Today is mine and my husbands anniversary and I am so down I tried to be dressed all nice when he came home, but because I was 4 months pg last week none of my small clothes fit me and because I am not pg my maternity summer clothes dont fit me anymore. I feel so fat right now Then I find out my neighbour had her baby on the day I lost Hadlee and on top of all that we cant even "be together" yet as I am not allowed to do anything for another week I know I am lucky just to be able to have this day with my husband but today just sucks I am supposed to be 4.5 months pregnant, happy and enjoying tonight with my husband.... and even on top of all that his gift isnt even ready yet... I am writing him a poem and I didnt have time to finish it