oka I am at my wits end.
I dont work, so I am stuck at home ALL the time. I dont have a phone because my phone is off and I dont have a car. So that pretty much leaves me STUCK at home.
Oh works and will go play pool or whatever. I rarely get to do things with my friends. Well today this girl at his work is having a party at the lake and he was invited and I was like I wanna go but do I really wanna be around all these girls in bikinis while being pregnant. But I wanted to go, so today we wake up and he is up already and I ask him what time we are going to the lake and he said I thought you werent going. I was like I never said I wasnt going. So turns into an arguement about what I said and didnt say. How I am apparently up is ass all the time... which I dont mean to be but hell I am stuck alone everyday with no one to talk to but my pets. SO of course arguement escaladed and I said I was gonna leave and pack up all of my stuff and of course he didnt care called me a bitch and said if he wanted a bitch he could go out and find another one. Then tries to say you know I love you but i wanna do soimething without you.
he also tells me its not like you can do something around the house Like seriously I have 3 loads of laundry that i have NO place to put literally cause he has this shelf full of shit and wont clean it off and I told him if I ended up having to do it thiings would get thrown away.
I am so over this, I have been debating leaving for a while but its hard because I have one friend who offered to let me stay with her. But I dont have a job I dont have a car. ugh
and 2 days ago i guess he thought I was asleep and I caught him watching porn as if I am not gonna notice that the SUPER loud tv got turned down really low. Then he tried to deny it ummm hello I caught you dumb ass then he said he was sorry and he was embarrassed.
I dont know what to, im trying to not be a hormonol pregnant pyscho but I dont know what to do. I can't stop crying and there is like really no food in the house and he left me to go to a stupid lake party ughhhh