i didn't know what to do with myself today, even thinking bout not bein with him is makin me cry as i type
So much has been said between me and fob, i actually hate him at the moment. i know that will calm down but in the mean time how am i meant to be amicable with him? he has not been the father he promised to be...far from it. My head is such a mess
its so hard hun isnt it, myas dad promised to be this amazing daddy who was going to provide for us and make life great, instead he stole money from me, took drugs and sat on his butt all day doing nothing. spoke to me like i was something he wipped off his shoe etc etc.
Its hard to be amicable with them when there is so many feelings in the air.
I walked away from my home (as her dad wouldnt leave), all my friends and everything i had known as a mum.
I actually didnt speak to him for a month or so and he made no effort to try and contact me. it was only when christmas and her birthday began to approach that he got back in contact. and we arranged that he can collect her from me and i will pick her up. We dont really speak unless its about mya and if he tries to start on the me and him issue I simply say in a calm voice.......we are talking because of mya this is not about us anymore its about her.
i hope ur ok today