First time IVF - Started Lupron last Thurs - Would Love some Buddies

[terripeachy]

The present you made sounds really nice. I'm sure he's going to love it! My husband eats Top Ramen. Blech. hee hee. I don't mind a bite or two, but I have to avoid it for the most part because of the high sodium level. I may not do a ton for my high blood pressure, but there are a few things that I definitely stay away from (tv dinners and Top Ramen). I've even tried to cut back on frozen pizza, but I love it so much, it's hard. hee hee.

Definitely drink lots of water. It makes everything better. I think that's why my shots haven't been so bad, honestly. I have a huge water bottle at work that I refill about twice a day, and then I drink water at home. Every now and again I'll get a little bit of juice, but I try to stick to water. It's good for your skin!

Hope your workday is a success. AFM, I kind of have a permanent headache on the back of my head, on the right side. I think it's hormone related. My head feels heavy, and I don't want to take any medicine. It'll better be gone in a few days. Holding my head up is exhausting at times.

 

[beaglemom]

I am in love with ramen. I bought some of the low sodium, but it does not come in all the flavors & didn't taste as good. I guess I will have to give that up along with mt dew & hot dogs.

I am so sorry for the headache. My meds do that to me sometimes. You are not supposed to take ibprofen which is like the best OTC drug in the world in my opinion! So now I take extra strength tylenol. Doesn't do much but helps a little.

Ugh...so here is Monday again. I tested this morning to an almost invisible 2nd line. So I am officially saying the trigger is out of my system. So now we wait to test. Ugh to the TWW. Well back to work I go.

 

[terripeachy]

Yes, I heard back from the nurse, and she said not to take Advil. I took one the first day because I didn't realize it was a hormone headache. I just thought it was a regular headache. She also said to take Tylenol, but that doesn't work for me and tastes terrible, so I'll just power through the pain.

Now the trigger is out, so let's see that line get darker! fxfx. Have a great day, Sunshine.

 

[ERosePW]

Terri, sorry for your headache. I agree w/ you both, Tylenol doesn't do jack. I've always loved BC Powder for a headache (the new cherry flavored), and Aleve for my lower back. Can't take either, and Tylenol SUCKS. Yea, I agree, I'm sure they didnt mention the natural FET because they prefer to control the whole cycle. From what I read online though, the girls doing it didn't seem to have to have a lot of appts to determine O. They had them do LH kits, and then come in a few days after a positive for the transfer (I guess they probably did one last u/s right before to confirm the O). But maybe my clinic just prefers to do whatever has the best chances possible. I'll trust them. Ok, so I was THRILLED to read that a few of your follies showed back up! I just knew they would! They'll get you where you need to be. You may not even needs the xtra meds, but if you do, no worries!

beagle, cool gift. That's pretty neat. Glad you tested the trigger out. That means any testing from this point forward is the real thing.

AFM, still no O. I'm a tad upset, because DH and I put in a good BDing effort before he left, and could've picked it up again last night when he got home. But OPK didn't turn pos again, and for some reason, I dont think it's going to. Clearly everything my body went through during the IVF did something to make this cycle different. I was hoping I'd just O a little late, but might be one of those that skips a whole cycle before getting normal. Not that it matters. I know you're wondering why I would even care since I've got the FET next month. But it stresses me when my body doesn't act normal. I don't mind a late one (I O'd late after my m/c), but an anovulatory month scares me for some reason. It would be my first ever (that I know of). And also, if the Lupron is supposed to be started 7 days after O, I'm wondering if this is now going to put the entire FET cycle completely behind. I can't help but have these thoughts run through my head, and it's annoying.

 

[beaglemom]

Erin - I totally get it. We just want our bodies to work! I guess the best thing to do is call your office to find out if no O means another month wait. I really hope not. Maybe they would do blood work to determine if you did O. Not sure how all that FET stuff works...& no offense, I hope I don't have to learn! I don't know if you saw, but my TTC #1 thread got another positive on her 2nd month of clomid. I am so happy these women are finding their solution. It is just frustrating for me when I go through so much & still get nothing. But you know my thread is full of long time TTC folks...not newbies. So I am always thrilled to see a positive...just a little anxious for my own situation.

