more positive look on another round. If it's all clear, it will make the decision a bit harder. I just worry about giving up on my eggs too soon.... Sorry for the novel.

Hope you are all well

HTW! So good to have an update from you. It sounds like your appointment has kind of left you up in the air & I suppose ultimately it is all on you and your husband now! Which isn't fun. I always like to be told, 'this is what has to be done'. I hope that you find your path.

You are so young, how are your eggs not great quality? Did she suggest possibly genetic testing on your next cycle? have you taken royal jelly before? Apparently that's meant to be the bees knees when it comes to upping egg quality?

As for me, I did a sneaky test this morning because I'm clearly crazy & stupid, but as I expected BFN. 5dp6dt. Sooo disappointed, had a little cry before (one of the first cries in this whole experience surprisingly), and DH just tried to reassure me that next cycle we will be transferring two blasts hopefully and maybe it's just a shi**y batch. I am also shocked, as are you HTW, that two healthy young people such as my husband and myself (and you and your DH) are unable to have babies! Especially since our infertility issue is my husbands low sperm count, and there was supposedly nothing 'wrong' with me... I am astounded that this hasn't worked after 3 transfers! I guess the only thing you can do is pick your head up and keep on keeping on. I won't test until Friday again, and if it is negative then I will probably stop progesterone so I can get AF and hopefully begin a freshie. Hopefully with better luck that the last

Oh I'm sure its just to soon hun...have you had any symptoms?

I picked up a few test today, but going to wait until wed to test. I've been feeling really full all the time. Also have been having some cramps and had a headache today.

 

[eveclo]

allie- Congrats on being PUPO!!! Hope the rest of the 2ww flies by for you!

eveclo- How's the wait going? Only 8 days left, huh? But sounds like you'll test in 5? Have you noticed anything promising? Fx for a sticky lil one!!

barbi- how are you doing? I've been checking in on your blog. Sorry to see you only got one this cycle Has your doc said anything to you about why you aren't getting more to freeze? My doc suspects I have an egg quality issue to explain my poor results Hope you have a good lil bean snugglin in there!!! Keep us updated!

pisces- any sign of O yet? Hope it comes soon!

AFM- Appointment the other day went as well as I expected. The doc suspects I have an egg quality issue given my fertilization rate (only 11 out of 22) and number of blasts (3 out of 11). She said that most of the eggs they got were immature and if we had waited 1-2 more days to retrieve I probably would've ovulated on my own :/ Another reason she thinks quality may be bad is due to the premature inc in my progesterone level when I was stimming. On paper everything looks fabulous and I definitely should've gotten pregnant by now, but I 'failed' the microscope test. Since there's no definitive way to test egg quality she said it's really hard to be certain without doing another cycle. It's possible that my IVF was just done in a 'bad month' which she says can happen. It's also possible that it was the protocol (antagonist) that caused problems. So if we did another round it would be with the long protocol - and that does NOT excite me. She wasn't super optimistic it would work but she also didn't say it would likely fail. In the end she said she really didn't know and she wished she could give me a better estimation of the odds. She did say if another round didn't work, we would need to discuss donor egg, donor embryo or adoption. So hubby and I have been having lots of long chats on what we want to do and we both change our minds a lot. We were also given a name of a reproductive immunologist in the area that we could work with for testing. At this point, we think we will at least proceed with immune testing. If it finds something it will give us a more positive look on another round. If it's all clear, it will make the decision a bit harder. I just worry about giving up on my eggs too soon.... Sorry for the novel.

Hope you are all well

HTW! So good to have an update from you. It sounds like your appointment has kind of left you up in the air & I suppose ultimately it is all on you and your husband now! Which isn't fun. I always like to be told, 'this is what has to be done'. I hope that you find your path.

You are so young, how are your eggs not great quality? Did she suggest possibly genetic testing on your next cycle? have you taken royal jelly before? Apparently that's meant to be the bees knees when it comes to upping egg quality?

