dontworry
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Okay, this is kind of a rant and should belong in my journal, but I wanted the Brides & Brides-to-Be's opinions on this. I know nobody can decide but myself, but I need something to think about.
So I'm 19 years old, and I'm dating my best friend and the love of my life, Terron. Planning weddings is really exciting to me, and I set the date for our wedding for next April. But right now, I'm thinking that's too soon. I mean, if we're meant to be together forever, I can wait a while longer, right? I don't want to plan my wedding right now. There are other things I want to save for, like a new laptop, and to fix my old one, and another car, and my license/ID. And I want to move around a bit. With Terron, of course. In fact, I want to have his children and not have to be married to do so. That's been one big issue - since I was little, I've never wanted to be married, but I've always wanted kids. And now that I have Terron, I want both, but I want kids more. I know regardless he'll be my best friend and my lover, so why do we have to wait? I'm even still willing to hold off on trying to conceive until next year... that's completely fine to me. I'm not nervous about being married or anything like that - just stressed thinking about money. I want to have the wedding I have always dreamed about. I refuse to settle for something that is mediocre or something, you know? I want a special day. And I think I can have that, even if I wait a while. I want to meet new people and make new friends, and explore. With Terron. Just... not married, yet. Does that make sense? What do you ladies think of this? Have you ever felt the same?
Anything at all will help me tremendously, anything!
So I'm 19 years old, and I'm dating my best friend and the love of my life, Terron. Planning weddings is really exciting to me, and I set the date for our wedding for next April. But right now, I'm thinking that's too soon. I mean, if we're meant to be together forever, I can wait a while longer, right? I don't want to plan my wedding right now. There are other things I want to save for, like a new laptop, and to fix my old one, and another car, and my license/ID. And I want to move around a bit. With Terron, of course. In fact, I want to have his children and not have to be married to do so. That's been one big issue - since I was little, I've never wanted to be married, but I've always wanted kids. And now that I have Terron, I want both, but I want kids more. I know regardless he'll be my best friend and my lover, so why do we have to wait? I'm even still willing to hold off on trying to conceive until next year... that's completely fine to me. I'm not nervous about being married or anything like that - just stressed thinking about money. I want to have the wedding I have always dreamed about. I refuse to settle for something that is mediocre or something, you know? I want a special day. And I think I can have that, even if I wait a while. I want to meet new people and make new friends, and explore. With Terron. Just... not married, yet. Does that make sense? What do you ladies think of this? Have you ever felt the same?
Anything at all will help me tremendously, anything!
