hormone crash after ERPC

[Blu10]

Are you finding CBT helpful Hopie? It mustve been horrid doing a job that you disliked so much, hopefully when you feel ready you will find the right one for you hunni! Its been a good day here, the weekends flown by though. Glad to hear the warmer weather we sent to NYC has finally arrived hehe x

 

[bernie86]

Sounds like you ladies had nice weekends! and you all make me hungry with this homemade dishes you are talking about! My Girls day saturday was exactly what my Bestie and I needed! We had our coffee on the beach, the massage and facial were to die for and we finished it up by going to a swanky brunch spot on the beach! It was so worth the splurge.... we know our hubbys were happy to pay for it hahaha. But we've both been stressed ( she has a 15 month old) and just needed to get away and do girl stuff! Im trying to find some projects to do around the house now and at work to keep my mind occupied so i can get through the next two weeks. I dont even want to think about it so that I dont get my hopes up too high... Jaspie Im sure you can relate!

 

[jaspie]

Bernie your girls day sounds awesome! I would pay a lot of money right now to be brunching on the beach after a massage 😍 sounds like it was just what you needed.

I can definitely relate. It's impossible not to get hopes up though! I'm not helping myself though admittedly! Constantly comparing to last time and googling everything I'm a nightmare haha! Started to get worried about how I'll handle af if I'm not pregnant, i think I'll be upset as we can't try for 6 weeks then as my OH is having surgery...so am trying to manage my expectations. It's hard! Get your head down and try not to think too much is great idea but hard in practice!

 

[bernie86]

Yeah Im trying to stay away from other pregnancy sites, except for this one... I feel like the energy of all you ladies helps, but other sites and info might make me discouraged while waiting. but its easier to say im going to stay busy and not be anxious, doing that is definitely another. Im so sorry that you will have to wait 6 weeks if you dont get your BFP this month. and sorry he has to have surgery. hope that goes well. Hopefully we both get to see a big +!

 

[Blu10]

Hey ladies, hope youre well?
Bernie in well jealous, your weekend sounds fantastic! Fingers crossed you both get a BFP this month. I think AF may be due next weekend, we did DTD once around ovulation but not expecting to be pregnant at all this month tbh and ill be happy for my cycle to return to get back to normal then try again.
I spoke on here about my friend telling me she was pregnant a day after my D&C and me not being able to meet her as it was too raw, there were a few other inconsiderate things said too but sadly shes also now miscarried. I swear theres something in the air at the moment, crazy isnt it.

 

[bernie86]

blu- Im so sorry to hear about your friend. I hope that you guys worked through everything and that you can be there for her through this. My friend and I have been going through trying to get pregnant together and unfortunately she has to do clomid and all that... but she found out she was pregnant about two weeks after my MC and we were so excited but she MC later that week. I hated knowing just how she felt bc its so painful, but Im so glad I could be there for her and I think It helped me just as much as it helped her to be her support. I think when you are telling someone that its going to be ok one day and you are a strong woman, eventually you start taking your own advise.

 

[jaspie]

So sorry about both of your friends. It just goes to show how common it is. I wonder why we still don't talk about it openly, it's such a huge thing that has such a massive effect on you.
I'm glad helping your friend helped you Bernie, i can totally see how you'd start believing your own advice and it's true, it is going to be ok one day and we are all strong women

 

[Fit_Mama2Be]

Hi ladies, glad you all had nice weekends! I had a cold so didn't do much...I'm feeling kind of blah but I'm sure feeling crappy physically is not helping mentally. Plus I'm a big baby while sick even at the best of times.

Fingers crossed that you get your BFPs this month!!

I have no idea when my body is going to return to normal. In the meantime I'm kind of fearful of sex.

 

[hopie2015]

Hi ladies!
Thanks Blu! The CBT I think I am finding helpful. Yes- the job was a true nightmare. After 18 years of working, I had never experienced such horrid treatment.

Bernie - what an amazing day you had. Sooo nice of your hubby!

Wow- I am sorry about both of your friends miscarrying too. It is true- shows how common it is. Like Jaspie said- why don't people talk about it openly? Hiding it feels strange to me. Nothing to be ashamed of. I know it is something personal, but perhaps it would be easier if talked about more in the open.

Fit- sorry you are feeling blah. I am also feeling rather afraid of sex now!!!
I am feeling like heck today. Perhaps coming down with something too. Counselor was yesterday- she was sick as a dog. She was helpful, but my mood has been so low the past 2 days. Can't give into the fear, have to break the fear/avoidance cycle.. I know. But so hard to do.

