I seem to ruin everything for my husband at the moment. I was at home alone with my 3 year old(then 2 and half year old)son finley when i had my abruption with Bodhi in march and we lost him. It was the most scary thing ive ever been through and since becoming pregant with this baby im so scared to be at home without my husband here.He gets invited to things and i get so panicked when i know its hours away.I just cant be on my own. He has his xmas party tomorrow but its a fair few hours away and they are all going in a mini bus apparently.Ofcourse i did say what if something happens and you arent here??? I feel so bad for him,but i dont know if he really understands how scared i am of being on my own.I dont know what to do. If he was closer it wouldnt be so bad. But for me hours away and not even have his car is too much.Am i being selfish and silly? Please what would you do. PS: we have refrained from sex aswell as im too afraid it would cause something bad to happen to this baby too. He has been so good to me and i just feel like im letting him down.