IUI Jan/Feb/March/Apr/May 2012 - Status updates on page one 12 bfp

[Nicker]

Welcome miss!

 

[isela]

Equal take all the time you need i know how you feeling right now i have two miscarriages last year the first was 12 weeks and the second was 5 1/2 weeks and im still heart broken...God Bless You...

iam in a group in facebook it really help me ( Iam a mother to an angel )

 

[Chiles]

Hi ladies! I just came across this thread and would love to join. I am currently in the 2ww at 2dpiui. This is iui #1 and our 2nd Clomid cycle. We have been ttc for almost 2 years. This is going to be a long 2ww. Congrats to all the BFP's so far and to everyone else.

Good Luck!!!!!

 

[MommyMel]

Hi ladies! I just came across this thread and would love to join. I am currently in the 2ww at 2dpiui. This is iui #1 and our 2nd Clomid cycle. We have been ttc for almost 2 years. This is going to be a long 2ww. Congrats to all the BFP's so far and to everyone else.

Welcome...... i am also 2dpiui, IUI #2.....
how do you feel.....

i feel a little bloated, and my tummy is a little tender and swollen (unlike iui#1)

i am feeping fx'd for you hun....
take care

 

[Step Mummy]

Hi ladies on one hand I can't wait to start again with go 4, but on the other hand I am dreading it! At least I know what I am doing and what to expect. The first go was quite easy, I kind of didn't expect it to work, te 2nd go was the worst, I was devastated, the third, I think I was so focused on going again, and was then told we should chose a new Donor and then with Christmas the clinic would be closed so I couldn't do the following month, then we couldn't find a donor for a few months, then we were moving house so had to leave it another month and now I have waited 5 months! And I feel more anxious that I would have been had we just gone again straight away!

After reading some of the earlier posts, I can see that everyone is the same, this is addictive, there is no two ways about it, I think for the DH's they are on the same journey as us, but no way are they as obsessed by it. I am not sure much else passes through my mind any more, I think that I think about TTC 90% of my waking hours! Even while we had been having a break I am still obsessing about the 2WW when we have been told we WILL NOT be a miracle couple and get PG ourselves. I constantly look for "Signs" and try to convince myself something different is going on, then say you stupid cow of course there isn't - it's like I have a fight in my head, I know I can't be PG...but just maybe....

There is just no break from this, no respite, it does not leave your head.

It is a tough journey and one I will be glad to be out of. After you have gone this far, how do you say enoughs enough its time to stop. And it's true, I am sure our DH's would love to have their wives back, and I for sure would love to be back to the happy go lucky person I once was, who smiled lots and laughed lots - I am not sure that person even exists anymore. Even when I finally get a BFP I will be terrified something will go wrong - as so many of you have already experienced - does it ever end! I really would like a magic wand to erase this obsession and make me move on with life without any more upset.

Oh well, onwards we go...........

 

[Hopeful42nd]

I think you have to find a way to work through the depression, with the help of your partner, and possibly even outside help if need be. I was very depressed during my first ttc journey, and the longer it took it just shattered me, I wasn't enjoying life, it was all I could focus on, every month I would have sudden hope, then be crushed and felt like my body was worthless. The last attempt when I got my bfp my attitude was different. It was as if I was so tired of the emotional side I just gave it up. I was bland, just said, 'if it doesn't work we just keep going until it does' I think giving in like that really helped me not wrap everything into 'that' time working. It's certainly helped with this ttc journey. I still had those few days in the tww where I would cry, but it wasn't the same. I knew I would not give up! Even while pregnant with my son, I didn't worry like most women do about each and every thing, I trusted that he was fine this time I've been a bit weaker, and I think it's from being on here. Lots of the ladies once pregnant are constantly freaking out about betas, about hearing a heartbeat, and on the list goes. I think it can be a bit unhealthy, so I try to take it all with a grain of salt and to not let it get in my head.

 

[wantbabysoon]

Equal - Take care of yourself!

 

[miss_f]

Hi ladies! I just came across this thread and would love to join. I am currently in the 2ww at 2dpiui. This is iui #1 and our 2nd Clomid cycle. We have been ttc for almost 2 years. This is going to be a long 2ww. Congrats to all the BFP's so far and to everyone else.

Welcome...... i am also 2dpiui, IUI #2.....
how do you feel.....

i feel a little bloated, and my tummy is a little tender and swollen (unlike iui#1)

i am feeping fx'd for you hun....
take care

I feel exactly the same way! The only other thing I have noticed is waking up at 4 or so in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep. That happened to me last month too though, must be the hormones. Keep us update. Fx'd for you too!

 

[ashknowsbest]

Well I tested this morning and it was BFN. I'm only 10dpiui so I know I'm not out but I'm really not feeling confident about it at all. I started having sore boobs and cramps yesterday which I normally always get before AF so I'm pretty much counting myself out. I'm not really that sad about it, I have a lot going on with insurance today that I don't really have time to be worried about it. I was going down to south jersey from NYC for my IUI and that was becoming a hassle so I called my insurance company and got the okay to go to a FS here in the city. I'll be going to RMA NY. I feel good about it. I've heard good things about them. I also asked the insurance company if I was able to move onto injectables and they said that if the doctor and I decide that injectables is the way to go for this next IUI then he has to submit some paperwork from the last IUI's to let them know how everything went and how I responded and then they will decide if it's time to move on to injectables. I feel pretty good about that, because she said depending on the circumstances they won't let the doctors do more then 2 injectables before moving onto IVF only because all of the fertility drugs etc. They'd rather just move you onto IVF if IUI did't work after 4 so you have better odds. Woo! I'm glad all of that is over, I hate dealing with insurance companies!

 

[DaisyQ]

Ash, sorry about the bfn, but that's really good news about your insurance. Yay! Who will you be seeing at RMA?

 

[DaisyQ]

Oh, and are you going to tell them you were referred by daisyQ?

 

[ashknowsbest]

yes! they asked me who referred me, I'm like this girl I know on this support site! Thanks again!! I really appreciate you giving me the info!

 

[ashknowsbest]

I'll be seeing Alan Copperman

 

[DaisyQ]

Of course! I am doing IVF there next cycle if this iui is a bfn.

 

[DaisyQ]

Same as me!

 

[ashknowsbest]

Well best of luck to you! I hope you get your bfp this time so you don't have to move onto IVF but as long as you get your bfp that's all that matters! Maybe I'll see you in there!

 

[DaisyQ]

Maybe so! I won't be going in for another 2-3 weeks, but I'll let you know when I go.

 

[ashknowsbest]

I have my first appointment April 26th so I may miss my May cycle but that's okay! I'm sure my ovaries would love a break from all of medicine anyways!

 

[DaisyQ]

Yes, it sounds like you'll miss a cycle, but going to south jersey on injectables would be brutal!

 

[Hopeful42nd]

Ash- as good as it is to have a plan, you may not even need your next appointment! Still early, I got cramps like AF at 10dpo just like you, normally wouldn't get em till later, but got a bfp instead!