As for me, I did a sneaky test this morning because I'm clearly crazy & stupid, but as I expected BFN. 5dp6dt. Sooo disappointed, had a little cry before (one of the first cries in this whole experience surprisingly), and DH just tried to reassure me that next cycle we will be transferring two blasts hopefully and maybe it's just a shi**y batch. I am also shocked, as are you HTW, that two healthy young people such as my husband and myself (and you and your DH) are unable to have babies! Especially since our infertility issue is my husbands low sperm count, and there was supposedly nothing 'wrong' with me... I am astounded that this hasn't worked after 3 transfers! I guess the only thing you can do is pick your head up and keep on keeping on. I won't test until Friday again, and if it is negative then I will probably stop progesterone so I can get AF and hopefully begin a freshie. Hopefully with better luck that the last

Oh I'm sure its just to soon hun...have you had any symptoms?

I picked up a few test today, but going to wait until wed to test. I've been feeling really full all the time. Also have been having some cramps and had a headache today.

I feel super full and have been having a few cramps, but obviously it's just the progesterone giving me grief!! I hope you get your BFP on Wednesday!

 

[pisces78]

Hi Girls, good to hear the updates!

HTW: So, frustrating never having any clear answers isn't it! At least you have options that you and DH can consider, to move forward with whatever option you decide on. Sending lots of your way!

Eveclo: Sorry, to hear about BFN, but maybe too early still? Will keep my fingers crossed for you that it is a late implanter!

Barbs: Congrats on early BFP, will keep my fingers crossed it's a sticky bean!

Allie: Keeping my fx and tx it's a sticky bean!

ATM: Had my + OPK today, confirmed by blood test which is great, so ET is on Saturday and DH will be able to attend this time, which is great.

We had my DH cousins wedding on Sat, and was really hoping to have a night away from focussing on babies and stressing about IVF and of course I have the pregnant woman and another woman with a 11 month old baby on our table at the reception. To make things worst my DH got really upset with all the wedding speeches with the father of the bride talking about expecting granchildren and the bride saying she can't wait to be the mother of her husbands children, with us thinking if only it was that easy!! It was really hard to see DH so upset as I have always been the basket case and he has been the strong one. I didn't realise how much this IVF thing is really affecting him. I hope we can get through this pathway together.

 

[eveclo]

Hi Girls, good to hear the updates!

HTW: So, frustrating never having any clear answers isn't it! At least you have options that you and DH can consider, to move forward with whatever option you decide on. Sending lots of your way!

Eveclo: Sorry, to hear about BFN, but maybe too early still? Will keep my fingers crossed for you that it is a late implanter!

Barbs: Congrats on early BFP, will keep my fingers crossed it's a sticky bean!

Allie: Keeping my fx and tx it's a sticky bean!

ATM: Had my + OPK today, confirmed by blood test which is great, so ET is on Saturday and DH will be able to attend this time, which is great.

We had my DH cousins wedding on Sat, and was really hoping to have a night away from focussing on babies and stressing about IVF and of course I have the pregnant woman and another woman with a 11 month old baby on our table at the reception. To make things worst my DH got really upset with all the wedding speeches with the father of the bride talking about expecting granchildren and the bride saying she can't wait to be the mother of her husbands children, with us thinking if only it was that easy!! It was really hard to see DH so upset as I have always been the basket case and he has been the strong one. I didn't realise how much this IVF thing is really affecting him. I hope we can get through this pathway together.

That's such a sad story it is so heartbreaking. My husbands sister, is getting married at the end of the year and has expressed that her and her fiancé will most likely want to start trying but have been a bit worried about how we would feel about it. It makes me sad that people worry about us that much but I don't want any ones life to be on hold for us. Ah well, we will get there eventually!



Barbi- Congratulations on your BFP! This makes me SO happy. I hope this embie is sticky!

