How will I react if AF comes again...

[Matos2010]

Hello! I am new to this site...I have been ttc for 1 year now and on my 3rd cycle of Clomid 50mg. Every month comes and goes and.....nothing
Last month my best friend told me she was starting to TTC..well low and behold..she is preg already! I feel like such a horrible person, but it is sooo hard to be completely happy for her when this has been a really stressful year with us TTC. My friend keeps telling me its going to happen for me too and that his is my month! .....Talked to OBGYN and they said if not preg by this month I should go see a fertility specialist. AF is due 1/28....and I am not sure how I am going to react....I might have a nervous breakdown

Just looking for some support from people going through the same thing!

 

[sg0720]

hey. i know how you feel. it is hard and upsetting to be happy for someone when you are trying so hard. and its normal the way you feel. i hope you get your BFP soon. but if AF show this month i say you talk to your doctor to get referred to a FS and mayb treat your self to something nice and just relax.

i wish you the best

 

[Matos2010]

thanks finding out my best friend was preg was like a stab in the heart for me AND my hubby (it is also his best friend's wife) .....thank god they are so supportive of us and understanding with how we are feeling. I keep trying to tell myself if AF comes I just need to move on..which I have done for an entire year mpw. But this month since my friend is preg I am afraid of how I am going to feel if i don't get a BFP this month. Wish this feeling of anxiety and jelousy would just go away!

 

[tx614]

I know how you are feeling too. I had a similar experience but I just keep telling myself it will be nice to have a friend a few months ahead of me for advice (and hand me downs!!) when I finally get my BFP. I think the FS is a good idea because sometimes it is as simple as timing which they will help you with and if it is anything else they will help you through it. FX for you this month!

 

[PG5K]

I'm sorry to hear that your feeling so down. I felt the same when my friend was pregnant and we weren't even ttc then.

I wish you all the luck in the world

 

[cochy115]

I'm so sorry that it has been a long, difficult journey for you! Just try to stay hopeful, but also prepare yourself for the worst to protect your spirit. It will be hard either way. Just know that it's not the end of the road for you. If it's not this month, the FS can find some solutions for you!

 

[Matos2010]

thanks ladies I am trying to keep my spirits up. TTC is such a roller coaster feeling! There are times where I am very hopeful and optimistic and other times when I feel so down I don't want to get out of bed...I seriously left early from work the day I found out my friend was pregnant...and called out the next day too.

 

[Matos2010]

So I have come to the conclusion I am going to test a couple days early and if I get a BFN at least I won't have the "shock" of AF coming randomly...and if I am late I will test again! BTW I am in much better spirits last couple days