dimplesmagee
2 boys,2 angels,expecting
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Since August 2010, I have either been pregnant, or coming "down" from hormones due to MC/D&Cs. My first D&C was at 10 weeks in October and the my 2nd MC was at the end of January. My 2nd MC was awful, as I began to loose the baby naturally. The fetus was stuck in my cervix so for 4 days I had early labor contractions. I only left my bed to pee, and have Drs. appointments. I felt immediate relief after my D&C.
Anyway, the past 7 months have been a rollercoaster ride. I am grateful that my cycles have returned to normal after each loss, and my HCG levels are FINALLY at 0 after 8 weeks...so now I am trying to figure out what I want to do from here.
Apart of me so badly wants to try again because my desire to be pregnant and to have another baby is so great, but the other part of me is scared. I feel like I will not be able to "move on" until I have a healthy pregnancy. My parents and my sister keep assuming we are going to wait awhile..."let your uterus heal and your emotions." Last time, my Dr. recommended 2 cycles, and this time I have done that. My OH wants to put no timeline on trying, but what he doesn't understand is that if we are not using protection, all I am going to think about is whether or not we are going to get pregnant and if I am ready for that again.
As you can see I am confused. I want to be pregnant and would be absolutely thrilled to see a positive test, but I feel like my parents/sister may not be so happy for us, and their concern would show more than I would like. I know our 2nd MC was a chromosome abnormality and the first probably was too...we've made one beautiful boy together, I know it is possible. It's so hard to know when the "right" time is to try again.
Anyway...just needed to vent I guess. Thanks for reading.
Anyway, the past 7 months have been a rollercoaster ride. I am grateful that my cycles have returned to normal after each loss, and my HCG levels are FINALLY at 0 after 8 weeks...so now I am trying to figure out what I want to do from here.
Apart of me so badly wants to try again because my desire to be pregnant and to have another baby is so great, but the other part of me is scared. I feel like I will not be able to "move on" until I have a healthy pregnancy. My parents and my sister keep assuming we are going to wait awhile..."let your uterus heal and your emotions." Last time, my Dr. recommended 2 cycles, and this time I have done that. My OH wants to put no timeline on trying, but what he doesn't understand is that if we are not using protection, all I am going to think about is whether or not we are going to get pregnant and if I am ready for that again.
As you can see I am confused. I want to be pregnant and would be absolutely thrilled to see a positive test, but I feel like my parents/sister may not be so happy for us, and their concern would show more than I would like. I know our 2nd MC was a chromosome abnormality and the first probably was too...we've made one beautiful boy together, I know it is possible. It's so hard to know when the "right" time is to try again.
Anyway...just needed to vent I guess. Thanks for reading.