I know the name of this thread is scary, and that's EXACTLY how it feels to have these symptoms - trust me!
Basically I am scared of having a weak cervix due to a Lletz(LEEP for some) procedure in October 2009.
My OB didn't seem concerned, but I got concerned when a sonographer at my 12w scan told me I was considered "high risk" because of it.
Last week I went to see my OBST as my pelvis felt "heavy" pressure.
I have never before been pregnant so I have NO idea what things are "supposed" to feel like.
He did an internal exam and said my cervix was almost 4cm and fine.
Well last night the "pressure" feeling or "heavy" feeling was also in my vagina!
It felt like, if I pushed in a Number 2 like way, I would pass something.
I cried all night pretty much, and read AWFUL things on Google that freaked me out.
By the time I arrived at the OBST this morning I was in a STATE.
At my OBST the DESK RECEPTIONIST triages you!
She makes you describes your symptoms them works out if the Dr will see you.
She ROLLED HER EYES AT ME when she saw me.
This sent me off in tears.
She was angry I had turned up with an issue, clearly, and curtly just said "He's not even HERE yet".
Anyway I went outside and DF - the non pregnant rational one - went inside and got me an appointment for half an hour later when he did come in.
I felt SO embarassed when I went in there.
Not only because my symptoms were difficult to explain and embarassing, but because I kept thinking that the front desk girl thought I was stupid.
I am SO emotional and fragile at the moment - I just thought it would be silly to go to work all day not knowing if everything was okay.
Well I got poked with a speculum and another internal scann (cervix same length as last week thank GOD!) and then the OBST said it all looked fine, and he could not explain the "heavy" feeling other than that I must be very "sensitive" down there.
He is a very very nice Dr, so he DID make me feel better.
He didn't make me feel silly.
The thing is.
What IS this feeling?
Has anyone else every had it?
And this EARLY?
I feel very vulnerable and fragile.
My DF has been amazingly great and supportive, but the fact of the matter is, this is happening to me, and I cannot help but worry.
I hope it isn't a sign of anything terrible or a cervical incompetence.
I am so glad I have this forum today to talk to someone else who might "get it" or have actually had this feeling!
xx
Basically I am scared of having a weak cervix due to a Lletz(LEEP for some) procedure in October 2009.
My OB didn't seem concerned, but I got concerned when a sonographer at my 12w scan told me I was considered "high risk" because of it.
Last week I went to see my OBST as my pelvis felt "heavy" pressure.
I have never before been pregnant so I have NO idea what things are "supposed" to feel like.
He did an internal exam and said my cervix was almost 4cm and fine.
Well last night the "pressure" feeling or "heavy" feeling was also in my vagina!
It felt like, if I pushed in a Number 2 like way, I would pass something.
I cried all night pretty much, and read AWFUL things on Google that freaked me out.
By the time I arrived at the OBST this morning I was in a STATE.
At my OBST the DESK RECEPTIONIST triages you!
She makes you describes your symptoms them works out if the Dr will see you.
She ROLLED HER EYES AT ME when she saw me.
This sent me off in tears.
She was angry I had turned up with an issue, clearly, and curtly just said "He's not even HERE yet".
Anyway I went outside and DF - the non pregnant rational one - went inside and got me an appointment for half an hour later when he did come in.
I felt SO embarassed when I went in there.
Not only because my symptoms were difficult to explain and embarassing, but because I kept thinking that the front desk girl thought I was stupid.
I am SO emotional and fragile at the moment - I just thought it would be silly to go to work all day not knowing if everything was okay.
Well I got poked with a speculum and another internal scann (cervix same length as last week thank GOD!) and then the OBST said it all looked fine, and he could not explain the "heavy" feeling other than that I must be very "sensitive" down there.
He is a very very nice Dr, so he DID make me feel better.
He didn't make me feel silly.
The thing is.
What IS this feeling?
Has anyone else every had it?
And this EARLY?
I feel very vulnerable and fragile.
My DF has been amazingly great and supportive, but the fact of the matter is, this is happening to me, and I cannot help but worry.
I hope it isn't a sign of anything terrible or a cervical incompetence.
I am so glad I have this forum today to talk to someone else who might "get it" or have actually had this feeling!
xx