I don't want to wait anymore..

[Kerjack]

This month me and OH messed up and had sex without proctection on our aniversary date, which was a day before ovulation. Well when I got spotting on 7 DPO I got all excited and thought maybe I was pregnant. Like legit def thought I was. I was happier than I have been in awhile, my life had meaning, I had something to work towards and I was dreaming about holding that sweet LO in my arms. Well now at 9 DPO the spotting hasn't stopped so I'm pretty sure I'm not and AF is just messing with me.

But this whole experience just showed me, being a Mom is way more important to me than I thought. It makes me feel like I have a purpose in life, and that was with only thinking I was pregnant for a day. Cause now that I admit I'm propably not I'm upset, I want to be pregnant. I don't want to wait till whenever because of OH, I want it now.

Maybe I can convince him that we should start trying now. For my sake and sanity haha.

 

[MummaErin]

OH honey, I felt the same last month, we had a accident also, and I was so sure... I mean even started looking at cribs...and when AF was a day late I was bouncing around the house knowing for sure AF wasnt coming...and the 2am came..so did AF I sat in the bathroom and cried, OH didnt know what to do.

We'll get there, cos I'm pretty sure I'll go crazy if I dont have a baby within the new year max and I'm betting you feel the same.

 

[Kerjack]

Oh I will so go crazy if we don't at least start trying next year, but it just seems so far away! .

I was thinking about ways I could tell my parents and such when I thought I was, and had it all planned out. We're going to Disney World in October and I'd be around 8 weeks by the time we go if I was. So I was going to buy some onesies with "I love my grandma" or something and show my Mother some how. But now thats no good haha.

God damn. I swear if this bleeding stops in the next day or so I will be thinking I'm pregnant again. Cause its def no where near anything like a regular AF.

Bah. I'm so glad I have this site or I might go crazy, well even more crazy.

 

[bornthiswayxo]

I feel similar, but things arent going good with OH right now... so idk I'll probs be here a long time

 

[Twister]

I know what you mean. Being a mum is the only thing I want out of life. I'm not interested in a career or travelling or anything like that. But we have to wait at the moment, we don't have an exact date yet but hopefully we will be trying again early next year.

 

[BeeLT]

Oh I will so go crazy if we don't at least start trying next year, but it just seems so far away! .

I was thinking about ways I could tell my parents and such when I thought I was, and had it all planned out. We're going to Disney World in October and I'd be around 8 weeks by the time we go if I was. So I was going to buy some onesies with "I love my grandma" or something and show my Mother some how. But now thats no good haha.

God damn. I swear if this bleeding stops in the next day or so I will be thinking I'm pregnant again. Cause its def no where near anything like a regular AF.

Bah. I'm so glad I have this site or I might go crazy, well even more crazy.

I feel for you. This past July, DH & I had decided we were going to start TTC in September (you know, the month we are currently in...) and then in early August we got test results back on my food allergies. I had gone to a new physician for a general check up and the whole 'trying to be as healthy as I can be' thing. I've had food allergies for 4 years. Turns out I have a rather serious health condition called leaky gut that is destroying my digestive system and creates new food allergies based on what I eat the most, along with a lot of other health issues. I'd been mostly ignoring those other issues, but they are what sent me to the new physician to try to get healthy before we were going to TTC. The new light shed on my condition has put all prep for TTC into full blown WTT. DH & I are both upset, but know that waiting is the best for my body and for our future baby to give him or her the best chance at being healthy.

It's tough WTT. I'm sure it's also tough TTC. And birthing a baby, and being a parent.... but this is what our hearts (you, me, DH, everyone on BnB...) want. Hopefully, some day it is what we will all have.

I've gone over it all a million times in my head- how I'll tell DH we're pregnant, how we'll tell our parents and others, how I'll get to feel the LO inside my tummy, and on and on.

We want to be as prepared as possible so are taking the extra/forced "wait" time to learn as much as possible about pregnancy, birth, infants, breastfeeding, parenting stuff. You could also do the same with your "wait" time. Some times it makes me really happy that I'm planning ahead & learning things (and crocheted 2 cute sweaters!) but sometimes it makes me sad because I have no idea when we'll even get to TTC.

I have a follow up appointment in a month to see how my new diet & meds are helping my condition. We might get the green light from my doctor to start TTC, but I'm guessing she's going to say she thinks we should wait for another 6+ months.

Best wishes,
Bee

 

[odd_socks]

Totally know how you are feeling Its so hard isn't it? I hate the fact I have to wait, possibly years until we TTC. All I want is to be a Mum And that may never happen now...

 

[gflady]

I hate having to wait too. It's depressing. When I have too much time to myself I end up moping around and getting down that we still have to wait. It's been three long years of waiting and being ready.

We'll get there ladies I feel bad, but I'm wishing my life away at the moment until we can start TTC! xxx