 

[terripeachy]

ERose-I'm still thinking that you will O late, and I can understand how frustrating it is. When you're ready to move forward, you just want to move forward already! I would call the office and see what they say. Maybe after a few more days they can get bloodwork done and let you start taking your Lupron.

I don't understand how Tylenol can still be on the market. I guess it makes people FEEL better mentally because they're taking something (a placebo effect), but over all my years, I have never had a Tylenol work for me. I have to go by the fertility center to pick up one vial of Menopur today because I'm one short. Tomorrow the pharmacy will deliver another 15 vials. It's overkill, I'm sure, but it's best to be prepared. I don't want any more of these bad boys disappearing AND I'm getting impatient too. All the worry over ER, and I just want to get it done and overwith. I've already finished my book and one of my movies, so it looks like I'll be making another library visit this evening. hee hee.

 

[ERosePW]

Yes, their plan all along was do the the P test on day21 of this cycle to make sure I did O. And as long as I had, then they would've had me start the Lupron the next day. I did call first thing this morning and left a message w/ my nurses and told them that from charting I could see I had not O'd yet, and asked them to call back to let me know what happens if I come in on thurs, they do the blood work, and find out no O occurred (which is what they'll see, I'm sure....unless it turns out that charting doesn't work after all, and I HIGHLY doubt that's the case). I know women can get pos OPKs and not O, but I've never heard of anyone O'ing without the temp rise following right behind. It has me anxious and irritable. Take away the fact that I at least wanted to try naturally one cycle to see what miracle might happen...that's fine. No biggie. But sitting here not knowing how long my body will be out of whack, AND not knowing if this is gonna push back my FET, I'm just not feeling happy today. I feel very emotional and unmotivated to work while I wait for the nurses to call me back to at least give me an idea. I feel like I need a valium. I need to get back on my Zen train. This isn't working for me.

It doesn't help that DH and I had a tense night last night. When he got home, he was so sweet and happy to see me and went on and on about how happy he was to be home. We had a nice dinner and chatted about his trip. Well, I decided to bring something up to him, and all of a sudden, the rest of the night went differently... See, my birthday was July 20th, and its the day BEFORE my husband's, so its impossible for his parents to forget after all these years, right? Well, just so you know, MIL is not the warm and fuzzy type of woman, and she didn't even bother to even so much as send me a text to say how sorry she was that the IVF didn't work the 1st time around. She said NOTHING to me. Not everyone knows what to say in those situations, so I let that go, because I've accepted her as she is, and I know she'll never be like my own loving mother (who lives 3 states away). But to top it off, his mother THEN didnt' even wish me a happy bday! I mean, c'mon people.... new technology allows you to wish someone a happy bday over text message or even just on FB!! She completely skipped over mine, but then wrote on my husband's twice, with huge HAPPY BIRTHDAYS in all caps and then posting some pics of him w/ his siblings. And no, I know she didn't forget, as she is on FB ALL the time, so she would've seen everyone else writing happy birthday on my FB page. I dont need cards, I dont need gifts, i dont even need you to call me if you really dont feel like it, but technology makes it WAY too easy to just blow it off! I decided to talk to DH about these things and let him know that I'm having a hard time finding a way to bond with her and all that. Anyway, he was very surprised at first, and he was very supportive.... but I guess I harped on it too much, and eventually there was tension between he and I, and we didn't speak the rest of the evening. I HATE being at work after we've had a bad night.

 

[beaglemom]

Erin, that really sucks...I wish you could get in a more positive mode, but I def understand what is making you feel in this slump. Fighting is just horrible & we don't do it often...but when we do, we make up quickly because I just can't keep it going. I am sorry your MIL is like that. I have a family situation similar. My father didn't even acknowlege by last b-day. And you can forget any of my husband's father besides his mom remembering his. I have come to realize in this life the only one I can truly count on is my mom & my husband. My husband is the same...meaning he can always count on me...& MY mom! His mom is great, but if trouble were to come to us, she wouldn't be there to help. He loves her of course, but he doesn't have anyone in his family he can go to when things are tough...no one to lean on emotionally.

