Here we go again...

[Amigone]

Hi. I'm a 30 year old woman who had a mmc in December (some of you might remember me). The last few months have been very difficult for my wife and I, but we are trying again this month. We are doing IUI with clomid and trigger shot, as well as donor sperm.

I feel so... detatched this time. Last time taking the clomid was exciting and looking forward to the ultrasound to count follicles was exciting. But now it is scary. I have to go to the same ultrasound clinic where the doctor came in and told me that my baby died on Tuesday for the count.

Part of me wonders if it is too soon, and another part of me thinks it might always be too soon.

Can anyone relate?

 

[sweetB]

So sorry to hear about your baby! I know what you mean about it always seeming like too soon to go through it all again. Best wishes for a successful cycle!

 

[TTC100]

So sorry for your loss I sometimes feel the same way. I can't help but worry that it will happen again, and it feels so overwhelming. But hang in there....when the time is right, everything will go perfectly and it will have all been worth it...I promise!

 

[Amigone]

Today my follicle is big enough to trigger ovulation tonight! exciting and terrifying.

 

[wwchix]

I know the feeling.

First time was so fun and exciting taking the clomid, and counting days to the monitoring scans, which were in the same room all my ferility test scans were done, and the room i also had the complete mc confirmed.

This time we are waiting until next month (AF has just shown naturally for the first time since November, was pregnant for one and a bit of those months and forced a bleed with provera last month) so usually I could start clomid this week but because my dose has been increased it needs monitoring and as I'm off on holiday in 2 weeks can't take it as will be away whilst scans would need to be done.

I don't feel too excited this time - just going through the motions. That said I'm getting to know my body by checking my cervix etc and i'm going to try temp too so I have a better idea when I will ovulate when it comes to taking the clomid.

Best of luck love xx

 

[Amigone]

wwchix, that's exactly it. The first time was fascinating and we got pregnant then the baby died and now it's just going through the motions. And Im convinced we missed ovulation again but I was last time so I gotta trust the process.

We had 6 million sperm in the IUI yesterday! 50% more than last time. Kinda cool...