 

[barbikins]

allie- Congrats on being PUPO!!! Hope the rest of the 2ww flies by for you!

eveclo- How's the wait going? Only 8 days left, huh? But sounds like you'll test in 5? Have you noticed anything promising? Fx for a sticky lil one!!

barbi- how are you doing? I've been checking in on your blog. Sorry to see you only got one this cycle Has your doc said anything to you about why you aren't getting more to freeze? My doc suspects I have an egg quality issue to explain my poor results Hope you have a good lil bean snugglin in there!!! Keep us updated!

pisces- any sign of O yet? Hope it comes soon!

AFM- Appointment the other day went as well as I expected. The doc suspects I have an egg quality issue given my fertilization rate (only 11 out of 22) and number of blasts (3 out of 11). She said that most of the eggs they got were immature and if we had waited 1-2 more days to retrieve I probably would've ovulated on my own :/ Another reason she thinks quality may be bad is due to the premature inc in my progesterone level when I was stimming. On paper everything looks fabulous and I definitely should've gotten pregnant by now, but I 'failed' the microscope test. Since there's no definitive way to test egg quality she said it's really hard to be certain without doing another cycle. It's possible that my IVF was just done in a 'bad month' which she says can happen. It's also possible that it was the protocol (antagonist) that caused problems. So if we did another round it would be with the long protocol - and that does NOT excite me. She wasn't super optimistic it would work but she also didn't say it would likely fail. In the end she said she really didn't know and she wished she could give me a better estimation of the odds. She did say if another round didn't work, we would need to discuss donor egg, donor embryo or adoption. So hubby and I have been having lots of long chats on what we want to do and we both change our minds a lot. We were also given a name of a reproductive immunologist in the area that we could work with for testing. At this point, we think we will at least proceed with immune testing. If it finds something it will give us a more positive look on another round. If it's all clear, it will make the decision a bit harder. I just worry about giving up on my eggs too soon.... Sorry for the novel.

Hope you are all well

HTW, that's a lot to swallow. I really hope you can get pregnant on your own but there are options, as long as you're comfortable with donor. How do you feel about a donor egg or embryo?
Did you ever do an ovarian reserve test?
I didn't fertilize a lot either and one made it to blast this time...well I suppose two or maybe three given I'm pregnant now. But, point is I wonder if I have a bit of an egg quality issue as well. My ovarian reserves were excellent however, you can't really know how good your eggs are until you see what they do fertilized.
I hope you guys figure it out soon, love. Keep us posted xo

 

[barbikins]

Hi Girls, good to hear the updates!

HTW: So, frustrating never having any clear answers isn't it! At least you have options that you and DH can consider, to move forward with whatever option you decide on. Sending lots of your way!

Eveclo: Sorry, to hear about BFN, but maybe too early still? Will keep my fingers crossed for you that it is a late implanter!

Barbs: Congrats on early BFP, will keep my fingers crossed it's a sticky bean!

Allie: Keeping my fx and tx it's a sticky bean!

ATM: Had my + OPK today, confirmed by blood test which is great, so ET is on Saturday and DH will be able to attend this time, which is great.

We had my DH cousins wedding on Sat, and was really hoping to have a night away from focussing on babies and stressing about IVF and of course I have the pregnant woman and another woman with a 11 month old baby on our table at the reception. To make things worst my DH got really upset with all the wedding speeches with the father of the bride talking about expecting granchildren and the bride saying she can't wait to be the mother of her husbands children, with us thinking if only it was that easy!! It was really hard to see DH so upset as I have always been the basket case and he has been the strong one. I didn't realise how much this IVF thing is really affecting him. I hope we can get through this pathway together.

I am also quite sensitive to all things related to procreation.
I find it hard to deal with that getting pregnant is supposed to be easy. I feel sorry for those who are so naiive & think it will just happen. And I am envious of those who it "just happens" for.
Even if I end up having this viable pregnancy & bring home baby, I'll never forget that pain. And I think I'll always carry it around. That I can't have a baby on my own. Or that it was a massive struggle with lots of heart ache.