I hope you feel better soon...maybe a nice lunch will help. If nothing else, the work day will hopefully be over soon & you can get home to your husband & smooth everything over.

 

[beaglemom]

So my husband told me he was cleaning out the attic today. To be honest, I really was thinking why…the attic is not bad…nothing compared to our garage before we organized it. So I was just thinking he would throw out some Christmas lights & rearrange the boxes up there. Well he found a huge surprise up there. In case some of you don’t know…my husband & I tried for a few years after we were married. Nothing happened, so we stopped “trying”. Then after 6 more years (10 years total off bcp) we aggressively started back & now here we are almost a year later hopefully towards the end of this journey. Anyways, when we first started, I was sure it would happen fast, so I bought clothes I saw or books or whatever. After the years went by, these things got boxed away. Well a few years ago a friend who knew my situation got pregnant. I brought out the box & asked her if she wanted anything. After she looked through it, I donated everything else. We were living the couple’s life…life without kids…we were happy & content in the idea it just wasn’t meant to be. So I had no issues tossing these things. Well to my shock & surprise, my husband found the box!!! I had thought for 4-5 years now these things were gone. I wasn’t even upset by it…just was like whatever, I can buy new things. But there are a couple of things in there I am happy to know are not gone. Like a baby book I bought that had meaning for me, an empty journal I planned to fill when I was pregnant, a cute Yankee onesie, some Snoopy things (I am a huge Charlie Brown nut), & basically just things I could not have replaced.

This is such a shock to me…I wish so badly I was at home & could look through it. My husband took a picture of it. Maybe this is the sign that this is my month???

Anyways…thought you guys would like that story.

 

[terripeachy]

ERose-Where have I been all afternoon?? I'm so sorry you guys had a rough night last night and DH's mom didn't wish you happy birthday. I didn't even know it was your birthday either! I'm going to write it down right now! Some moms just aren't as lovable as others, and it's really just not in their nature to think of others besides their own kids, even though now that you two are married, you're supposed to be her kid as well, but you know how it goes...I hope now that it's evening, you guys are cuddled up watching a movie. Guys don't know what to say when we're upset; let alone when we are upset with our MILs. These moms baby their boys to no end. Mine even calls his mom when I'm not around and gets upset with her. But let me get upset with her about something, and it's the end of the world!! He is an only child though and it's been him and his mom against the world so I guess I understand a little, but it doesn't make us feel any better.

beaglemom-That story is so nice about the clothes/items in the attic. Maybe it is a sign! That's great that you found that stuff, and I hope you can use it very soon!

I'm in a little bit of a funk today too. I'm just getting super tired of doing all these shots. I hope tomorrow they give me good news and I can stop...it's wearing on me. I did schedule a long day at work on Thursday, so I hope my retrieval is Friday now. I can take Monday off if that's the case. That also means trigger on Wednesday, and I'm ok with that. Two more nights of shots. *sigh*

I'm going to watch my movie, Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs and just chill out for the rest of the evening-I think.

 

[beaglemom]

Terri - I love that movie! Usually me & my husband are on the same side when it comes to our crazy family.

I got home & made myself do some things before taking my usual hole on the couch. Now my lower back is killing me. I am not sure what it is...no heavy lifting. I am also feeling bloated again. But it may be because I actually made an effort this morning & made me a fruit plate for work & a sandwich...so it was way too much food & now I feel stuffed...and dinner is on the way!!! Ahh! At least almost everything going in my body today was good for me.

 

[beaglemom]

So I have only been at work for 30 minutes & I am already ready to quit. I had a mini meltdown yesterday & today I come in to emails that are pissing me off...more so than they really should. I think I am majorly stressed & the progesterone is causing me to be hormonal. Anyways...I am just ready for my vacation at the end of the month.

