I think I need a break

[terces]

My hubby and I have been trying since September 2010. I know compared to some that's nothing, but I feel like I need a break. I've taken Clomid for 5months and only O'd 2 times. I've had an ultrasound down only to reveal everything looks fine. My husbands sperm count is on the low side of normal, but they said the sperm he has are good. So, it is all me and my lack of ovulation. I just don't get it. If everything looks so normal, why even on clomid don't I O. They even upped the clomid. Everyone around me seems to be getting pregnant. Even people who don't want a baby. I just feel like I need to get away from the whole process. I want to be a mother more than anything, but the hurt is just to much right now. Thanks for letting me vent.

 

[abrock]

Hi Terces...I know exactly how you feel. I have just completed my last (4th) round of clomid and don't know where to go from here. My dh's count is normal. I can't say for certain if I actually o'd with clomid since my doctor never checked, but I feel like I did. I should have been pregnant by now. My dh thinks we shouldn't be trying so hard. "It happens when you least expect it"...a quote from his friends...I think he is just trying to make me feel better (since work sent him almost 5 hours away m-f). I feel frustrated, helpless, and hopeless. I am going to take a small break and hope for the best. I am seeing a new doc in April and hoping she gives a damn and can help.

It is really hard, most of the time, but we all need to try and stay positive. It WILL happen. It isn't a question of if, but when. ....That is what I am trying to tell myself anyways. lol.
Also, not for all, but for many women who have become pregnant, it wasn't an accident. They have been trying hard and they have finally been granted the miracle of a child. None of those people seem to be around me, (lol). I worked in the service industry for 5 years. I lost count of how many 17/18 yr old girls got pregnant by random guys...Urgh!
and then had the NERVE to ask me when I was having a baby!

...I work with a woman who talks about her child ALL THE TIME. She knows we have been trying, but still shows no consideration. I can't blame her for loving her baby. She deserves to be a mother. It is just so hard sometimes to listen.

I feel a little better now. Thanks for listening.

Something new I have been trying is leaving little notes for myself. In my "cycle calendar" I have a note that says "SMILE" and another that says "Think Postively". It is the best I can try for right now.
I am here for you if you need someone to talk with Terces. You are not alone in your struggle.

 

[Armywife84]

I'll be going on a break soon too!

 

[aintlifegrand]

I took a break for a couple months last year, I still "tried" on the right days, but no soft cups, preseed and tried not to obsess.

 

[cooch]

Can you ask for Femara? It works with a lot of women who fail to ovulate on Clomid.

Plus I feel your pain. We've been TTC the exact same time, I've been on fertility meds since Aug, had a lap in Nov and next week having tubal cannulation to try and unblock the tube which is on the side I only ever ovulate from. So, there's always another hurdle we just have to keep jumping. But, I do agree it can be good have a month off every so often. DH and I didn't try July, Aug and Sep last year as we were starting the meds and we were both so relaxed.x

 

[wonderstars]

Vent away my dear. I totally hear ya. We started August 2010 (well, that's the month I came off the pill anyway). It's really tough to take, I admire the women who are able to cope longer.

We're going to take a month off before I start my clomid. I got a prescription for 3 cycles (unmonitored) while I await my appt with the specialist (up to 8 months!!!!!)

A break is never a bad thing. It'll be nice to rediscover "enjoyable" sex without putting your legs over your head for 10 minutes after!

 

[Armywife84]

10 minutes? I do it for 30.

 

[wonderstars]

I did it for 30 until I hit the 12 month mark then said f*ck it, that's not working.

The last 2 cycles? Meh, I just get up. No lying down, no pillows, just up and to the toilet. In fact, no OPKs or much sex either. Huh.

 

[terces]

Can you ask for Femara? It works with a lot of women who fail to ovulate on Clomid.

Plus I feel your pain. We've been TTC the exact same time, I've been on fertility meds since Aug, had a lap in Nov and next week having tubal cannulation to try and unblock the tube which is on the side I only ever ovulate from. So, there's always another hurdle we just have to keep jumping. But, I do agree it can be good have a month off every so often. DH and I didn't try July, Aug and Sep last year as we were starting the meds and we were both so relaxed.x

I will talk to my Dr. about that. Thanks! Ovulating 2 out of 5 times is pretty low in my opinion. Do you see a specialist? My OBGYN is amazing, but I don't know if I need something more or not. Unfortunately we don't have fertility specialist here, I would have to drive over 100 miles to get to one.

 

[patiently]

Ladies can i join? I have been ttc since april 2010 and last year had two losses...so i am on my third round of clomid, I ovulated on 50mg for the first two months but then this last month i was put on 100mg and have still not ovulated yet...well i dont think so according to ff also. I am considering whether or not i should take a break after i get AF this cycle as i keep stressing month after month and i really think its bringing me down...what do you think? is it ok to take a month off of clomid and resume after..? and has anyone experienced ovulation on lower doses but no ovulation on higher doses? I know we WILL all get our babies eventually just hope the wait isnt too long x

 

[heavenly]

Hugs to you all. It is hard, isn't it. We have been TTC for 4 years, my FSH is 6.2 and OH's SA is fine. I am now on Clomid for 4 cycles, I am ovulating on it at least but if no joy after 4 cycles, we will have to look at IVF...which scares me witless...the expense, the emotional side of it...if it doesn't work etc....I wish I could take a break from it all but being 46, this year is last chance saloon.

to all.

 

[abrock]

Heavenly- I thought clomid would be my miracle drug...turns out it wasn't. I have, however, read so many success stories for women it worked for. I really hope you are one of those lucky women. Something to consider before ivf is femara. I have heard that femara works for some women where clomid has failed. It is a very similiar drug with less side effects, less chance for multiples, and less chance of cysts. Also, you might want to talk to your dr. about iui while you are on one of those drugs. It is substantially less expensive. When I go back to the dr in April those are 2 things I am going to check on before moving to ivf...(I am very scared of ivf not working as well, and it is so expensive!)

I am sending baby dust your way! and to everyone else as well!

 

[heavenly]

Heavenly- I thought clomid would be my miracle drug...turns out it wasn't. I have, however, read so many success stories for women it worked for. I really hope you are one of those lucky women. Something to consider before ivf is femara. I have heard that femara works for some women where clomid has failed. It is a very similiar drug with less side effects, less chance for multiples, and less chance of cysts. Also, you might want to talk to your dr. about iui while you are on one of those drugs. It is substantially less expensive. When I go back to the dr in April those are 2 things I am going to check on before moving to ivf...(I am very scared of ivf not working as well, and it is so expensive!)

I am sending baby dust your way! and to everyone else as well!

Thank you. Good luck to you as well.

Well at 46, the decision will be my own eggs or DE?
I know that success rate of IUI is lower than IVF as well. So many things to think about.

 

[terces]

I don't think they will be giving me Clomid anymore. I called and said it wasn't working and they looked at my charts. They want to see me again for more tests. I have several of the symptoms of PCOS. Not excited about that, but if that's what it is I'd rather know now then later. BABY DUST to all of you!