If I could have one thing

[Tasha]

I wrote this and put in on another forum, but thought I would share it here too, as there are sadly lots of people who have lost their babies here too xxxxxx


Often I have thought about if I could have one thing what would it be, other than the obvious, to have you back.

Would be it to know your safe and well? No in my heart this I know is true. SO then would it be your smell? Although I love that smell, one all of your own, I wouldn't choose that either, I will remember that smell forever.

So it plays on, would it be the way you feel in my arms, the touch of your skin, the taste when I kissed, to hold your hand just one more time? And in all honesty I can say it is none of these, you see I have had all of these, and they are forever embedded in my heart and mind, I know every detail of your little body, every flick of your hair, every finger, the turn of your nose.

So the one thing I would choose, the one thing I never had, the thing that keeps me awake at night, would be to look in to your eyes. I never knew I could miss something I never had. I long to know the colour and the shape. I need to look deep in to your eyes, right in to your sole. I need to know you love me, but most of all I need you to know I love you.

 

[chrissie33]

Oh my word Tasha - that is beautiful!

 

[Waiting2bMommy]

 

[lammy456]

you made me cry now, sorry for your loss xx

 

[timinolola]

courage

 

[Tasha]

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[WelshGirl]

So true Tasha - my little boy was stillborn in January, and your words sum things up perfectly.

to you xxx

 

[Jemma_x]

thats beautiful tasha

 

[Angeldust]

Thats lovely hun so sorry for your loss

 

[jnall1965]

tasha

that is brilliant, i am sitting here sobbing over the loss of my 6 angels. it is wonderful reading these words

thankyou

I wrote this and put in on another forum, but thought I would share it here too, as there are sadly lots of people who have lost their babies here too xxxxxx


Often I have thought about if I could have one thing what would it be, other than the obvious, to have you back.

Would be it to know your safe and well? No in my heart this I know is true. SO then would it be your smell? Although I love that smell, one all of your own, I wouldn't choose that either, I will remember that smell forever.

So it plays on, would it be the way you feel in my arms, the touch of your skin, the taste when I kissed, to hold your hand just one more time? And in all honesty I can say it is none of these, you see I have had all of these, and they are forever embedded in my heart and mind, I know every detail of your little body, every flick of your hair, every finger, the turn of your nose.

So the one thing I would choose, the one thing I never had, the thing that keeps me awake at night, would be to look in to your eyes. I never knew I could miss something I never had. I long to know the colour and the shape. I need to look deep in to your eyes, right in to your sole. I need to know you love me, but most of all I need you to know I love you.

 

[LoraLoo]

Hun, I was sat here thinking someone had nicked that verse from you and was about to go mad, when i realised I think its so lovely hun, the words always make me cry.Oh and you're right, we obviously ARE on the same forum lol.
Love Lora xxxxx

 

[Tasha]

Lol Lora, something tells me we are yes. Nope no one stole it. Hope your okay?

 

[Drazic<3]

Thats beautiful, thank you for posting

 

[becky77]

oh my goodness i have not cried since i found out my baby had died ,but that got me well and truly, thats one of the most beautiful things i have ever read.
so sorry for your loss

 

[jacky24]

That is trully beautiful and heart felt...

 

[Tasha]

Bumping for the people who's babies have grown there wings recently

 

[meldmac]

That is beautiful. Made me tear up.

 

[Sparklestar]

Thats made me cry! So beautiful, big hugs xxx

 

[Jody R]

That was really lovely and it touched me especially today because I was thinking earlier of the things I wish we had.

With Ally, I wish we had been able to see him but we weren't allowed. I've never seen my eldest son at all.

And with Elisabeth, I wish we could have heard her laugh. Joseph laughed properly for the first time today and that's what started me thinking about things like this.

You said how this feels, to miss something you haven't had, exactly right, thank you.

 

[Tasha]

Thanks x x x x x x

Jody it is so hard when we think about those things, hoping the rest of the day is more gentle sweetie x