 

[3chords]

Barb - super happy for you and looking forward to your beta. I know you are cautious as it is early still but I'm just over the moon for you. After one fresh and 2 FET cycles I'm sure you were thrilled to see the lines!

pisces - I totally get what you mean, I can sometimes be really sensitive about pregnant women, babies, etc and I totally agree with Barb that I will always carry this with me, even if I had like 6 kids in the end. It's not just the insensitivity of some people, but just basically how the world revolves around babies, particularly once you get into your 30s and everyone you know suddenly starts popping them out. Don't get me wrong, I love babies (obviously else I wouldn't be torturing myself!) but I find that so many people are ignorant about how difficult it is for some of us and that makes it a lot worse.

hatethewait - definitely a lot to think about. We've already gone down the route of those discussions (no issue with donor eggs, but DH has issues with surrogacy) which is nice to know in case it's needed. My neighbour had 4 IVFs before it took, and they ended up doing PGD on the last cycle. Turns out that out of the 9 embryos they had following that fresh cycle, only one was deemed to be "normal" according to PGD and they implanted that one and she recently gave birth to her daughter, right on time, all is well. She is also in her early 40s so that gives me hope.

 

[barbikins]

3chords, thank you Yes it's a relief. Especially given DH didn't want to do any more retrievals & we only had 1 5-day blast frozen & one 3-day.
And if this didn't work, we'd have to wait until most likely after summer to try again.
I just hope this is a sticky bean....

 

[eveclo]

3chords, thank you Yes it's a relief. Especially given DH didn't want to do any more retrievals & we only had 1 5-day blast frozen & one 3-day.
And if this didn't work, we'd have to wait until most likely after summer to try again.
I just hope this is a sticky bean....

So exciting when is your beta?

 

[barbikins]

eveclo, my Beta is now on Monday the 28th. Originally scheduled for the 29th. I asked to come in early & the best they could do is 1 day!

 

[Hatethewait85]

barbi- That's so great you got your BFP!!! I hope it's a sticky one (or two!!) It also gives me some little hope to try again and for that I'm grateful!

allie- did you test? fx for you!

eveclo- Sorry you got a BFN yesterday I hope it was just too early. You have such a good attitude about it all. I wish a little of that would rub off on me!

pisces- yay for o!! good luck with ET on Saturday. It will be here before you know it! Sorry you had to sit through all those speeches at the wedding. That had to be hard

afm- Still trying to figure out what comes next and continue to change my mind several times a day. I have a hard time grasping it's an egg quality issue given my age and AMH (barbi - it was a 4 on US scale - anything > 1 is great). I feel like it had to be either a) a fluke or b) protocol. I wish I could remember exactly what my doc said and how she said it. Part of me thinks I probably went fatalistic and worst case scenario and only focused on the negativity - I have bad eggs, not I may have bad eggs. The more I read on here the more I think my response wasn't THAT bad either. I've seen people have lots of embryos at first, get pregnant with a fresh transfer and have nothing left to freeze. BUT on the other hand, I also read about many people who try many times and fail many times. It's the possibility of failing that scares me soooo much! Initially I thought donor eggs was a reasonable option, but the more I read about donor-conceived children the more I wonder if it's super selfish of me to deny a kid their genetic family? We are working on getting an appointment with a reproductive immunologist in Chicago - Dr. Kwak-kim. But I have to fill out some forms and send her my records to see if I "qualify" to be a patient of hers??! I definitely wish I just had someone telling me this is what you need to do.

