God are you up there...

[mom2b12]

So as my husband and I get closer and closer to ttc for a year it's more and more frustrating. We have prayed and prayed, but it feels like God just doesn't hear us. I know many have been trying longer than us, but we can't help feel how much longer do we have to wait. How many more times are we going to be let down till we have our miracle

 

[supersherwolf]

Hopefully when he believes the time is right he will bless you with your little miracle. Have faith.

 

[Curligurl]

I know the feeling! When we were TTC #1 we went through 3 miscarriages (in 2 years). I felt like God was playing a cruel joke on me. What good is getting a BFP if you just going to end up losing the baby. No matter how hard I prayed each time I was let down. Sex wasn't sexy any more. It was frustrating and sad all at once.
We finally saw a RE and they found a couple of minor issues. But even after starting treatment I felt so hopeless. I got my fourth BFP and started spotting at 5 weeks. I prepared myself for the worse. I didn't pray or beg God to let me keep that baby like I did in the past. I just let it be...but to my pleasant surprise, I made it pass my 8 week milestone and went on to have a very healthy little boy!
Don't give up. I know it's hard. It will be worth it in the end
Have you made an appointment with a specialist yet??

 

[mom2b12]

I know the feeling! When we were TTC #1 we went through 3 miscarriages (in 2 years). I felt like God was playing a cruel joke on me. What good is getting a BFP if you just going to end up losing the baby. No matter how hard I prayed each time I was let down. Sex wasn't sexy any more. It was frustrating and sad all at once.
We finally saw a RE and they found a couple of minor issues. But even after starting treatment I felt so hopeless. I got my fourth BFP and started spotting at 5 weeks. I prepared myself for the worse. I didn't pray or beg God to let me keep that baby like I did in the past. I just let it be...but to my pleasant surprise, I made it pass my 8 week milestone and went on to have a very healthy little boy!
Don't give up. I know it's hard. It will be worth it in the end
Have you made an appointment with a specialist yet??

Thanks so much for responding. We haven't made any appointments yet because my doctor won't see us till we've been trying for a year and insurance won't cover any treatment till after a year. So I'm going to make an appointment for Jan. to see if they'll do blood work and possibly a semen analysis on my husband, that way if we find issues we can start treatment in Feb. right away.

 

[Curligurl]

Sounds like a good plan!

 

[Belle Shine]

I have had such similar thoughts. I actually came on here to write my own little rant about how lovely it would be to make that big decision with your hubby that now is the time to take the leap and make a baby, then actually get a BFP and baby, rather than the anticlimax of a year of nothing! I think I thought a bit of reverse psychology would work and God would grant me a baby just to prove he was there. Turns out he doesn't do that either lol! Now I have absolutely no idea if we will ever get our baby. We are at the very beginning of tests but have to wait for the right time for a blood test for me and try and get hubby in for his tests too. It is going to take us months and don't know what the future holds for us but I just have to believe it will all play out as it is supposed to. Xx

Good luck ladies xxx

 

[LeahLou]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. It sucks. I wish we didn't want another baby so much so I could just be pleasantly surprised one day with an unexpected bfp! But I know the journey makes the end results even sweeter Hope you get your bfp soon!

 

[daddiesgift]

I felt this same way with #1. Two years actively trying, countless fertility tests and every month AF without fail. I really hated when people told me "god will bless you when time is right" I felt like it was right, why didn't god??

I will say when it did happen it WAS the perfect time. We lived in a different country and OH deployed a month later. People thought shitty timing but it wasn't. It got me through being alone in another country. Something to focus on and pass time. The two years we tried we had just gotten married, I was in school from 7-3 and worked from 4-9. We fought a lot in those days. We were both immature. While we could've been great parents then I see now why maybe when it happened it was for the best. When it happens for you I promise it will all make sense. It's heart breaking now but try and relax and think that it's all in your life's plan.

With our second it happened two months after OH returned from deployment and we were simply ntnp. This time it was a month I stopped the pill. It showed me even more that it wasn't something I was doing wrong but it wasn't in the plans to have a baby the first two years we tried.

Keep the faith love

 

[LeahLou]

Thanks for that daddiesgift! Beautifully put and very encouraging

 

[mom2b12]

Belle: I've also tried just "forgetting about trying", thinking the reverse psychology would work. But it's impossible to forget and just stop trying lol.

Leah: Thanks for the words of encouragement, I'm hoping we can all get our surprise bfps soon!

