itsnowmyturn
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So my little boy is now 17 days old, he was 9 days late and I hated every minute of my pregnancy. I didn't particularly enjoy my first pregnancy but everything felt worse this time.
I had to switch from my usual night shifts onto day shifts because my boss wouldn't let me do nights, I was isolated at work because I had to be moved from my usual post due to the unpredictability and potentially violent nature of my job and to avoid working somewhere with people I didn't no I took on admin work instead which meant sitting by myself in an office for the majority of the time so I was lone working from the time I told me boss to the time I went on mat leave.
I started with spd at 15 weeks and although it eased a bit once my boy moved up and out of my pelvis it got extremely bad towards the end of my pregnancy and the more simple of movements were very painful.
I had a lot of bump pain throughout my pregnancy and I suffered with a lot of the general pregnancy complaints but it all felt worse this time round.
My daughter is now 2 years and 10 months and she was going through a tough time with some changes such as needing to take the side off her cot due to her climbing out, nap times getting shorter and waking times getting earlier and various other things your typical 2 year old goes through but she struggled with some of them because her temper gets the better of her.
Anyway I'm rambling. Over the last few days I've realised that the way I have been feeling isn't necessarily normal.
I have no desire to go anywhere or do anything, I have no enjoyment in anything and I can't remember the last time I properly laughed and had a good time. I have little appetite and even when I feel hungry I have no desire to eat. I am easily agitated and irritated and find myself getting annoyed at my daughter and partner over such stupid things.
In hindsight I've been feeling like this since about half way through my pregnancy and the first time I thought something wasn't quite right was when I was aroubd 24 weeks and on holiday, I realised I had no interest in doing anything on holiday. However I sort of brushed it off and although it stayed in the back of my mind i guess i buried my head in the sand and put it down to me not enjoying the pregnancy and hoped it would go away after I had had my son.
Well as u can probably guess it hasn't! And here I am with the realisation that I may be suffering with postnatal depression, and that I was probably suffering during my pregnancy as well. I haven't spoken to anyone about it, I'm not very good at talking to people and I don't even no how to start the conversation. I am planning on speaking to the health visitor when she visits again in a week or so but I don't even no how to bring it up.
I'm at a complete loss, even working in mental health myself, I don't no what to do with this.
Anyone got any advice on some self help so I can see if I can improve things over the next week before my health visitor comes
I had to switch from my usual night shifts onto day shifts because my boss wouldn't let me do nights, I was isolated at work because I had to be moved from my usual post due to the unpredictability and potentially violent nature of my job and to avoid working somewhere with people I didn't no I took on admin work instead which meant sitting by myself in an office for the majority of the time so I was lone working from the time I told me boss to the time I went on mat leave.
I started with spd at 15 weeks and although it eased a bit once my boy moved up and out of my pelvis it got extremely bad towards the end of my pregnancy and the more simple of movements were very painful.
I had a lot of bump pain throughout my pregnancy and I suffered with a lot of the general pregnancy complaints but it all felt worse this time round.
My daughter is now 2 years and 10 months and she was going through a tough time with some changes such as needing to take the side off her cot due to her climbing out, nap times getting shorter and waking times getting earlier and various other things your typical 2 year old goes through but she struggled with some of them because her temper gets the better of her.
Anyway I'm rambling. Over the last few days I've realised that the way I have been feeling isn't necessarily normal.
I have no desire to go anywhere or do anything, I have no enjoyment in anything and I can't remember the last time I properly laughed and had a good time. I have little appetite and even when I feel hungry I have no desire to eat. I am easily agitated and irritated and find myself getting annoyed at my daughter and partner over such stupid things.
In hindsight I've been feeling like this since about half way through my pregnancy and the first time I thought something wasn't quite right was when I was aroubd 24 weeks and on holiday, I realised I had no interest in doing anything on holiday. However I sort of brushed it off and although it stayed in the back of my mind i guess i buried my head in the sand and put it down to me not enjoying the pregnancy and hoped it would go away after I had had my son.
Well as u can probably guess it hasn't! And here I am with the realisation that I may be suffering with postnatal depression, and that I was probably suffering during my pregnancy as well. I haven't spoken to anyone about it, I'm not very good at talking to people and I don't even no how to start the conversation. I am planning on speaking to the health visitor when she visits again in a week or so but I don't even no how to bring it up.
I'm at a complete loss, even working in mental health myself, I don't no what to do with this.
Anyone got any advice on some self help so I can see if I can improve things over the next week before my health visitor comes