 

[Allie2009]

barbi- That's so great you got your BFP!!! I hope it's a sticky one (or two!!) It also gives me some little hope to try again and for that I'm grateful!

allie- did you test? fx for you!

eveclo- Sorry you got a BFN yesterday I hope it was just too early. You have such a good attitude about it all. I wish a little of that would rub off on me!

pisces- yay for o!! good luck with ET on Saturday. It will be here before you know it! Sorry you had to sit through all those speeches at the wedding. That had to be hard

afm- Still trying to figure out what comes next and continue to change my mind several times a day. I have a hard time grasping it's an egg quality issue given my age and AMH (barbi - it was a 4 on US scale - anything > 1 is great). I feel like it had to be either a) a fluke or b) protocol. I wish I could remember exactly what my doc said and how she said it. Part of me thinks I probably went fatalistic and worst case scenario and only focused on the negativity - I have bad eggs, not I may have bad eggs. The more I read on here the more I think my response wasn't THAT bad either. I've seen people have lots of embryos at first, get pregnant with a fresh transfer and have nothing left to freeze. BUT on the other hand, I also read about many people who try many times and fail many times. It's the possibility of failing that scares me soooo much! Initially I thought donor eggs was a reasonable option, but the more I read about donor-conceived children the more I wonder if it's super selfish of me to deny a kid their genetic family? We are working on getting an appointment with a reproductive immunologist in Chicago - Dr. Kwak-kim. But I have to fill out some forms and send her my records to see if I "qualify" to be a patient of hers??! I definitely wish I just had someone telling me this is what you need to do.

I did test this morning....it was neg hoping its just to early. I will test again in the morning before work. Maybe ill see something on it! Starting to not feel good about this cycle. Tomorrow ill be 6dp5dt. Here's hoping!!

 

[eveclo]

barbi- That's so great you got your BFP!!! I hope it's a sticky one (or two!!) It also gives me some little hope to try again and for that I'm grateful!

allie- did you test? fx for you!

eveclo- Sorry you got a BFN yesterday I hope it was just too early. You have such a good attitude about it all. I wish a little of that would rub off on me!

pisces- yay for o!! good luck with ET on Saturday. It will be here before you know it! Sorry you had to sit through all those speeches at the wedding. That had to be hard

afm- Still trying to figure out what comes next and continue to change my mind several times a day. I have a hard time grasping it's an egg quality issue given my age and AMH (barbi - it was a 4 on US scale - anything > 1 is great). I feel like it had to be either a) a fluke or b) protocol. I wish I could remember exactly what my doc said and how she said it. Part of me thinks I probably went fatalistic and worst case scenario and only focused on the negativity - I have bad eggs, not I may have bad eggs. The more I read on here the more I think my response wasn't THAT bad either. I've seen people have lots of embryos at first, get pregnant with a fresh transfer and have nothing left to freeze. BUT on the other hand, I also read about many people who try many times and fail many times. It's the possibility of failing that scares me soooo much! Initially I thought donor eggs was a reasonable option, but the more I read about donor-conceived children the more I wonder if it's super selfish of me to deny a kid their genetic family? We are working on getting an appointment with a reproductive immunologist in Chicago - Dr. Kwak-kim. But I have to fill out some forms and send her my records to see if I "qualify" to be a patient of hers??! I definitely wish I just had someone telling me this is what you need to do.

I did test this morning....it was neg hoping its just to early. I will test again in the morning before work. Maybe ill see something on it! Starting to not feel good about this cycle. Tomorrow ill be 6dp5dt. Here's hoping!!

Ohh not good, hopefully a second line comes up! I haven't tested since 5dp6dt. And I don't plan on it until Friday and if its negative I will stop progestone as that's the day before my periods due and I'd like to get it on time

 

[eveclo]

eveclo, my Beta is now on Monday the 28th. Originally scheduled for the 29th. I asked to come in early & the best they could do is 1 day!

How frustrating! At least a day is a bit better can't wait to hear. Are the lines getting darker??

barbi- That's so great you got your BFP!!! I hope it's a sticky one (or two!!) It also gives me some little hope to try again and for that I'm grateful!

allie- did you test? fx for you!

eveclo- Sorry you got a BFN yesterday I hope it was just too early. You have such a good attitude about it all. I wish a little of that would rub off on me!

