feeling very mixed up

[bryany1]

hi everyone,
We have our 1st appt tomorrow and i feel very mixed up by it all. Have waited so long to get started and now its here feel really scared.

Have been talking to a girl on another site who had icsi and she just got a bfn. It has really upset me as no matter wat you do you can't control wat happens when they are put back. It all seems like a cruel game of chance.

Think i'm going to go to pieces tomorrow when we get in there as feel so emotional now could just cry. They will think they have a looney in there clinic.

Could do with some positive mental attitude i think but its all gone
Sorry for such a depressing post but just had to get it out

thanks for reading

nik

 

[rachelle1975]

Hey Nik

Ah hun - big

It is hard and it is horrible BUT... i only have good IVF stories for you.

Faerie on this site got told she had to have IVF. She got her naturally before she started the IVF.

My friend at work, her brother was told no-go on the baby front. Wife had Endo amongst other things (so bad she is having a hysterectomy next month) and he had low count. They now have twin boys - naturally!

School friend of mine got told IVF only due to severe male factor... baby no.3 just came... all naturally!

My friend Ben has twin boys from ICSI IVF - second attempt.

My friend Ed has twin girls - ICSI IVF - second attempt BUT they did get first attempt.

A girl i know from another site that has a lot of help for IVF/Male Factor and ICSI also got BFP first time and another on the second try.

Don't get me wrong hun, if i stop and think about the whole sukiness (it is a real word) of the situation i have major wobbles. But, there are soooooooo many people i know or know of that have had big success either after being told they couldn't conceive without it, or after 1 or 2 cycles of IVF, that i can't help but have some hope.

Have some extra special babydust for your appointment and i promise you will feel 100% better after you talk to the specialist and know what is happening. In the meantime, keep on TTC and you never know your luck hun. I'm still trying for that and it keeps me smiley!

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[bryany1]

thanks rachelle, that is alot of good stories. I know it can work. Just need a kick to stop feeling sorry for myself i think.
This time tomorrow i should feel better and know wat will be happening.
thanks again.
Do you know when you are due your 1st appt?
Where are you having tx at?

nik

 

[rachelle1975]

Roehampto, Surrey on NHS but waiting on 1st appt so you will need to be the goddess on that front and keep me clued up!!! no pressure!! x

 

[DaisyDuke]

I know how u feel babe, my 1st appoitment is on Monday i'm scared now and emotional about the whole thing. Hope it goes well, let us know. XXX

 

[natthecat]

Lol Bryany - bless ya!

What you need is a pep talk.

Someone to tell you all th great things and hearing it from someone can be so motivational.

I do it for my friend all the time. she was ina similar situation but when she's down she comes to me for a little lift.

You just need someone to do the same for you hun! get someones phone number and get a 5 minute motivational/pep chat!

If you can't find anyone, I'll be happy to give you a kick, erm i mean to talk to you! lol

 

[bryany1]

thanks,
Rachelle and daisy, will fill you in when i get back tomorrow.
Where you having tx at daisy?

Thanks natty, you made me laugh.

take care everyone

nik

 

[natthecat]

good! lol!

all the best for tomorrow, dont forget to let us know how it all went!

 

[jk28]

Hi Nik

I just wanted to wish you good luck & to advise you to just take each stage as it comes, eg down-regs (if you're doing that), stimms, scans, etc...I'm hopefully starting my 3rd IVF in Nov & have had 1 pg from 1st IVF (although unfortunately ended in mmc) & 2nd IVF got a BFN....so it does work. Chin up & good luck.

Take care
Love Jayne x

 

[bryany1]

thanks for the replies, will post how i got on tomorrow

nik

 

[leeanne]

Good luck for tomorrow.

 

[loopylew]

good luck hun, its a long road which us ltttc'ers are on . . we are all her to support and understand how you feel

 

[waiting4u]

Good luck with your appointment. The highs and lows are very normal, hard to take at times, but normal. You are in the right place for support, trust me, I very often have to come here for help!!!!!

Hope it goes well, xxxx

 

[bryany1]

hi everyone, wat a difference a day makes.
The appt today went brilliant.
Have got appt for injection training soon and then we start next cycle, so in about 3wks time OMG!!!!!!!
hope everyone is ok today

nik

 

[Mrs Muggy]

Good luck with your appointment.
I'm 9 weeks preggers on my 2nd IVF cycle...it will happen for you xx

 

[Beckic]

So glad it went well hunni - and good luck - three weeks is so soon - thats brilliant. i always think its such a relief just to be doing something and to know things are moving along - its the waiting thats a killer.

Bx x x

 

[bryany1]

hi beckic,
think it is waiting around that does it.
Just have to keep occupied so it passes quicker
How are you doing, you having any treatment at the moment

nik x

 

[Beckic]

hi beckic,
think it is waiting around that does it.
Just have to keep occupied so it passes quicker
How are you doing, you having any treatment at the moment

nik x

I'm still in the early stages of getting the NHS to do something. I had a lap last cycle that came back fine so have follow up appt in a couple of weeks to go over next steps - which i hope is to put me on the waiting list for AC. there is a 5 - 6 month waiting time to get an appt at my fertility clinic so I really hope they dont fob us off at this appt and make us wait before putting us on the waiting list. the NHS just take so long to do anything - I know they are busy and over stretched but 6 months is nothing to them but 6 disappointments to me!
I agree with you that its best to keep occupied - at the moment I am just focusing on xmas - have already started planning my Christmas dinner menu and even did put my xmas cd's on my ipod to listen to on the way to work -DH laughed at me but as soon as I start seeing the christmas stuff on the shelves in the supermarket I start to get excited!!

Bx x

 

[bryany1]

Me too beckic,
I love xmas, can't wait to have a child so have someone the same mental age to share it with
We got refered in april this year and are finally starting tx in about 3wks.
I know wat you mean about disappointments each month. I used to cry buckets when came. We were told on our appt the other day that it never would have happened naturally for us and i just thought all that getting worked up each month for nothing.
Anyhow, PMA we will get there no matter how long it takes
Best of luck to you hun, and don't let them fob you off

take care

nik