SoupDragon
Mum of 1, LTWTT #2
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Me and DH have just turned 36, and our daughter will be 3 in October. We always planned to have two, but we have both found parenting to be soooo much harder than we expected and we're both flipping knackered! DD is most definitely spirited, very much a mama's girl, and isn't ready to share me yet.
We decided we aren't ready for another any time soon, and that probably when DD is getting near school age would be a good time to revisit it. She'll start school in September 2019, when me and DH will be 38.
I'm doing a pretty full-on professional qualification that is due to finish in October 2020, so I'd have to delay the final stages of that and then deal with a 2-day exam away from home with a young toddler, if we had another one before I finished, but I feel like I don't want to delay a pregnancy that long, especially in view of my age.
We haven't talked about it recently but whenever I mention that someone we know with a child of a similar age to DD is pregnant, he gets a pained look on his face, like he can't bear the thought of another one. I can't decide if he has changed his mind and doesn't want another, or just *not now* (I know the only way to know this is to ask him, lol, and I will. He doesn't talk about stuff like this of his own volition and I don't want to pressure him.)
I go through phases of being crazy broody, wanting another one (again, *not now*, but in time)...having another go at a vaginal birth (with DD I had an emcs due to her being malpositioned and huge and totally stuck) and breastfeeding (pumped for 12 months due to undiagnosed ptt). I want to be pregnant again, I want to have another snuggly newborn, I want to do all the 'firsts' again and see who that little bundle will turn into.
But then I go through phases (usually when DD is being a nightmare) of not wanting to do this again! Dealing with teething, tantrums, and getting up for the day at 4am, and the possibility of another emcs and having to use formula again...having to potty train again, possibly having to go through another long period of having a sick child with undiagnosed asthma, and all the unknown stuff about how DD will react to having to share me and the stress of managing two children, especially if #2 is like DD and doesn't sleep! Plus I need 'me' time to stay sane, and with 2 will I ever get that?? I barely get any with one!
I don't want DD to be an only child - she only has one cousin and won't be getting any more, and even though I am not close to my only sibling, it's nice to know he's there. I want her to have someone of her own blood once we're gone, and not be alone. But things are pretty stable right now, and I don't know if rocking the boat is a good idea?
Can anyone relate? Have you felt like this, and what did you decide?
We decided we aren't ready for another any time soon, and that probably when DD is getting near school age would be a good time to revisit it. She'll start school in September 2019, when me and DH will be 38.
I'm doing a pretty full-on professional qualification that is due to finish in October 2020, so I'd have to delay the final stages of that and then deal with a 2-day exam away from home with a young toddler, if we had another one before I finished, but I feel like I don't want to delay a pregnancy that long, especially in view of my age.
We haven't talked about it recently but whenever I mention that someone we know with a child of a similar age to DD is pregnant, he gets a pained look on his face, like he can't bear the thought of another one. I can't decide if he has changed his mind and doesn't want another, or just *not now* (I know the only way to know this is to ask him, lol, and I will. He doesn't talk about stuff like this of his own volition and I don't want to pressure him.)
I go through phases of being crazy broody, wanting another one (again, *not now*, but in time)...having another go at a vaginal birth (with DD I had an emcs due to her being malpositioned and huge and totally stuck) and breastfeeding (pumped for 12 months due to undiagnosed ptt). I want to be pregnant again, I want to have another snuggly newborn, I want to do all the 'firsts' again and see who that little bundle will turn into.
But then I go through phases (usually when DD is being a nightmare) of not wanting to do this again! Dealing with teething, tantrums, and getting up for the day at 4am, and the possibility of another emcs and having to use formula again...having to potty train again, possibly having to go through another long period of having a sick child with undiagnosed asthma, and all the unknown stuff about how DD will react to having to share me and the stress of managing two children, especially if #2 is like DD and doesn't sleep! Plus I need 'me' time to stay sane, and with 2 will I ever get that?? I barely get any with one!
I don't want DD to be an only child - she only has one cousin and won't be getting any more, and even though I am not close to my only sibling, it's nice to know he's there. I want her to have someone of her own blood once we're gone, and not be alone. But things are pretty stable right now, and I don't know if rocking the boat is a good idea?
Can anyone relate? Have you felt like this, and what did you decide?