 

[mom2b12]

I felt this same way with #1. Two years actively trying, countless fertility tests and every month AF without fail. I really hated when people told me "god will bless you when time is right" I felt like it was right, why didn't god??

I will say when it did happen it WAS the perfect time. We lived in a different country and OH deployed a month later. People thought shitty timing but it wasn't. It got me through being alone in another country. Something to focus on and pass time. The two years we tried we had just gotten married, I was in school from 7-3 and worked from 4-9. We fought a lot in those days. We were both immature. While we could've been great parents then I see now why maybe when it happened it was for the best. When it happens for you I promise it will all make sense. It's heart breaking now but try and relax and think that it's all in your life's plan.

With our second it happened two months after OH returned from deployment and we were simply ntnp. This time it was a month I stopped the pill. It showed me even more that it wasn't something I was doing wrong but it wasn't in the plans to have a baby the first two years we tried.

Keep the faith love

I definitely get that frustration sometimes when people tell me that. Because then I'm comparing us to other people around us that are much more immature/not ready than we are. For instance our friends got pregnant and had to move into our basement because they couldn't afford to live anywhere else, so in an effort to help them we let them come here at just the cost of half of utilities. But they've taken an inch for a couple of miles haha, I am happy though that they have started looking for another place to live and maybe this is why the timing isn't right for us. We're hoping that once they move out and we have less stress that it will help, we don't fight about them being here or anything it's just hard to share your house and have a baby in your face all the time when you want your own. And don't get me wrong he's our godson and we love him very much, it's just still very hard. But I know we will get there someday one way or another. I just have to keep telling myself that God has blessed us so far and that one day he will bless us again to be parents. Thank you for your encouragement, it's very helpful to not feel alone in all this .

 

[LeahLou]

I pray it's your time soon mom2b! My mil is living with us right now so I think that's why it's not our turn yet. It's been causing a lot of arguments because she really infringes on our space and I almost have to fight over DH sometimes. I think once she leaves or we leave next year, it'll be easier.
I'll watch for your posts! Wanna follow your story

 

[Belle Shine]

Such lovely encouraging comments. I guess there are many reasons why the timing may just not be quite right yet.. I'm not working and we have just starting to look at buying our own house. Maybe our little baby is waiting for these things to fall into place before s/he makes an appearance ... Xx

 

[gonnagetabump]

I am right there with you....this is my 11th cycle I never thought it would take so long......I pray to GOD a lot!! My mind wants to give up.....but my body and heart says keep trying ....I just dnk what difference it makes anymore.....I'm doing all that I can

 

[Anu123]

If you go back to read my post it mimics exactly similar to yours!! We also have family living with us along with mother in law.. Even though hubby and I have a great relationship I know it's a pressure with so many people around. It's hard to have alone time and sometimes it's not so much as time but energy lol. My doc won't see us until February when I am due for our annual exam. I have left it to God, well I'm trying to because only God can bless us with the happiness of a child.. Now learning to take it a day at a time.

 

[mom2b12]

Leah and Anu: You guys are much better women than I am, I don't think I could deal with my mil living with us lol. She makes it hard enough begging for a grandchild all the time as it is. My husband hasn't wanted to tell her we're trying so far. It really is hard to get privacy when you have people living with you, because it's a constant can they hear us? are they going to come home right now? lol. I just called and made my appt. to talk about infertility testing. The first available appt wasn't until Feb. 12th though, I didn't think it would be that hard to get an appt. But at least I have a date now that I can focus on for if we don't get pregnant by then. Good luck to everyone!!

 

[Anu123]

Trust me, it's not easy but I keep telling myself one of these day I will get my BFP and I won't care about all the stress we had to deal with..
Mom2b12 did your OBGYN recommend the fertility clinic to make the appt? I'm thinking about getting more info just wasn't sure where to start...

 

[ByHisGrace08]

Hello,

Yes God is hearing all of our prayers and His plan for us is much greater then anything we could ever imagine!!!! Keep talking to Him through praise and prayer, He is listening. He has a reason for our journey and while we cant see it now when we look back at this part of our lives we will see His fingerprints all over and understand.

Blessings,

 

[Curligurl]

Hello,

Yes God is hearing all of our prayers and His plan for us is much greater then anything we could ever imagine!!!! Keep talking to Him through praise and prayer, He is listening. He has a reason for our journey and while we cant see it now when we look back at this part of our lives we will see His fingerprints all over and understand.

Blessings,

This is very true indeed. I look at my son now and I am overwhelmed with happiness. If it wasn't for the losses I wouldn't had him....