Hi Ladies, Some of you are already aware that back in November I nearly lost my SIL (and best friend) thankfully she pulled through and now on her way to recovery but because of the disabilities she has been left with, we have had to put a few things off. One of which is our holiday to Mauritius, which was meant be our baby making holiday. Also because of all the time we have spent at the hospital we are now well behind getting the house finished (plus we have changed our plans to enable her to come and live with us if need be, which means additional work). I feel so cross that my life is now on hold then I feel so selfish for feeling like this (she has lost everything) I really feel as if time is running out for me Im 35 this year, but DH is adamant that the house has to be finished. (I want a home birth and he says you cant do that in a building site). I know there is no answer to this post I just needed to get it off my chest. Thanks for reading.