Oh Brandi - try not to succumb to these feelings. It's going to be alright. You won't be pregnant forever. You have some good signs. Don't put pressure on yourself. That added pressure won't make things happen.
Are there any special considerations about you going over EDD where you are in Canada? (i.e policies etc) Not that this should matter, but it will be effecting how you feel. Like in the UK women at 41+5 (12 days post EDD) are routinely pressured into induction of labour (sometimes even before this date)
It's ok to feel like you do, but lots can and will prob happen in the next 3 weeks, while you are in the "term window" upto 42 weeks. But remember, what is term for you and the baby, is when the baby comes and your baby releases the right make up of hormones to say their lungs are ready and start things off.
Keep up all the fun stuff! Stay positive and try to relax about it. We are all here for support and to buoy you up when you need it.
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I'm honestly not sure of any policies in this area. I only live a few hours away from Kandy but I don't know if they would be the same or not. This is also my first homebirth so most of my information is what I've picked up from here.
I made a point to discuss it with my midwife yesterday that I would not consider any interventions (sweep, induction, etc) until 42 weeks, unless there was a serious medical concern that required me to have an intervention prior, and that, unlikely as it would be, I still would not consider an induction post-42 weeks unless it was medically necessary.
I half expected her to be against it and try to talk me out of it, but she surprisingly didn't. She respected my point of view and agreed with me. She said she's had a few women who take the expectant management route and have perfectly healthy babies and the midwives (I have 2 and a backup) have no issues with it whatsoever.
On that note, I doubt I'll go to 42 weeks. I do think I'm going to go over though, by at least a few days. I have two dates, based on insemination and LMP and my midwives also said that if need be, they can look at my dates and adjust them to buy me a few extra days. Based on insemination, I'm due April 27, but based on LMP, I'm due May 2, so April 28, while over, I may not actually be over yet, if that makes sense.
I'm just holding on to hope that she comes soon.