Good you all are keeping busy. Yes Bernie- finding projects around the house sure helps too! I must start on that.

How is everyone today? Good, I hope. And thank you for sending the UK warm weather our way finally!

I am off to bed with a book.. Absolutely exhausted. Headache and moody as hell. Fiance knows to stay far away, I think..

 

[Blu10]

Hey Friends.... yes were very good friends and im definitely there for her 100%. Its so crap isnt it.
H9w was everyones day? Im having a dilemma as my dream jobs been advertised! What do I do????? I dont want to put off TTC but really want to apply arghhhhhhh x

 

[jaspie]

I think apply for it! Things have a habit of working out when you follow your dreams. I think continue to ttc too, you never know what might happen. While it would be a bit awkward if you just started I'm sure they'd be understanding if you fell pregnant. 9 months mat leave isn't long in the span of your career there.

Hope you feel better soon fit and hopie xx

 

[Blu10]

Hey All - I missed yesterdays post Hopie, sorry you had a bad day, are you feeling any better today?
Jaspie I've decided to apply for the job, its half an hour closer to home and I've waited too long for this opportunity to pass me by. I better start swotting! How's the TWW going?
Fit - I felt like you about sex but felt better once we actually did it if that makes sense. I hope you're feeling better today.
I've had a crazy morning at work and am looking forward to a chilled afternoon at home now. The healthier eating is still on track and I lost 4lbs this week so that made me happy. I think AF should be due this weekend/ early next week and I'm looking forward to trying again after that. I definitely don't have any pregnancy vibes for this month but I'm cool with that 😃

 

[hopie2015]

Hi friends- congrats on applying for that dream job you saw, Blu! That is great. I agree with Jaspie's advice. I remember once sitting on a plane next to a pastor. I was coming back from a business trip and after 5 years, my job was going to be eliminated. I remember him telling me, 'things just have a way of working out in life...Always remember that.' Life really does have a way of working out. So go for it, apply, keep up the ttc'ing and it will all work out!
4 lbs is a lot to lose in one week..Wow! I think I gained 4 lbs this week!

Thanks- feeling better today.. Got good sleep..though I still have weird/bad dreams either about the m/c or my old job. Counselor said subconscious works on figuring things out while we are asleep.
Fun!

Fit- how are you feeling today? And Bernie- what's new?

Summer-like (after this rough winter!) 60 degrees here so have been out and about and going back out now but wanted to check on to see how everyone is doing. I feel badly I no longer read or respond to other posts on here.. It feels too overwhelming and I have nothing positive to say lately, I guess.
Hmph.

I'll check back on Friday and looking forward to everyone's update. Going to go solo cross country skiing tomorrow..clears my head! Take care everyone~~

 

[bernie86]

Blu- good for you glad you are going for the job!
Hopie- Im glad you are doing a little better! just keep taking good care of yourself!

Im doing good, have been doing pretty decent with the TWW so far, I just cant shut it off in my head... makes me crazy! Im trying to focus on my schedule with work, walking, chores and spending time with hubby. Staying busy at work really helps the days go by fast!

And you ladies will love this.... I had a craving for donuts today that i could not shake! so after lunch I hopped in my car and drove down to the donut shop and scarfed down 2 donuts in like 5 minutes!

 

[jaspie]

Hey guys! Blu well done on applying for the job! I have everything crossed for you it sounds perfect.
Hopie i hope the cross country skiing clears your head. I've always wanted to try that but we don't have the weather here. I heard it's the best calorie burner our of all the exercises!
Fit i was also scared of sex but it was fine and not at all painful and it was just like normal. It helped me feel like things were more normal again
Bernie I'm glad your tww is going well and you're keeping busy! Yum on the donuts! What dpo are you? I'm 9 dpo and although I'm busy at work I'm struggling to concentrate as i just want to know now! Think I've got an ear infection so Dr's for me later or tomorrow.

 

[Blu10]

Oh no Jaspie, weve really all had our fill of illness and drama recently havent we.
Hope the TWW goes fast for you ladies.
Bernie well done on the doughnuts hunni... im proud of you... one for you and one for the team!! Hahaha. Hopie, those dreams are crappy, i had loads at first, the bad news is theyre also vile in 2nd and 3rd trimester when you are preggers. I also dont check other posts very much anymore, i almost feel you girls are like my lil TTC family 😄 your cross country skiing sounds like fun 👍
I have AF feeling today and im now 28 days post op so I think she will rear her head in the next few days and Im cool with that.
Cant believe its friday tomorrow, the weeks flown by! Im interviewing all day at work today zzzzzz will check in later xxx

 

[Fit_Mama2Be]

Sorry to hear about the ear infection jaspie - those things suck!

