I daren't test? Anyone else in the same boat?

[trying1230]

So I posted a thread before about being due on my period Saturday, I only spotted I did a tea but was negative. Still no sign of period and have thick egg white discharge (sorry tmi). I've had 1 miscarriage then had my daughter in 2012 then this year in April had a blighted ovum, when I tester positive with my daughter I took 4 tests before I got a positive, i'm scared to test because I want it to be positive but if it is positive I will be worrying if every thing is ok.

Anyone else had a previous experience?