pisces- yay for o!! good luck with ET on Saturday. It will be here before you know it! Sorry you had to sit through all those speeches at the wedding. That had to be hard

afm- Still trying to figure out what comes next and continue to change my mind several times a day. I have a hard time grasping it's an egg quality issue given my age and AMH (barbi - it was a 4 on US scale - anything > 1 is great). I feel like it had to be either a) a fluke or b) protocol. I wish I could remember exactly what my doc said and how she said it. Part of me thinks I probably went fatalistic and worst case scenario and only focused on the negativity - I have bad eggs, not I may have bad eggs. The more I read on here the more I think my response wasn't THAT bad either. I've seen people have lots of embryos at first, get pregnant with a fresh transfer and have nothing left to freeze. BUT on the other hand, I also read about many people who try many times and fail many times. It's the possibility of failing that scares me soooo much! Initially I thought donor eggs was a reasonable option, but the more I read about donor-conceived children the more I wonder if it's super selfish of me to deny a kid their genetic family? We are working on getting an appointment with a reproductive immunologist in Chicago - Dr. Kwak-kim. But I have to fill out some forms and send her my records to see if I "qualify" to be a patient of hers??! I definitely wish I just had someone telling me this is what you need to do.

Thanks lovely! Haha- ill try and send my positivity towards you as best I can! It is SO hard to keep picking yourself up again after everything falls apart, but even stories like Barbis makes me feel like this is all worth it! Maybe we just had a bad batch of embies. Who knows. I need to know I'm doing my best in getting what I want right now, which is a baby of mine and my husbands. I will fight for that for as long as I can emotionally and financially! I have decided if our next FET fails we will be just breaking for a while and maybe travel a little, and stop living our lives like this for a bit. It's important to concentrate on 'us' for a while too.

It's easy for me to say, I suppose. But I know that for me, I'll need that.

I hope we can both build enough strength to pull through. I am really interested in looking into NKC (natural killer cells) but I don't know whether my dr will be on board. We'll see. She says its normal for some batches of embryos to fail, so we'll see.

Man, that dr sounds very elite! I hope that you 'qualify' so you can get some answers! Haha.

Try & remember the reasons why we do this. We will be awesome mothers!!! xx

 

[Allie2009]

So I did a test at like 4am this morning and I thought is was NEG, so I go home at lunch time I had one last test... so I said WHT..lol Ill just take it and if its neg Ill just wiat until Monday for bloods to come back....I took the last test and it came up with a very faint 2nd line!! Im not testing anymore just doing to wait and see what the bloods come back as now!!!!!!!!!

 

[barbikins]

Hey Girls,

I think the best we can do is be persistent & not give up the fight until there's not a fight left in us. I was in your shoes. Money running out, my husband not wanting to go through this roller-coaster anymore, etc, etc, etc...
I don't believe that conception will happen for everyone but I believe in not giving up some thing that you can't stop thinking about, hoping for.

HTW, I have a few scenarios for you.
1) you haven't had a fresh transfer. Fresh Transfer rates are higher than Frozen.
2) you only had 2 FET. That's not enough IMO to say that you have an egg quality issue & need to think about alternatives.
3) you switch doctors.

I don't feel confident that your doctor is already thinking you have issues when there hasnt been a fresh transfer & you went through 2FET.
I had one failed fresh, two failed frozen. The second Fresh w/a modified protocol and Acupuncture made a difference. AND...out of 29 follicles, 15 retrieved, 5 survived, 2 implanted & 1/3 made it to day 5. So yes, My doctor this cycle said he still considers my IF a tubal issue & only if this cycle fails would he consider an embryo issue.
So really - I think you should see a new RE.

xo

 

[barbikins]

HTW, where do you live?

 

[barbikins]

So I did a test at like 4am this morning and I thought is was NEG, so I go home at lunch time I had one last test... so I said WHT..lol Ill just take it and if its neg Ill just wiat until Monday for bloods to come back....I took the last test and it came up with a very faint 2nd line!! Im not testing anymore just doing to wait and see what the bloods come back as now!!!!!!!!!

Allie, I have better results with second, third urine. My results this cycle have been stronger lines than FMU. So it makes sense.
Is your second line pink? PHOTO!!!!!