Feel like crying

[Puddleduck]

I am so upset the arrived this morning 1 day late, she let me get my hopes up after having brown cm on Mon/Tues and then nothing....... why me, why can't I be the lucky one for a change ??? We BD from day 10-16 this month every evening and I stayed in bed till morning. What else can we do ? I totally give up. After TTC for 26 months now I feel so down and hopeless.

So looks like I will be joining the Clomid club and taking my first tablet tomorrow. Got prescribed them mid cycle last month so I couldn't take them as it was too many days past. I am starting to feel so negative about the whole TTC thing. Will I ever be a mum ? I can't see what help Clomid will be as I ovulate and had the 21day bloods back to confirm.

Stuck in work and all I want to do is go home and curl up in a ball under my duvet for a few days until I feel happy again.

Sorry for the moaning, I will feel better in a few days I hope.

Any room in Clomid club for me ???

 

[Beckic]

I am so so so sorry hunni.


I really really really hope the clomid works for you - you never know - it might just be that extra bit of help that you need to get your BFP before xmas.

I know you feel down now - its a combination of absolute utter disappointment and your hormones running around. I know it feels hopeless now - but I promise in a few days time you will feel better and ready to be up and at it again. But for now - you treat yourself to something nice for lunch and some chocolate to help you through the day.

We are all here for you.

Bx x x x x

 

[FJL]

First of all, i'm sorry AF arrived and that you're feeling so crappy right now

We're all in the same boat which it sucks that we're stuck in this hell hole, but at least we can comfort and support each other during the dark times.

I think we can all resonate with that feeling of helplessness and that sheer desperation we feel, the excitment of possible achievment that month, followed by a blow of devestation when we're faced with yet another BFN.

Honestly, if you aren't happy to try clomid (since you already ovulate) then seek a 2nd opinion and keep going until you find a specialist that will listen to you. The next step is probably something like IUI, or if you haven't already had a lap, having one done to investigate things further.

We changed FS early in the year as the first guy wanted to put me on clomid, even though my DH has multiple, serious sperm probs. Clomid is the first thing most of them want to try, even in cases like yours and mine where we already ovulate. Although clomid is the right drug and can be very successful in some cases, I have found it to be the most used and abused drug of choice for infertility.

I hope you're feeling better soon, and please remember to take care of yourself, not making yourself do or say things that will only make you feel worse. Self preservation is the key here

 

[FJL]

Just wanted to say that I hope clomid DOES work for you, producing an extra egg or 2 might be the key, and giving the swimmers more than 1 choice! I know that Drs like clomid because generally speaking it is a safe and non-invasive method and even in cases of unexplained IF, it can give you the result you want. What I meant was that it can be frustrating when they want to use it for purposes its not necessarily intended for - used for women who don't O...like most drugs, it seems to have been stretched beyond what its originally intention was for.

 

[Bexy]

Hi Puddleduck!

I can completely sympathise with how you feel - when that damn witch arrives all them hormones coursing through your body + the realisation that another month has gone with no BFP is just so upsetting!

I agree with Beckic - after a couple of days once its all calmed down you can hopefully be stronger and start the month afresh!

I'm on my first cycle of Clomid but I felt it was positive step as it was something that could help rather than just going through every month hoping that we BD on the right day and are successful - hopefully in the next couple of days you'll feel the same..

Good luck with the Clomid - hopefully it will bring this ttc journey to an end - that's definitely what I dream about every night!

xx

 

[HAYS]

Hun I know how your feeling right now, because I've just had some major spotting,so im out this month too!!!! I was convinced god might have been nice and made this my month too, i had a dip and pink cm and really good temps!!

xxx

 

[mmoon1]

So so sorry chick. Its like a grief isnt it? Soul wrenching but you have nothing to lose by trying the Clomid and so much to gain chick.

I hope so much it works for you xx

 

[Millnsy]

HEy Puddleduck,

Sorry to hear its not your month, but don't lose heart. I went to 33 days this month having only been 25 days the month before so over a week of wondering. The day I bought a test AF arrived! We all know how you feel and we all have to find our own ways of staying positive. I try and keep focussed on some of the more psotive things associated with it being just the two of us at home. Like going out for a sneaky pint whenever you want, just deciding to go on holiday without having to arrange a baby sitter, getting drunk as a skunk until 2am and staying in the casino just because we can. We'll miss it when we do finally get our BFP!

Hope that helps any way and believe that your time will come - thats what I keep telling myself...

M x

 

[Yearning]

Oh sweetie...don't ever give up....we all know just how dis-heartening it is and how disappointed you feel. I feel for you...I'll probably be in the same boat as you in just under 2 weeks..I'm due to take Clomid on day 2 of my next cycle also. It sounds ridiculus but I tend to think the worst so I don't feel so bad each time the show's her evil face..I know that I shouldn't but it's a coping mechanisim that I have adopted after 7 long years of TTC. Thinking of you and sending you healing thoughts.



Alway's...Yearning.x

 

[JASMAK]

I am so upset the arrived this morning 1 day late, she let me get my hopes up after having brown cm on Mon/Tues and then nothing....... why me, why can't I be the lucky one for a change ??? We BD from day 10-16 this month every evening and I stayed in bed till morning. What else can we do ? I totally give up. After TTC for 26 months now I feel so down and hopeless.

So looks like I will be joining the Clomid club and taking my first tablet tomorrow. Got prescribed them mid cycle last month so I couldn't take them as it was too many days past. I am starting to feel so negative about the whole TTC thing. Will I ever be a mum ? I can't see what help Clomid will be as I ovulate and had the 21day bloods back to confirm.

Stuck in work and all I want to do is go home and curl up in a ball under my duvet for a few days until I feel happy again.

Sorry for the moaning, I will feel better in a few days I hope.

Any room in Clomid club for me ???

Awww...hon. I ovulate too, on my own, and wasn't getting pregnant at all on my own, but Clomid did get me pregnant. This is something new...so let's see what happens. I will be rooting for you.

 

[Sinead]