Hi everyone. First off, let me just express how happy I am that I found this awesome forum. I really thought I'd have to go through this all alone again, but it looks like I really don't. My husband and I had our first miscarriage just last week. It was and still is a bit of a shock, but we're both taking everything day by day. We have always talked about starting a family, but the talks got pretty serious once he left for deployment about a year ago. We tried when he came home on R&R back in April, but two weeks wasnt long enough for anyting to stick. We tried again once he officialy returned in July, and in September on vacation in CA visiting family and friends, something finally stuck! The first week of October when we finally got back home, I took a test and it came out positive. We were ecstatic! Last week though, everything came to a sudden halt. It started with light bleeding on Wednesday morning, which I thought was just from having sex that previous night. The bleeding got a bit heavier as the day went on, but still, I thought (really hoped) it was nothing. By Thursday evening nothing had slowed down or stopped, so we went to ER that night. We went in, I explained my situation, and they did the normal check-up routine, took a urine sample, told me to go home and said they'd call me at some point the next day (.. really? ) By Friday afternoon, no one had called me, so I called the OB/GYN Advice nurse and someone finally made an appointment for me to be seen that day. Of course, by that time, I already knew what had happened. I had bled a whole lot, had bad cramping and had passed a good bit of clots ... This definitely wasnt normal. A tiny part still had a glimmer of hope though. Maybe the baby was alright? Maybe, by some slim chance, everything was fine. My appointment confirmed my worst fears, though. I had had a miscarriage, and there was nothing that they or we could do. My husband and I were both devastated. How could something like this just happen out of nowhere? This couldn't be possible. We had both done everything right and everything by the book. But it sadly was .. We're still both processing all of this, but amazingly enough, each day does get a tiny bit better. Each day is just one step closer to us being able to try this all over again. So, that's my story. Thank you for sticking through it, and I apologize for it being so long. I've talked to friends and family about all of this, but no one I know has ever gone through anything like this .. And I feel like they don't really understand. Thanks for reading.