africaqueen
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Hi ladies.
I am feeling very low today and im just writing this to vent really
I have made myself feel optimistic but today i just dnt.
I am so scared of seeing a BFN when i test as i have been so optimistic that i actually believed it would be possible this cycle... then i think, well if i did get my bfp, i could not bring myself to be happy/excited about it in fear something would go wrong like last time.
I am lying on the couch watching 16 and pregnant and wondering why, at the age of 29 i am still without children i do feel really sorry for myself.
Il be poas at 10dpo which is wed and also my 29th birthday and although i am hoping and praying for a BFP, i keep thinking if i get a BFN on my birthday it will be even worse for me to deal with. Knowing that im 29 and still nada
I feel such a mix of emotions today. I am still have little crampy/stretching feeling very low down but not sure if that means anything.
I have also been feeling sad that i got married in dec and me and dh still have not managed a honeymoon we were going to go in Jan somewhere, then we lost jellybean and i had my surgery and was quite ill and then he had to work a lot mre hours so we just never managed it i could do with a holiday for a break away from all this, but cnt whilst we are ttc as imagine had i been away when my ectopic happened! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
i want a child more than anything on this earth but my whole life is taken over with this and my every waking emotion is pregnancy, baby, pregnancy, baby and on and on.
Sorry ladies, just having a off day and needed to let it all out.
Thanks xxx
I am feeling very low today and im just writing this to vent really
I have made myself feel optimistic but today i just dnt.
I am so scared of seeing a BFN when i test as i have been so optimistic that i actually believed it would be possible this cycle... then i think, well if i did get my bfp, i could not bring myself to be happy/excited about it in fear something would go wrong like last time.
I am lying on the couch watching 16 and pregnant and wondering why, at the age of 29 i am still without children i do feel really sorry for myself.
Il be poas at 10dpo which is wed and also my 29th birthday and although i am hoping and praying for a BFP, i keep thinking if i get a BFN on my birthday it will be even worse for me to deal with. Knowing that im 29 and still nada
I feel such a mix of emotions today. I am still have little crampy/stretching feeling very low down but not sure if that means anything.
I have also been feeling sad that i got married in dec and me and dh still have not managed a honeymoon we were going to go in Jan somewhere, then we lost jellybean and i had my surgery and was quite ill and then he had to work a lot mre hours so we just never managed it i could do with a holiday for a break away from all this, but cnt whilst we are ttc as imagine had i been away when my ectopic happened! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
i want a child more than anything on this earth but my whole life is taken over with this and my every waking emotion is pregnancy, baby, pregnancy, baby and on and on.
Sorry ladies, just having a off day and needed to let it all out.
Thanks xxx