All this has really made me start to think...I will have to talk to my husband, but I am considering postponing IVF until January. I only have enough vacation days left this year for a cycle of IVF...then no more vacation. So I am considering using my vacation in December like I usually do. Then I can have a few months of not stressing about TTC & also not completely wearing myself out for the rest of the year with no more vacation to take. It's not like IVF is really a vacation. I don't know. I just need to talk to him about it.

 

[terripeachy]

beaglemom-Yeah, talk to your hubs and see what he says. IVF is really a trying time, so you may want to take more days than necessary especially if you're the type to get really stressed out. There is just so much going on. Speaking of hormonal, I couldn't even finish the movie last night. Hubs usually gets home at 8, and so I plan to do stuff on my own until then. Well, he went in to work early yesterday and surprisingly, he was home early. He came home when I was about halfway through the movie. Then he started talking to me and it was just irritating. I stopped the movie, and then went upstairs to just read by myself. Then he helped me with my shot and we ordered pizza. My ex boyfriend's sister passed away too, after being in a coma for six months, so that was pretty upsetting as well. It was just a long day yesterday.

Today's update is I went back to the doctors today and I have follies ranging from 16-17mm and a few smaller ones. I have to go back tomorrow because I need to have at least three at 18mm. I should have that by tomorrow, so I will take my shot on Wednesday evening which will push the eggs out of the follicles, and they will retrieve them on Friday (I'm guessing). Then they fertilize them and put two back in after five days. I hope I get a lot of eggs. I'm hoping for a minimum of 8. That will give me a good chance to freeze a few for next time if it doesn't work the first time, or I want more kids in the future. I'm getting SO close I can hardly stand it!

Don't quit your job! It'll be ok...and deal with the emails one at a time and check them off the list. I'm back to the grind knowing I'll be out Friday and maybe Monday (yeah!).

 

[booger76]

Hi ladies.

Sorry I've been away - it was a very busy weekend and then work is kind of busy for me right now too. I'll explain later.

It seems like everyone is having a bit of rough patch right now - TTC on it's own is a very emotional process. Add in hormones and other outside factors we can't really control (family, work, etc.) an it's a recipe for a stressful situation.

Terri - Woohoo for egg retrieval on Friday! I hope your follies continue to make their stong comeback and that you get lots of good ones. I'm sorry to hear about your ex's sister. That is sad. My husband does the same things sometimes - I'll be trying to read a book and he'll keep talking to me and asking me questions. Seriously? Normally he is pretty quiet or is busy doing something in the garage but it seems like as soon as I sit down to read he turns into Chatty Cathy.

Beagle - Work e-mails are the worst. Sometimes I just wish I could reply back with what I'm really thinking! Somehow I don't think that would work out too well. Did you get to go through the box of kiddo stuff your husband found when you got home? That's pretty cool that it turned up after you thought you had gotten rid of it. I also think that if this last IUI doesn't work that taking a break might be a good idea. I think it would be more stressful if you ending up needing more days and don't have them to take. Even though it seems like a long time until January, it really isn't. Maybe it will go by pretty quick if you are doing natural cycles and not stressed about TTC. At least that is how the cycles seem to go when we aren't actually trying - they fly by! .

ERose - I hope you are having a better day today. Fights with the DH are never fun. I agree with Terri that there is something to Mama's and their boys. While my mother-in-law is very kind to me, while she was here visiting last summer, my DH and I both came down with a stomach bug. She treated me like I was faking but was bringing DH ice chips and ginger ale like he was on his death bed. Lord help us if we have boys!!! It also sucks when our bodies aren't doing the things we want them too. Did you ever hear back from the nurse?

As for me, I'm halfway through the TWW. Thankfully, it seem to be going by fast. My RE appointment is on Friday and I'm getting excited for that. Here is what I have been so busy with:

 

[terripeachy]

My best friend just tried canning last weekend! Your pics look great, but I don't know what that red stuff is in the bowl with the lemons surrounding them? Is it jam? How fun! Your chart is looking great, too.

I'm wearing my Os gear today after a big win last night. Of course, I didn't watch the game because I wasn't feeling good, and the Os played well. Maybe I should stop watching so regularly. hee hee.

