I wrote this and put in on another forum, but thought I would share it here too, as there are sadly lots of people who have lost their babies here too xxxxxx Often I have thought about if I could have one thing what would it be, other than the obvious, to have you back. Would be it to know your safe and well? No in my heart this I know is true. SO then would it be your smell? Although I love that smell, one all of your own, I wouldn't choose that either, I will remember that smell forever. So it plays on, would it be the way you feel in my arms, the touch of your skin, the taste when I kissed, to hold your hand just one more time? And in all honesty I can say it is none of these, you see I have had all of these, and they are forever embedded in my heart and mind, I know every detail of your little body, every flick of your hair, every finger, the turn of your nose. So the one thing I would choose, the one thing I never had, the thing that keeps me awake at night, would be to look in to your eyes. I never knew I could miss something I never had. I long to know the colour and the shape. I need to look deep in to your eyes, right in to your sole. I need to know you love me, but most of all I need you to know I love you.