FloatingKiss
3 angels xxx
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Hi ladies,
Sending out hugs to you all if you are going through or have suffered a mc/s.
It is just awful.
I'm here again for the 3rd time and to be honest I'm just not sure that I can keep doing this.
It's still very raw, only found out on Monday that there is defo no hb and 'it' had shrunk.. So they said that I've had another missed miscarriage and I've now got to wait until Friday until I can go for 'the op'.
I just don't understand.
Why does this keep happening to us.
Why is it that every single person that I know can pop out babies easy as pie and I can't?
My friends ALL have 2 or more kids.
My family ALL have 2 or more kids (one of them has 7!!!!!!!!!!!!).
Yesterday I had to go back to the hospital and sit in the antenatel clinic - watching people going into the scan rooms and coming out, grinning and waving their scan pictures around....
I was trying so hard to be pleased for them but all I wanted to do was cry.
I'm still getting all the flipping pregnancy symptoms but I now keep getting pains.... every single time I get a pain I wonder "is it going to happen now, is my body going to mc now"?
A few of my friends knew that we were pregnant and as I'm on this site - I hope you won't mind me saying ..... if anyone else says to be "but look on the bright side, you can get pregnant" - I think I'll punch them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry... I'm a lover not a fighter but I wished people would stop saying that to me! Arrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
I am with the recurrent miscarriage clinic and one programme that I was in has come back as all okay (thyroid)... not that I want anything to be wrong, but I guess I just wanted them to find something to blame, so it could be fixed... is that wrong for thinking like that?
Anyway.... sorry to rant on... I just feel so useless, inferior and unable to give my husband what he so desperately wants (all of his mates are popping out babies too)....
I just don't get it.. I really don't.
Sending you all massive hugs and sending anyone that is hoping for bambinoes all the baby fairy dust in the world.
FloatingKiss
xx