sandilion
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I have just found out I am pregnant with #2 - and at first I have been absolutely on cloud 9, day dreaming about our growing baby and feeling so happy that we will be giving DS a sibling.
But then I got a call from my mother, and she started going on and on about the fact i must book in for a C section to prevent my baby dying. That isn't possible though as DS came at 32 weeks ... no booked c section would have helped with the fact i had an abruption at 32 weeks..
But anyways now my mind frame has completely changed from pure happiness, to now fear... and i keep remembering the trauma of DS's birth. The bleeding, the pain, the fear because no one was believing me until i suddenly dilated to 6cm within 30 mins and i had to scream for the doctor to come as something was seriously wrong...thankfully they came and wheeled me off to the birthing room just in time so DS would survive. It went on for 4 long painful excruciating terrifying days.
But now i just have so much fear that it will happen again, and next time i may not be so lucky either
No one seemed to be able to tell me what caused it with DS, as it seems all the possible reasons on google don't at all match up to me, that i am aware of.
Not sure what i want form this post. I guess i needed to vent that i am feeling very concerned already and now starting to wonder why on earth are we going through this again, as i don't think I have the strength to cope with losing a baby stillborn.
Apologies if this is the wrong forum as well! Mods feel free to move if it is.
But then I got a call from my mother, and she started going on and on about the fact i must book in for a C section to prevent my baby dying. That isn't possible though as DS came at 32 weeks ... no booked c section would have helped with the fact i had an abruption at 32 weeks..
But anyways now my mind frame has completely changed from pure happiness, to now fear... and i keep remembering the trauma of DS's birth. The bleeding, the pain, the fear because no one was believing me until i suddenly dilated to 6cm within 30 mins and i had to scream for the doctor to come as something was seriously wrong...thankfully they came and wheeled me off to the birthing room just in time so DS would survive. It went on for 4 long painful excruciating terrifying days.
But now i just have so much fear that it will happen again, and next time i may not be so lucky either
No one seemed to be able to tell me what caused it with DS, as it seems all the possible reasons on google don't at all match up to me, that i am aware of.
Not sure what i want form this post. I guess i needed to vent that i am feeling very concerned already and now starting to wonder why on earth are we going through this again, as i don't think I have the strength to cope with losing a baby stillborn.
Apologies if this is the wrong forum as well! Mods feel free to move if it is.