jozylynn896
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I never really cared much for them before the pregnancy. I'm so mad that he still hasn't told them and I'm already almost 6 months pregnant! It just makes me so angry.
So the other day me and my OH are walking to the bus stop as we just left Target. And his brother pulls upto the light that's by the stop. He told us to get into the car and so we did. We then went to target together. (Again). So that we would have a ride home.
Well we went because he wanted to buy a movie. So when we were checking out, there was this cute little baby sleeping bag and I was just looking at it and I just wanted to scream and cry.
I wanted to say "Look babe we should get this one for our little boy!" But I FUCKING COULDN'T.
It bothered me so freaking bad. So then I had to make sure my already fucking huge stomach didn't pop out too noticabley.
And the thing I really hate..
Please don't judge me.
When I'm around his family.. I just wish I wasn't pregnant. Idk.. Don't get me wrong I love my son more than any thing. I just feel like.. My family took it so well, congratulating me, supporting me. And his family won't. I think its just his family is like this big freaking slap in the face of reality.. It sucks.
But I was just so mad and angry..
Like literally when I'm with them I just look at my stomach like WTF I CANT HAVE A KID.. Why didn't I just have an ..abortion.. Then my whole rest of my day is ruined.. Then the next day I'll hold my belly and tell my baby boy I didn't mean it..
:""(
Am I a bad mom already?! I know I love my son but reality is such a harsh thing. I just hate being judged in this fucking situation that it makes me think things like that..
So the other day me and my OH are walking to the bus stop as we just left Target. And his brother pulls upto the light that's by the stop. He told us to get into the car and so we did. We then went to target together. (Again). So that we would have a ride home.
Well we went because he wanted to buy a movie. So when we were checking out, there was this cute little baby sleeping bag and I was just looking at it and I just wanted to scream and cry.
I wanted to say "Look babe we should get this one for our little boy!" But I FUCKING COULDN'T.
It bothered me so freaking bad. So then I had to make sure my already fucking huge stomach didn't pop out too noticabley.
And the thing I really hate..
Please don't judge me.
When I'm around his family.. I just wish I wasn't pregnant. Idk.. Don't get me wrong I love my son more than any thing. I just feel like.. My family took it so well, congratulating me, supporting me. And his family won't. I think its just his family is like this big freaking slap in the face of reality.. It sucks.
But I was just so mad and angry..
Like literally when I'm with them I just look at my stomach like WTF I CANT HAVE A KID.. Why didn't I just have an ..abortion.. Then my whole rest of my day is ruined.. Then the next day I'll hold my belly and tell my baby boy I didn't mean it..
:""(
Am I a bad mom already?! I know I love my son but reality is such a harsh thing. I just hate being judged in this fucking situation that it makes me think things like that..