I'm back!!

[maz]

Well, that was short, and I wish I could say sweet.

Unfortunately, it obviously wasn't meant to be. It was confirmed at the hospital yesterday that my hcg was down to 2, so chances are my pregnancy was gone when I tested on Friday, but the levels were still high enough to register. That probably explains why the line tests weren't getting any stronger.

So I've been signed off work for 3 weeks, and I'm going to try and get some counselling during that time. We go back for a treatment review on January 7th, and then we'll decide when we go again. While I'm hurting at the moment, I had always told DH that if the treatment didn't work, I wanted to get straight back into it. DH is keen to go again, but only when I feel ready. So the sooner I get my head round this lost pregnancy, the sooner I will be able to cope with another treatment cycle.

I'm probably not going to be around too much over the next few weeks. So good luck to anyone having tests, good luck to anyone having treatment, and everyone have a lovely Christmas and a Happy New Year. Hopefully 2009 will be a great year for us all...

xx

 

[Nicnac]

Sorry for your loss

 

[FJL]

I was so sad to hear of your news Maz. This is just so unfair

We're all here for you anytime you need us

I truly hope that 2009 is the year for your miracle xx

 

[Mrs R]

Oh Maz, I'm so sorry. Thinking of u and DH and looking forward to seeing u back on BnB when u feel ready.

Hope u have a nice relaxing Christmas and fertile New Year xx

 

[Coffee]

Oh Maz, that's so cruel.
Thinking of you

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

o hun thats horrid had so much hope for u... i really hope u and OH find the strength 2 carry on. u have 2 bounce back u helped me out with the ivf question the ova day xx

 

[Bexy]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss - life can be so cruel! Wishing you a lovely Xmas and here's to 2009 and lots of LTTTC'rs BFP miracles! xxx

 

[HAYS]

oh no hun, im so very very sorry-dont no what else to say.

Thinking of youxxxxx

 

[MissAma]

I hope you check your diary and if not this.... I've been right where you are a few months ago and all I can say is be good to each other during Xmas and take it very slow.

One way or another, next year at this time we'll be either pregnant or have our bundles already!

 

[rachelle1975]

Hey gorgeous girl

I'm so sorry for what happened but i'm glad that you sound pretty 'together' - shows what a very strong person you are.

I hope that you and DH have a fantastic Christmas, a few glasses of sherry with santa and a couple of minced pies. Get your head and heart healthy again and then tackle it fresh and smiling in the new year. May 2009 bring you all your heart desires

 

[Beckic]

Oh hunni I am so sorry.

You are being so strong - I am so proud of you. You are an example to us all.

Lots and lots and lots of hugs to you hunni - and I am crossing everything that 2009 is a wonderful year for you.

thinking of you sweetie,

Bx x x

 

[Stardancer]

I'm so sorry to hear this Maz, life is so unfair. Look after yourself

 

[DaisyDuke]

I'm so so sorry babe, this is so unfair

 

[leeanne]

So sorry for your loss

 

[miel]

 

[wannabmum]

I'm so sorry huni I've just found out my heart sunk when I saw this post I know nothing I can say right now can help so just wanted to say and we are here when ur ready.

xxxx

 

[akcher]

I am so sorry and sad for your loss. I hope the time off will help and that the new years brings you what you are wishing for.

 

[AutumnSky]

I'm so sorry sweetheart.

 

[BigFoot1980]

 

[MrsF]

thinking of you hun x x x