Hello all,
Though I have wanted to be a mom forever, I only started actively TTC- ing last year when I turned 38. I am single by choice and everybody kept telling me that I didn't know what I was getting into. They said it was OK if I didn't want a partner but it was unfair for the baby. Though I disagreed, they made me feel guilty and selfish so I kept postponing. That was SO stupid of me. I am very, very happy living on my own and my home is a perfectly happy home to bring a baby to.
Last year, I FINALLY made up my mind and, for three cycles, I TTC-ed by trying to pinpoint my fertile days using OPKs, no stimulating meds, no trigger, just home ICI and progesterone supplements. It didn't work so, early this year, I decided to go to a clinic.
After tests and one postponed cycle because of a cyst, I finally had my very first IUI on 8/14/14. Though I would advise everybody NOT to do this, I started testing very early because I just couldn't help it. I cried like crazy when I saw my first hint of a line, I was a nervous wreck as I saw my BFPs get darker and darker. I have now had two positive betas and, though I know it is very very early, I am finally allowing myself to be optimistic. I am still scared and in shock, but I am also very happy! I am just SO lucky I am pregnant! I read here what many families have to go through and how brave people are and I admire you all SO much.
Lots of luck to everybody!!
Though I have wanted to be a mom forever, I only started actively TTC- ing last year when I turned 38. I am single by choice and everybody kept telling me that I didn't know what I was getting into. They said it was OK if I didn't want a partner but it was unfair for the baby. Though I disagreed, they made me feel guilty and selfish so I kept postponing. That was SO stupid of me. I am very, very happy living on my own and my home is a perfectly happy home to bring a baby to.
Last year, I FINALLY made up my mind and, for three cycles, I TTC-ed by trying to pinpoint my fertile days using OPKs, no stimulating meds, no trigger, just home ICI and progesterone supplements. It didn't work so, early this year, I decided to go to a clinic.
After tests and one postponed cycle because of a cyst, I finally had my very first IUI on 8/14/14. Though I would advise everybody NOT to do this, I started testing very early because I just couldn't help it. I cried like crazy when I saw my first hint of a line, I was a nervous wreck as I saw my BFPs get darker and darker. I have now had two positive betas and, though I know it is very very early, I am finally allowing myself to be optimistic. I am still scared and in shock, but I am also very happy! I am just SO lucky I am pregnant! I read here what many families have to go through and how brave people are and I admire you all SO much.
Lots of luck to everybody!!
x
