My DH and I were ttc until he changed his mind a couple of month ago saying he wasn't ready at the moment (and might never be but that's a whole different story).
Anyway I was devastated but had to accept it. We aren't being particularly careful and only using the withdrawal method because I really don't want to go back on the pill.
Last night we dtd and he pulled out as usual. I so desperately want this other baby that he no longer wants and keep hoping for a little accident as I know this method isn't very reliable. But last night I saw all the semen lying there and I just couldn't resist putting some inside me with my finger when he left the room.
I feel like an awful person but I want this so badly and we were trying until he decided to change his mind. I'm not really asking anything I just feel like confessing on here.
Anyway I was devastated but had to accept it. We aren't being particularly careful and only using the withdrawal method because I really don't want to go back on the pill.
Last night we dtd and he pulled out as usual. I so desperately want this other baby that he no longer wants and keep hoping for a little accident as I know this method isn't very reliable. But last night I saw all the semen lying there and I just couldn't resist putting some inside me with my finger when he left the room.
I feel like an awful person but I want this so badly and we were trying until he decided to change his mind. I'm not really asking anything I just feel like confessing on here.