Well when I went to do another test this morning I checked CP and CM like usual and there was brown/dark red CM but like the consistency of EWCM, very thick and gloopy (sorry for tmi).
Had blood taken this morning and results should be back tomorrow so thankfully it won't be a long wait.
I thought I would be relieved and even a little pleased when AF arrived. But honestly, I feel like shit. It's just bringing it all back and well and truly making the truth set in. This HAS happened. This IS real. I won't ever have my baby back. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.