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[LeahLou]

This month I think I'm O'ing on DH's birthday so it'd be fun to say we conceived then we got this Jackie!!! Hope it's our month!!

 

[MeaganMackenz]

Morning ladies.

Nothing to report. No tests. Boobs are getting worse. No spotting since that 1 time yesterday afternoon. Im letting things happen I think itll end in AF but I suppose thats not 100% just yet!

 

[Jalanis22]

This month I think I'm O'ing on DH's birthday so it'd be fun to say we conceived then we got this Jackie!!! Hope it's our month!!

I really hope so lol....last night i was all emotional on youtube watching "pregnant surprises" i wish it was all real happening again

 

[babyjan]

Noticed I'm still subscribed to this thread, hope all you girls get your BFP soon and for those who have that I've missed congratulations!

I hope I can join you all on the testing soon, think I'm 3 dpo now

 

[MeaganMackenz]

Pinkish brown spotting, low cervix. I'm signing off and calling my last cycle a no go ladies. I wish you girls the best of luck in your future cycles you've been gems truly.

Meagan xox

 

[slg76]

you will be missed Meagan. Take good care of yourself and come back to see us when you are ready. xo

 

[Mummy23beauts]

I think im with you there meagan, af due tomorrow and bfn still. If I was pg id have clear lines by now! Good luck for next cycle ladies xx

 

[LeahLou]

So sad! Don't quit on us!!

 

[Jalanis22]

Aww how sad meagan. Ive been feeling down all day even though i went to do some shopping and got a bit excited with victorias secret annual sale

 

[MeaganMackenz]

Sorry chickas, I really disheartened. I was 1000% sure this month was it. And with every symptom I got that I have NEVER gotten before I became more and more sure. But BFN after BFN and now the random spotting I know its over.

Yes, there was a clear line in my FRER, but how much work on 1 picture did it take to get it? It was a 100% negative, then I tweaked it and it became 75% negative then it was tweaked AGAIN to become 75% positive. Thats not a BFP, but grasping at straws

Its been really hard. I know you girls understand. Being 1000% sure and being disappointed. I have a girlfriend of mine who refuses to accept that after all my symptoms and her "feeling" that its not happening. She talks about it all the time, wants me to test all the time regardless of how many BFN I show her. Makes it worse.. Anyways, I luv you gals. I might stick around, but if im moving to NTNP then I wont be testing until Im late. xoxo

 

[LeahLou]

Stick around TTC or not!!! Please!

 

[MeaganMackenz]

Ill give it some thought, it was a horribly emotional rollercoaster this time. I still cant understand the pain in my boobs. I was so happy when I saw my second line in the black and white tweak but then I thought it through enough and realized it wasnt there.
Maybe im just in a funk, i might snap out after AF. Might even change my mind who knows.

 

[LeahLou]

I've been there too. Only way I got out of it was mind over matter. One month can't defeat me. Plus I was so upset and frustrated that I wasn't enjoying my then-1 year old and it wasn't fair to her. I didn't want my life to suffer from a dream of what could be. I have to choose every day to be in the day instead of wasting time on what wasn't or can't. On to the next month or next event!

 

[Jalanis22]

Well said leah! It hurts us no matter what but we learn to live and let go...god has a plan for all of us and only he knows when will we be ready to a mother once again

 

[slg76]

I understand your disappointment Meagan. I'm so sorry. Having a baby should be easier than this! You will be missed very much if you go but you do what is best for you. Maybe give it a couple days and see how you feel. I know you are having a particularly rough time right now. I learned a hard lesson last month with hpts. I think I will be testing much later from now on.....if I ever get a cycle that is.

 

[MeaganMackenz]

Broke down an tested again. Huge bfn with FRER. I had bought a digital cuz I just had to see it. Now I'm going to save it. I'm cramping pretty bad and have been spotting mildly. Frick I was so so sure. Next O day is actually our anniversary so we might give it 1 more go, even if it does give us yet another oct bday. Not sure yet. I'm goin to take a few days. Let AF come and go. Def won't be testing until closer to AF I can't do the bfns everyday when testing early. Have a good weekend ladies, I'll regroup and see you in a bit xox

 

[MeaganMackenz]

full blown when I woke up.

Ive learned 3 things this cycle:

1. No testing if I spot because spotting always leads to AF
2. No symptom spotting
3. My periods are coming a day earlier then my app says

Hubby wants to keep going but switch up our approach, we talked last night. I guess that means to move to somewhere between NTNP and TTC

 

[Jalanis22]

Sorry got u but good because you wont b stressing yourself no more with seeing or not seeing lines....this means new cycle, new hope...good luck hun

AFM cd9 and bfn opks, ive never used em before constantly so i have no idea when will the it start rising fir a bfp opk

 

[EMSwife1124]

Hi ladies.. I've been quiet since AF arrived. I was happy and moving along with my plan to just relax and let come what may. I also focused on getting my doctor to resolve my thyroid issue so I have one less hurdle in having a baby. I was very proud of how relaxed I was being about it..... until last night. Hubby's sister invited the family out to dinner which isn't unusual because we do that often. I thought it was a normal family dinner until she said "we have something to tell you".. my heart immediately sank. She then showed us pictures of her tests. She is due September 10th.
A HUGE flood of emotion came over me. Excited, happy, sad, disappointed.. you name it. I felt it. I could feel tears coming on so I excused myself to the car. I was trying to get my composure and then I looked up and saw someone coming to the car. I thought it was my husband but it was his sister. I immediately felt all new emotions because I rained her exciting news. She was very understanding and hugged me. She then followed it with asking if we had been trying (no one really knows we are) so I told her. We talked for a second and went back inside.
I am still very emotional about it mainly because it brought back all of my disappointment from our failed few months of trying.
Anyway - I know you ladies can sympathize so I thought I'd share.

Hope everyone else is doing well

 

[MeaganMackenz]

I know exactly how you feel! Hubby and I had only tried 1 cycle with dd2 and were fresh off our BFN when his sister announced her BFP. Of course I didn't have any BFNs under my belt so I completely sympathize with your extra emotions but the BFN was so fresh it stung a bit. Hers was a "whoops". Thankfully we got ours next month. Hang in there honey, try to go back to your previous approach and getting yourself in the head and physical state you need to be in and get back on ur horse

By horse I mean hubby