That's really encouraging Braij, thanks. Two of my little holes, it's hard to call them incisions because all but 1 is so small. Two of them look yucky, so I went to see my dr. He gave me some ointment, they're not really bad, but I could just tell it needed a little help. He asked me if I was okay, I said yes I'm fine and I can tell I'm doing better. He said, NO, are you okay? I started bawling. He asked me if I have ever been on anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds and of course I haven't. He said I'll probably be fine then but it's going to take a while. I told him if I get pg again he can sedate me, then everyone started laughing. I'm glad he cared enough to ask about that part, and I know I'll get through it but geez it's over whelming. I cancelled my appt for next week since I went today, he said I could come if I wanted to just talk about it all. I plan to get my records next week though, I do have to get my beta done again and I'm sure it'll be gone by Tuesday. Oh, the pathology report said baby's sac was only 1cm, the mass of blood clotted around it was 5cm, my tube was 8cm in length. The bleeding I had before everything, was from my tube and not my uterus.
He said that my fertility is only minimally decreased, that age is the biggest factor at this point. He said that the good tube can reach over to the other ovary like an arm that it's not attached. I'm just going to try to hold that thought and the fact that my mom had her last baby at 46, and my labs don't look like I'm too old yet. He gave me a prescription for Estrace, he said it would make my lining thicker and better for the baby to implant next time. But he gave me that before we knew it was ectopic, so maybe that's not the problem anyway. I can blow off last cycle as a fluke, and this was a fluke of another kind. I'm not sure I need it. Any thoughts?
Nikki, I know it's generally too late in your cycle to do soy, but considering your last cycle I sure would do it for 5 days. Maca is good too, but I'd love to see you O earlier and you would get more chances to get your bfp.
Mal, adorable baby bump. Your baby is so pretty and I'm happy she's head down.
Amanda, I owe you some bows. Can you send me some links maybe so I can know what style you like? I haven't forgotten and it would be a really good thing for me to work on right now.
Love you all. Thanks for letting me whine, next time I have to have a happy story.