first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

So I got clearblue digitals instead of FRERs because I have always liked them better. Just took one and the test says not pregnant but I took it apart and this is the strip...

 

[gina236]

Read online they always have 2 lines... but hopefully in a few days it will show. -_-

 

[RexMom2Be]

Aw Gina, I'm on pins and needles to see what happens in the next week for you!

Mini, how are you?

Afm: still big, blue veiny boobs. They feel a bit more sensitive. Lots of creamy CM and a high and soft CP but still got a BFN this morning. No other symptoms really, been tired and irritable but I'm also in the desert where it's 110 degrees!

FX for everyone!

 

[mininun1]

Aww Gina boo! Keep testing, you aren't out of the running. I really hope it's not an annoying weird cycle like I had last month.

RexMom, I'm still crampy and super sore boobs! The cramps feel like they usually do before AF arrives so pretty sure I'm out this month but fingers still crossed. I won't test until AF is late. When will you test again?

 

[gina236]

Definitely feeling out. My boobs have started hurting. I feel like I'm just waiting for AF at this point. Frer this morning had a extreme squinter line. I feel like at this point I'm 4 days late, it should be a blazing positive. Most likely having a chemical again

 

[gina236]

Just started spotting

 

[RexMom2Be]

Gina, I just started spotting this morning too. Feeling out. This usually happens a few days before AF, and she just may decide to come early this month, I guess.

I had a feeling, the only symptom keeping me hopeful were the boobs.

I'll keep temping now that I'm learning my cycle, and I'll most likely go ahead and order some OPKs.

FX for all you ladies!

 

[gina236]

I'm definitely out. Enough to need a tampon with crazy cramps. As if the emotional pain isnt bad enough. Ugh. RexMom, I hope it's just spotting for you! Could always be implantation bleeding?

 

[magicalmom2be]

I'm definitely out. Enough to need a tampon with crazy cramps. As if the emotional pain isnt bad enough. Ugh. RexMom, I hope it's just spotting for you! Could always be implantation bleeding?

for you Gina and RexMom! AF always makes me sad, but next cycle can change everything!

 

[FertileFlower]

Gina, so sorry! a/f came for me too, right on the day she was supposed to. I was having lunch with a friend who is expecting her 6th child. She said that I wasn't out until a/f started, shortly afterwards I went to the bathroom, and there she was.
DH is out of town next month when I ovulate so now we have to wait until Oct. *sigh* *cry*

RexMom, was it implantation or period spotting? Keeping my fingers crossed for you still.

 

[gina236]

Sorry FertileFlower! I am waiting until October too so we will be in it together.

 

[magicalmom2be]

So, my status is changing to WTT, because DP (who isn't so dear to me right now), wants to go BACK to using the rhythm method, because with all this work I've been doing to heal my reproductive system, he believes I'll get pregnant, and he isn't quite ready yet.

I'm pissed, because all this time, he hasn't pulled out only because he knew I wouldn't conceive, due to the issues I had been having for years.

Since he wants to pull out, we'll see how he feels when I start pulling out condoms each BD. Vindictive, I know, but you wanna prevent? Let me show you how to REALLY prevent!

Ok...I'm done venting now...

 

[gina236]

Wow so sorry magicalmom2be! What is his reason for not wanting to actually have kids yet? Guys can take a while to actually "want" kids. I've been bugging my DH for about a year. He FINALLY said yes and means it. He was so excited that we thought we conceived. The devious part of me says don't use condoms and don't tell him when your fertile and oops got pregnant haha.

 

[mininun1]

Aw Gina and RexMom I'm sorry I really thought this was it for you ladies. I'll be joining you any day with AF I'm sure, I'm cramping a bit more now and back pain. On to the next cycle ladies.

 

[gina236]

I had a hard time keeping it together today. Of course it had to start an hour into work so I had to act like nothing was up. But by the time I got home I have made piece with it. I'm sure I'll break down at some point but it just wasn't meant to be.I looked back at my frer from this morning and there is a definite line on it. Even has some color. So that tells me it was most likely chemical.. so at least I can take some comfort in knowing that I wasn't going crazy. Just makes me worry that my body doesn't produce enough hcg or something causing me to constantly lose pregnancies... there have been so many times in the last 5 years that I should have been pregnant according to timing of bd'ing but wasnt. But I wasn't trying so I didn't pay close enough attention to notice a chemical..

 

[mininun1]

Hugs, Gina. I know exactly how you feel when AF is late and you are convinced it's the lucky month. It does sound like it was chemical, but on the positive side, at least you know for sure you can get pregnant. Take the next month just to recoup and focus on something other than ttc (your tough Mudder event!)

I'm just ready to start and get it over with. I can't decide if I want to focus on ttc next month or just do what I did this month, focus on my new job, and make sure to bd around the appropriate time. September will mark the sixth month of being off the pill and fourth month of trying. I know it's not all that long, but it's so much longer than what I thought it would take to get pregnant. I'm feeling extra frustrated tonight! And part of it is because I was so excited for you to have your bfp. Fx to all of us!

 

[RexMom2Be]

Aw gina, I know it's coming for you.

Magical, that's so annoying! Could you talk about the reasons that you do want kids with him? When it's a team effort, guys get more into it, I feel.

My spotting stopped, but I do have some slight cramping, so I think it is AF on her way. Took another Wondfo and got a BFN this afternoon. I have a FRER at home, but want to wait until AF is late before using it.

BUMMER all around! mini: I think our cycles are similar. September, here we come, I guess!

 

[mininun1]

Oh and MagicalMom, that sucks! I really hope he comes around and gets on the same page with you as far as ttc.

 

[gina236]

FX it is only implantation RexMom! We need another bfp!

Mini I know what you mean, I figured I would conceive in the first month. Maybe take 2. I never understood how it could possibly take 6-12 months but it's starting to look like it will. I'm sure next month I'll still be worrying about it. The past 5 years NTNP I always have had pregnancy tests on hand because I'm always paranoid that I will accidentally get pregnant. I guess I didnt have to worry about it too much. Your month will come! I know it!

 

[magicalmom2be]

Gina236... I love that idea, except he knows my cycle as well as me, and even knows how to do ovulation math. However, his math is always based on a 28 day cycle, and lately, mine has been 31 days...so there may be some wiggle room in there.

mininun1 & RexMom2Be... I don't wanna talk about it anymore with him. I'm going to leave it alone and let nature do it's course. When a baby's meant to come through, it comes through and nothing can stop it.

I'm disappointed right now, but I already know that it won't be long before he STOPS pulling out. When BD is good, a man can't resist, so I'm banking on that.

I was just looking forward to the TTC journey with him and his support. But many times, things don't work how we want them to.