Good luck with the job Blu!!

Cross country skiing sounds great hopie and what a great calorie burner!! I hear you about not wanting to read/post in certain places. I just can't handle reading about people who were further along than me and lost babies or seeing photos of babies who died. They rip my heart out and make me so distraught and furious with God. I end up in a very dark place and as DH wisely pointed out I have enough pain of my own and shouldn't torture myself by taking on other people's.

LOL about the donuts bernie. Sounds yummy! I was thisclose to getting poutine at lunch the other day but thankfully decided to see if the doctor could fit me in first - he had time to see me so that foiled the poutine plan, phew.

I am so paranoid these days but the doctor examined me and said all is well and my cervix is fully closed. Phew.

I went to a new (to me) type of yoga last night - yin yoga - with my friend and her boyfriend and it was AMAZING. So peaceful and meditative and the stretching felt wonderful. I have decided to make yoga a regular part of each week. I am so fearful of failing to get pregnant again. DH and I tried for a year and a half a few years back and nada. Even though I've now gotten pregnant without trying I'm so scared it won't happen again. Yoga is supposed to be good for fertility and will help calm me down so that's a huge plus.

Happy Friday Eve ladies!!

 

[bernie86]

hope you have fun skiing Hopie! that sounds awesome! Fit- I hope you feel comfortable for some sexy time soon! I bet it will help on so many levels and I'm glad the Dr. said everything's good and that you are enjoying the yoga!!! Blu, I don't read any other posts either, you guys are the positive energy I need! and I have fingers crossed AF will show up for you soon! mine came 29 day after D&C. It really helps you feel reset and yourself again! Jaspie, I'm 6 DPO so still another week or so... Are you feeling any thing that's pointing you to think a BFP is in the future? I'm really trying not to pick out things, because I didn't have anything feel different last time except a missed period. Hope you ladies have a wonderful Thursday! It actually feels like this week flew on by!

 

[hopie2015]

Hi!
Donuts?? I could totally inhale about 5 right now. Skiing was great, thanks but the strongest wind ever and now my face is all sun/windburned. Ouch!
Jaspie- I hope your ear infection is feeling better? Double ouch!

Fit- I must try that yin yoga! That sounds incredible. Thanks for the tip.
Try not to worry about not getting pg again. Really helps I hear to imagine yourself pregnant and just know deep down that it will happen.

Blu- I feel same way..we have our own little ttc/support group going on here.
I was on this other board when I first learned I was pg.. called The Bump..my friend rec'd it to me. It was unreal! Catty girls fighting back and forth..just terrible! I was so glad to find this board with you great people!

So I have to call a lawyer now since my former company reported to the state that I quit..this keeps me from collecting unemployment benefits. (saves the cheap financial firm from hell money to not pay unemployment). Do not need anymore stress/drama! Unreal what companies in the US can get away with. Going back to my parent's as now my mom isn't feeling well. Enough, enough bs and drama is all I can say. Really, enough!

Must focus on positive vibes...good things happening and increase the positive energy. You guys help me with that so much!

I'll try skiing again tomorrow in hopes it is not windy..it does sure help clear the mind.

Who else is craving donuts since Bernie mentioned them?

Take care, all.. Onward and upward!!

 

[jaspie]

I love your attitude hopie. You're a strong woman, and you can handle this. I hope your mum feels better soon Onwards and upwards indeed
The Bump is awful isn't it! I've seen threads when I've been googling stuff and the girls on there are so mean to each other! Glad you found us, you're far too nice to be over there.

Bernie yes I've been having some symptoms the same as last time and my chart looks very similar but I'm trying to keep my feet on the ground as nothing is normal this month so could be anything! I'm already testing i still had a squinter left over from last time so I thought it'd be a good idea to test and see where I'm at and then I can compare over the next few days to see if it gets darker. No willpower whatsoever!! How about you?

Fit that yoga sounds fabulous and really worthwhile. I know it's hard not to worry, I'm such a worrier and spoke about it with my counsellor this week. She said to imagine the worry as wolves and every time you dwell on them you're feeding the wolves and making them bigger and stronger. This really helped me to see it like that. And she said if you spend so much time worrying about the past or the future you miss the present. So I'm trying to be more present in the moment and enjoy the now rather than worrying about things that haven't happened yet and might never happen. It's hard to do! But I can see it makes sense.

Blu hope your interviews went ok today! I helped out with interviews today too! Just invigilating the assessment for me though. Friday tomorrow woooohooooo!!