 

[beaglemom]

Terri - I don't mean quit like quit my job...I just mean quit for the day & just in general being DONE with it all!

More stress piled on me & annoyances from that jerk at work I hate. Bleh!

Lunch time soon

 

[terripeachy]

I totally lied. The nurse called and said I'm to stay on my remaining medicine and go back to the office on Thursday. So, if I trigger Thursday, I'll have a Saturday retrieval. I just told my boss that I'd be out on Friday. Grrr...hee hee. PLUS, on Sunday, I ordered more menopur thinking that I only had one more day to be on it. The prescription was written for 5 vials, and I take 3 vials at a time, so obviously, not enough for two days. Well, I paid a copay of $45 for 5 vials, when before I paid a copay of $45 for 20 or 25 vials! Now I need to order more and I'm going to have to pay ANOTHER copay. I called the nurse and told her that I want to get MORE medicine than I need if I have to keep paying copays for it. Hopefully she'll call me tomorrow morning or later tonight, although I think they may be closed, and tell me how much to order. Wasting money really makes me angry. I feel so broke already and then stupid stuff like that makes it even worse!

So I guess I'll hunker down at work for the rest of the week (blech) and then take a couple days off next week if need be and then a couple days the following week for transfer. Now my schedule is completely thrown off, and I don't like that at all. I like plans and schedules. *sigh*

 

[moni77]

I'm back!!!

Wow - so much has happened while I was away. I had thought I could keep up on the road but didn't...

Welcome Booger and JCM.

Beagle - Yay for great numbers - FXed this is it and you don't need to make a decision about waiting until January.

Erin - Happy belated bday! Hopefully the P test will be positive and you can get started.

Terri - almost there!!! When did you start the injections again?

AFM - I had my scan this AM - I start the microlupron tonight (5units twice a day) and add in the Gonal F (300 mg in AM) and the Menopur (2 powders in PM). I go back for a scan on Friday to see how we are doing. I am hoping for a retrieval next Friday - with my luck it will be Sat - the one day that will be difficult to do) oh well - we'll see how things are at on Friday.

So I am to avoid high impact aerobic activity while on the meds - so no jogging for me for 2 weeks - AND I gained another 5 pounds while on vacation - the weight gain plus the anticipated bloat from the meds - not sure what I will be wearing by the end of next week...

Lots to catch up on at work this week - so will be off and on...but I will definitely catch up this weekend!

 

[terripeachy]

Welcome back Moni!! I hope your trip was great. Things sound really good for you!

I started taking injections on July 27, my moms birthday! So it will be almost two weeks of stimming and it does get tiring after a while but hopefully well worth it. I didn't mind taking the Gonal F at all. The Menopur had some resistance when you push the plunger in, and if you go too fast it will sting, so just take it easy. Oh, and I didn't have any bloating with the meds so you should be ok. I think the problem is after retrieval.

 

[beaglemom]

Moni, join the skirt/dress club!!! I look at it as getting used to it before the pregnant belly. But I love skirts in the summer anyways...I wear longer ones to work.

So real crappy day today...crappy week really. I don't know if it is just hormones or what. I think it is just stress piling up. My banker can be so oblivious. I try to do everything so we are ahead & he takes it as an opportunity to put things on the back burner instead of dealing with it. So today I basically snapped at him. He apologized for causing stress...he doesn't like causing me stress since I am trying o do the mommy thing (or however stupid way he worded it). So I walked out the door to go home & just said see you tomorrow if I don't drink myself to death tonight. Don't worry ladies...I will not be drinking...and I am pretty blunt with him all the time, so I won't be getting fired. He has seen me this way before.

Moni & Terri - exciting your IVF are moving along!!!

Erin - hope your week is turning out better...I hope it is not as stressful as mine.

The good news is I completely unloaded on my husband & feel better. Now he is in total de-stress mode. So anything I want, he is on it! The crazy thing is as soon as I came home & saw him, my whole day disappeared. I only unloaded on him so he would know I needed extra comfort. I love coming home & leaving all that crap behind.